Nelson and Jenn's wonderful journey...

[rpmdfw]

Oh, Jenn! Wish I was there to give you a real hug! But since I can't here's a virtual one!

 

[jackskellingtonsgirl]

I'm sorry, Jenn.

 

[rosiep]

Aw Jenn...I'm so sorry. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts (as usual). Wish there was more I could say or do....I'm just so sorry that you're going through this.

We love you-
Rosie

 

[NHdisneylover]

Jenn I don't know what to say other than I am so so sorry. I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts every day.

 

[OrlandoMike]

Hang in there Jenn! (And Nelson )

Whatever is ment to be is ment to be!

I for one and looking forward to pics of you and your kids at Disney, however that happens!

 

[Saxton]

Jenn, I'm sorry. But you and Nelson will be parents and you're going to be great because you really want that baby. Somehow it will happen.

 

[hematite153]

Jenn -- I've seen this thread numerous times and tried to read it, but, gotten too caught in my own story. I finally made it through today.

There's not much I can say that hasn't been said by others -- you will make a great mom and I hope that you find the child who is meant to join your family soon.

I know all of what you are talking about (and could likely have found that missing ovary for you -- I have learned techniques while looking for one of my DW's ovaries that likes to hide...only some of the techs let me intervene, though, and those are the ones who can usually find it themselves). This December it will have been 6 years since we first started trying to get pregnant. Our clinic won't let you string as many cycles back-to-back as you have because their studies suggest that drug-breaks are important. Even with the breaks, my DW had a complete melt-down (that led to a long depression) about 1.5 years in and I was falling apart a year ago. I'm finally starting to get by brain back -- 1 year since I last took fertility meds -- but, I'm not really ready to give up the dream of a bio-child when they can't tell us what's wrong. (Plus, around here, adoption isn't so easy...7-9 year waits unless you know someone who's pregnant who chooses you...I could adopt from the US, but, my DW isn't quite ready for that option yet.)

I love this movie too! Definitely makes you laugh and cry, that makes a great movie. For me it holds a special place since I first saw it on the bus to Ayer's Rock.

Hey -- this is from awhile back, but, I also watched Priscilla when I was on a bus headed for Ayer's Rock in Sept. 1995. (I'd seen it several times before that though.)

You're going to be the "shot master" after all this.
Can I get my H1N1 shot from you Nurse Headlights?

Truly, this is the case. I was giving out advice to people about how to have their flu shots hurt less. I've given myself hundreds of sub-cutaneous shots such that I can now do so in a public bathroom without batting an eye when I actually threw the first needle I tried to give myself across the room I was shaking so hard. I've also given DEEP muscle shots to my DW and she's managed to give herself muscle shots as well when travelling for work (they said she was the first person to ask how to give them to herself in years).

Headaches... lots of headaches... literally.
... All quite normal according to the pamphlet that comes with the meds.

Ugh! Yeah...if there was a symptom listed on the sheets I got it.

The other side effect is the exhaustion. There is a sticker on the box that says not to drive, operate heavy machinery, yada, yada, yada, but nothing (not even Tylenol PM) has made me this sleepy... and it is always during the day... I get home, plop on the couch and am wide awake!

When I was taking Repronex (another brand of Menopur), my clinic told me to take it between 4 and 7 pm...I don't know if that would help with the exhaustion/wakefulness cycle, but, you could ask about it for the next cycle if it's different from what you've been doing.

I can also tell you that though the thought of MORE needles was daunting, acupuncture REALLY helped me deal with the side-effects.

Good luck Jenn! I will try to follow the rest of your story and I'm sorry it took me so long to get up the courage to read it.

 

[NHdisneylover]

Jenn-this has nothing to do with anything--just thought it may amuse you a wee bit I was playing Scattegories with the kids tonight and we had hte categories of famous Duos and Trios. FOr letter N I drew a blank and hten hit on Nelson and Jenn Rego. The kids would not give it to me, even after i pulled up this thread They said if it were 50 pages you would be famous enough on the DIS that they would let me slide. SO close

 

[jenn&nelsonrego]

Our clinic won't let you string as many cycles back-to-back as you have because their studies suggest that drug-breaks are important.

I think breaks are important too... That is why I have set my end date as December.... In December it will be one year since starting ART (trying for 4 yrs prior). Figuring in a November and (hopefully unnecessary December cycle) I will have had 6 cycles with Clomid and IUI and 4 cycles of Menopur and IUI ~ That is a whole lotta hormones to be pumping my body full of...

I think my clinic is just hell bent on getting me pregnant, which is great... but I want to attack the underlying problem too....

Even with the breaks, my DW had a complete melt-down (that led to a long depression) about 1.5 years in and I was falling apart a year ago. I'm finally starting to get by brain back -- 1 year since I last took fertility meds -- but, I'm not really ready to give up the dream of a bio-child when they can't tell us what's wrong.

So sorry about the depression. I can understand the melt downs, Ihave them periodically.

Good luck Jenn! I will try to follow the rest of your story and I'm sorry it took me so long to get up the courage to read it.

There have been many times when I just wanted to crawl under a rock and not update this and other times when I was tempted to ask Mike to take it down... But I think in a weird way - it keeps me going. It is so nice to know that there are people who care about me and who want to see this work. I also noticed how many times it has been read and wonder if it maybe if helping someone else along, because I know that no matter how many people are in the Dr.'s off ice with me in the morning, by the afternoon - I feel alone.

Good luck to you!

Jenn-this has nothing to do with anything--just thought it may amuse you a wee bit I was playing Scattegories with the kids tonight and we had hte categories of famous Duos and Trios. FOr letter N I drew a blank and hten hit on Nelson and Jenn Rego. The kids would not give it to me, even after i pulled up this thread They said if it were 50 pages you would be famous enough on the DIS that they would let me slide. SO close

HAHA! Sorry Hadley!

 

[hematite153]

I think breaks are important too... That is why I have set my end date as December.... In December it will be one year since starting ART (trying for 4 yrs prior). Figuring in a November and (hopefully unnecessary December cycle) I will have had 6 cycles with Clomid and IUI and 4 cycles of Menopur and IUI ~ That is a whole lotta hormones to be pumping my body full of...

That really is a lot of hormones. We aren't allowed to do more than 3 consecutive clomid cycles (and I only did them in twos after seeing what the third did to my DW) and we're required to take a full cycle off between all cycles involving injectibles.

(Granted...I've done 3 IVF cycles and am therefore way beyond you in terms of hormones that have entered my body over the past 5 years.)

I hope your November cycle is successful and you get to stop this process with a happy outcome. Thank you for your willingness to share your story with us all.

 

[DVC~OKW~96]

Jenn, I stop by this thread from time to time if only to let you know that another faceless person out there wishes that your dream would come true. I pretty much feel useless here, as there is nothing at all I can contribute to your experience, other than hoping all the effort you are putting into this allows you to bear a healthy child.

 

[wallyb]

The pregnancy test came back negative today.

I have two more months to get this right. I will do one more round in November and December, then I cut myself off from treatment - I cannot stay on this roller coaster forever.

Will start the adoption process in January sometime.

Sorry to hear this Jenn.
I totally get it though - It must be exhausting in every way imaginable.

 

[jamieandben]

Sorry jenn.
Big hugs to you

 

[kitsch4]

Thinking of you today. You will have a child of your very own to love- no matter how he or she comes into your life.

 

[jenn&nelsonrego]

Jenn, I stop by this thread from time to time if only to let you know that another faceless person out there wishes that your dream would come true. I pretty much feel useless here, as there is nothing at all I can contribute to your experience, other than hoping all the effort you are putting into this allows you to bear a healthy child.

Trust me. You are helping. Every encouraging post puts a smile on my face. Whether its a virtual hug or Wally being... well, Wally.

And good thoughts, pixie dust and prayers can't hurt. Thanks!

Sorry to hear this Jenn.
I totally get it though - It must be exhausting in every way imaginable.

I am not sure about a December cycle anymore. Every injection seems to hurt more than the last and every US seems to be more annoying that the last. I know it is all in my head... (go ahead...). I definitely need a break.

Sorry jenn.
Big hugs to you

Thanks Jamie!

Thinking of you today. You will have a child of your very own to love- no matter how he or she comes into your life.

What a coincidence, because I was stopping by the DIS to do some quick catching up and to update everyone. Christmas is a difficult time to work at a church. I am very busy, throw in this whole "thing" and my great aunt passing away today and all the normal everyday life things that everyone has to deal with and you have me running in 80 different directions not being able to tell which way is up...

So... here comes the update...

 

[jenn&nelsonrego]

So here we are... Getting ready to be inseminated again.

Holding out hope for this one because this is the last cycle - I think, I am pretty sure anyway. I am becoming more and more excited about the adoption option. My excitement seems to, on most days, be stronger than my disappointment. Not only that, but I am not saying that if I adopt, I am going to stop trying. I want more than one child anyway. I just keep thinking of all those children out there... I really am feeling such a strong feeling to adopt.

I am sorry I didnt update this better this month. Suffice to say, it has been a difficult month.

I noticed that it took longer this month than last and longer last month than the previous month. September took 6 days of Menopur injections, October took 9 days and this month took 12 days... I think my body is getting used to the meds.

Anyway, I spoke with my Dr. last month about a stronger "trigger" shot and doing two insemination to increase the chances. So I will take the HCG (the shot that is typically used for IVF cycles) tonight and go both tomorrow afternoon and Wednesday afternoon for the inseminations.

Wish me luck...

and to you all!

 

[DOPEYLUVER]

Good Luck Jenn, and Nelson.

 

[wallyb]

times infinity!

 

[rosiep]

Go Jenn...go Jenn...go go go Jenn!

 

[wallyb]

I could surrogate for you!

"Come over here Nelson and knock me up!"