** A RATHER LONG POST **
So, I normally go out with Ladybug
for our daily walks around the neighborhood but on this day, it was different. She did something on this day that she had never done before.
So
as we were making our way on over to the Post office area, she's always intrigued by the reflection of 'another Dog' in the building's exterior walls that look like pexi-glass or something like that.
ANYWHO -
On this day, she did the same thing and I always remark back to her "Say! Who is that Doggie in the refelction??" With her tail stright up in the air and her just a sniffing that Dog, it is always funny to watch her reactions.
I always now follow up on this by opening the door to the Post Office and saying loudly the word, "ECHO!"
She would then react by wondering just how in the world can my voice do that & her reactions are .....
well -
Priceless.
But......
on this day, she chose afterwards to look up in the direction of MY REFLECTION.
And -
I saw my reflection.
For the very first time in the longest of time.
I looked at myself very quizically titling my head sideways
as if saying, "Is that me?"
YES - THAT'S YOU.
And in the span of about 5 seconds,
I felt my heart literally drop to my feet......
a chill suddenly run down my spine......
and tears were silently running down my face.
**
I knew then for the very first time right there that I was headed for trouble if I didn't change. **
I thought of those two above listed incidences at that amusement park......
and other thoughts since literally since I was born were flashing in and out of my mind that were all bad visuals (this occured in my mind for the next three days; fyi).
These thoughts were saying to me all at once
as if to say, "WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU DOING ??"
and I just about lost it right there emotionally.
But the barking of Ladybug jolted me back into reality. I just wanted to hide but I couldn't. I wanted to scream but didn't want to - not in public.
So
we finished rather hurridly our walk and made it back home safely with me slumping down in our living room recliner.
And there I cried & cried & cried
for what seemed like about 15 or so minutes with Ladybug by my side on the floor. I could tell barely out of the corner of my rapidly blood shot eyes (cuz I was crying so much) that she looked concerend but I could also tell I was rapidly losing it emotionally.
I felt trapped.
IMHO, THIS WAS UNACCEPTABLE.
I wanted to vomit.
But with my nose also becoming more and more stopped up (OKOKOK....I KNOW we have had one way or another , this kind of a cry)......my eyes too blood shot to see, etc., I felt I needed to get myself cleaned up.
So I stumbled into the bathroom & got some cleen-ex and returned to the recliner & fliped on the TV.
I felt low.
I HIT BOTTOM.
As I was flipping around the TV, I chanced upon a TV show called "Live Big With Ali Vincent" which is on the Live Well Network.
(I love that channel; especially the show, "Motion" & if I had one wish, it would be to be a Guest Hiker on that show one day cuz that program rocks!!
)
No, wait a minute.......I take that back.
What I meant of say was if I had TWO wishes
it would be to not only be one of the Guest Hikers on the Living Well tv Network show, "Motion," my second wish would be to be able to meet Ali in person & sincerely let her know my gratitude in helping me to get this portion of my life turned around.
Not only has she provided me with the tools of knowledge to do what Ladybug & I am doing, she has also changed our lives.
**** THANK YOU ALI!! ****
ANYWHO -
But in regards to the "Live Big With Ali Vincent" tv show that day,
I was instantly mesmerized. I felt like I couldn't move from my seat as I was watching what she and others were doing on that show.
It was as if she was my
.
Just then, Ladybug jumped up on the recliner and got in my face.
I was annoyed. I wanted to see what Ali was up to because was she was doing looked like FUN.
SO I moved to Ladybug's left........
SHE countered by moving to her right
AND..........
took her right 'hand' -
lifted it up and came down HARD on my forehead.
(
ok......FYI - she would really make a GREAT SPOKESPERSON for the next V-8 juice tv commercial)
ANYWHO -
I immediatly looked at her......
She looked at me.....
I looked at her -
she looked at me.
I then looked at Ali...
THEN SUDDENLY -
And the rest is history.
Ladybug & I haven't looked back since & refuse to from that day forward as I explained to her, "GET YOUR SHOES ON CUZ THE FUN BEGINS IN 48 HOURS."
And I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Ali Vincent
with Ladybug
also helping out in a supporting role as well.
Day one of our journey began for real on July 24th
(I gave myself 48 hours to clean out the frig, etc....., alter my diet...& to get ready for the FUN
)
Details coming up on what I was doing during my week one.
COMING UP NEXT:
WhY I feel that that the "Live Big with Ali Vincent" tv show literally saved my life.
,
my weight loss totals ending week 4 &
updates on my DISneyland adventure & other assorted silliness.
P.S. thank you all for listening.
T.T.F.N.