....all my prayers.....for sandy & javamom,
..i wish i could make

..to comfort you thru such terrible
life challenges...& loss.

..i even be happy if i could find
.....some comfort words....to support your needs.
all i have to offer..is my prayers, and all my happy thoughts that
....i hoping..rally your inner strengths...and your faith...to see you thru
..these dark days of despair & helplessness...
i don't kno...if what "i think"...has meanings, but i believe....in trying.
"thank you", ......... for seeking us out, in this tiny group.
for you're bravery, giving us the oppturnity...sharing of feelings. such
is life & its hardships.....of keeping safe,"iam", so sorry for both your
losses [health & life].

. please take a few seconds...where
iam hoping there can be found a comfort measure. i think here, we feel
the emotional pain, from such burdens...
hearing your struggles, made me think...what i've taken for granted. and
that what we hold so dear, isn't something we have forever...is also my
#1 fear.
jus..a gently reminder..there's is always a ray of hope..in that all the grief
shall pass...whatever be , becomes, *just because all the gifts..our loved
ones shared with time, will always remain ..in our hearts.,"giving us",
meanings, to our special feelings...for the rest of our days...until we pass
them on ...to all we know, as....... friends & family.
* this i kno..thru my own experiences, my life adventures.
ironically...i was in my own world of thinking...where it occurred to me..
..that many, spend pondering~ where do they go when the "body" loses
it life~sustaining properties?...had me wondering..,where was "i" before
"i" came..into the world?...& then i "thought"...how science describe the
many ways of thinking, {including math},
tells..us...nothing = nothing, so for "us"..to become a part of his world,
we were, in ~deeds...a source of energy....which i believe, best defined,
of an unknown substance... & even "science"...has
no knowledge of....that "is".....& therefore, can only be reach by our faith.
{ faith to me, is of all i believe is true..in my heart...the orgin of all
our most important feelings...& the things we hope to hold onto } ,
to me..this means..nobody or anything..can take away...the feelings
i have...in my heart & soul...

, no matter what we lose in life.
i think..science..has in~deeds..discover the process of making a new
life, but haven't "figured " out...the process on how our souls are placed.
besides, what makes our being -"there" also give us feelings toward the
land, & all its elements (fall, spring,summer & winter), ....when we "make"
our grand enterance.
* say or, believe whatever...you desire....but....we learn "fast'..no
matter..how critcial ill...a newborn was.....its chances..for survival
"jumped"....way up....by letting the mother hold her newborn...
right after birth..think bout that fact..& its meanings..for all
the things we do in life? hugging, holding, whispering, and caring..
are "exchanges"....with an effect. math that one can "count~on"!
...

, but connected to our coping skills...we can do better
with our world..by reality orientation...& recognizing its first principle
... we are more accurate..when refer....to its margins....instead
of a single point....in measuring it's total value. in that, explains,
the differnce of our value system....& "giving"...an expanding
insight..to make out all the things we pick up by our sensory
preceptions. so this made me feel,
..the things in which has molded me..are time, weather, and all
who have share their beings, though mamy, many have long
passed on.
...* my current career.....is nothing more than an "accident". but
right a~way....reality..made it self evident....defining the
boundaries..between { positive outcomes } & { negative ones}
....were best measured...using the feelings...we all share. it has
the effect..to redirect & show..the many different ways...to
correct mistakes...& recovery from emotional pains ( losses &
lonliness), ...if you tell me you're "cold'..backie? gal..i kno what
that means...happy, hot, sad, depress, ..so forth....& can imagined
the causes..of such feelings , sometimes tears.
..me too,

...but i also kno...its true...those same tears...
..can be of joys...especially the things we share,
reality..can be both..a "pin point" & 2 margins..a very good thing
to understand..in life., for improving our relationships...& the
reason why.....the ays we treat others.....also effect our quality
in life.
...for me, & my losses....our family most prized.....possessions, are
the home movies...8mm. our parents.....did not stay long. but
they spend many times, living .."fast & furious"...good & bad,
....the movies..like cherish memories....are our insights....of
living together....made up the impact..of what family values
we gave to our children. [ even their deaths..taught us that
death..can never be prepared for....over long term illness or
sudden- the pain of losing is the same. ]. but from the movies,
and memories...inspired my feelings..that the best way, to honor
your parents..is to create...a memory from happiness...that
the whole family would share in.,
& while my parents...could never afford..to take "us", 10 kids..to
disneyland..but that dosen't mean...that "we" were excluded. the
things..mr. disney for..were the same things...our parents gave us.
....i wish, i could show..the movie...of my parents, in their 50's,
tossing a big ball [ mickey, would'nt you know it?]....& playing
keep away from ...astro?....our english sheep dog,..20 years....
before....jordan was born. however, there has been times..i have
caught..jordan, acting..exaclty..like my mother. a person she
never met., that is very much a...part of her life. & mine.
ever trip..to disney....is family oriented, & we always....seem
to find..something..that reminds us, by
* what i like about relying on family values...& reality orientation? the
future isn't written..until one decides....so no matter what the
handicaps, the odds can be changed..into producing the things
we 'll want to remember. and while we have many differences....
...all share.....common feelings. now if we can improved the ways
we separate..the negative from the positive, we can help ourselves,
& each other.
wow..the way life work, is pretty amazing....& i'm like everyone
else....grateful, that things..like prayers, hope, faith, friends,
family....are the best ways..toward positive..outcomes..no matter
....the scary things..we face every day.
such the things, i have learn from other & especially..doing my
current work.

..still, like everyone..else...don't think...i am
saint...don't believe me?...jus asked that lady..on the ship. on
my free time..i have low tolerance..toward bullys & meanies.
also funny.. how that neighbor stated, "you don't kno..who 're
messin with"...sorry-for him, but i certainly did...& thats why he
facing criminal charges....now!
again, sandy & javam....this is me, & how i think... i sure hope...
you find..some comfort...that we care & hoping the best for you
& your familes..as you work thru....these trouble times,
