Melissa's Recommitment(comments welcome)

[CACruisin']

Great job getting the exercise in! That is so hard to do this time of year!

 

[Zoesmama03]

ARGH!!! I'm slacking on exercise again.


Today I had a busy day. I had 2 hot dogs at 10 or so an hour after I woke up.


WE had a late lunch and I had half a spinach, artichoke and chicken calazone. It was yummy but I stuck to half and a large salad. I was soooo full though. I also had 2 lemonades though. I haven't ate dinner really and I'm not too hungry but I did have a few chocolates that came in mail from an gift exchange I had on a board of other July 2003 mommies. I'm sharing with Zoe in hopes that it will go quicker and less to me.

So far no exercise I plan to wake up and do some. I'll be going to my moms tomorrow to set her tree up finally. They(mom and my grandma) aren't much in the spirit though but I hope having the tree up will help some. They are a little down since they can't afford to get us gifts we told them not to worry but of course they will.


I was soooo sad this afternoon when I took Zoe to school she had friends saying hello and couple saying "come sit by me Zoe" I'm sooo proud and happy that she has lots of friends at her preschool but worried that I'll be the huge "fat" mom and she will get made fun of later on. I gotta do something about his I don't want to cause her any grief over my overweightness.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Wow I can't believe its sooooo close to Christmas. I've been soooo vusy running around to family and friends homes. Its been a busy holiday season so far. I feel like I'm constantly going and have no time to slow down anymore.


As much as I wanted to do this full blown before Christmas its not looking like it will happen. I'm trying though and I will get back to a normal routine after the holidays but for now I'm hardly ever home. I don't even get much time to relax on computer lately.

Yesterday was a crazy day and not the best eating day as I was at my moms helping her put up her decorations and tree since she can't do it and hadn't done it yet. We will be having Christmas possibly on the 21st there but might change to 26th. She ordered Pizza Hut and I had several pieces and a cheese bread stick. I had Burger King for breakfast and no lunch.

I worked all night last night filling in for someone. And took a nap this morning and just ate something quick yet again. I will be swearing off fast food and we will only go out to dinner at a nicer place once a month.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Doing good, doing good. Just haven't updated in journal here.

We've been working out since Tuesday after Christmas and I'm excited and pleased to say I've lost 6 lbs already.


Ate in range and good the past few days but I did have 2 cinnamon rolls and a iced Santa shaped sugar cookie. Still managed to stay in range with help of Michelina's Lean Gourmet meal.

I went slightly over tonight but I did so to have energy to burn on a long workout. So I had a peanutbutter sandwich.

 

[goldcupmom]

Happy, Healthy New Year, Melissa!

Sounds llike you have jumped right back on track and are doing AWESOME!

Your daughter is BEAUTIFUL!! I love your siggie pic.

Keep up the good work!

 

[Zoesmama03]

Thanks Julie.



Today is going well. I've worked my butt off around the house. I'm sooo exhausted and I still gotta do a workout. We are gonna do 55 minutes as soon as we put dd to bed in a few minutes when her bed linens are dry.


I had very low calories today because I've been so busy working on the house. I've had a couple Michelina Lean Gourmets. One for lunch and one for dinner. With dinner I added cooked frozen green beans and my dd had a little MINI pizza she had half and dh and I split the other half because there is no way she was eating it all and we had such low calories that it STILL didn't put a dent in our calories. Wish could say that more often.

 

[CACruisin']

Great job getting back into exercising and eating healthy! Sounds you are getting the new year off to a wonderful start!

 

[Zoesmama03]

Weighed in yesterday morning at 274.4 Last week was 276 up from 272.8 the week before but I did expect that as I slacked on exercise quite a bit and the 272.8 week was a huge drop too.

I'm just happy to be going down.

I'm contemplating a few life decisions right now. I'm looking into and researching the Navy and Air Force. In high school I looked into Air Force and even spoke with a recruiter. Even then they said I'd have to lose weight which I figured. For Navy the max weight for a woman my height is 170 and I know I can reach that if and when I did decide to enlist. Sometimes I just want to do more you know. I'm sure I would miss Zoe though I'd be doing it mostly for me she and dh would get some benefits as well as giving up some things. I've never been real happy in any of my jobs. Most have been very boring to me like I wasn't even challenging myself. If I could put up with the months away for 4 years maybe it will slow down and we could lead the same simiple like we do now. Just alot I've been considering lately.


Today

breakfast: 3 pancakes with lite syrup

cherry sugar free drink

luncheanut butter and grape jelly on multigrain bread

Dinner:2 small(i mean tiny) pork chops mixed stir fry veggies and cup of rice a roni chicken flavor.

45 minutes WATP dvd 3 mile walk.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Breakfast:
medium bagel with cream cheese
grape drink juice

snack:
3 oatmeal cookies
water

Lunch:
2 hard shell tacos with the works
salad with tabasco and a little more taco seasoned ground beef(was hungry)
oatmeal cookie
8 oz Dr. Thunder soda

Dinner:
Hamburger Helper stroganauff(sp?)
veggies

 

[Zoesmama03]

Eating wasn't great today but could have been alot worse. No time to type it all out right now.

But I did just do 45 min WATP 5 min stretch and 10 min ab workout for a total of 60 minutes of exercise today.

 

[keenercam]

Melissa -- It is so wonderful to see you here and doing so well. I see you are still posting very late at night though. How in the world do you keep up with Zoe after being up so late? Congratulations on being so disciplined in getting the exercise done!
Keep up the great work and have a fabulous weekend! :

 

[CACruisin']

Great job getting your exercise in. I know how hard that is with a little one around!

 

[Zoesmama03]

Heya I gotta remember to keep up with my WISH journal. hehe I WISH back in my home pages. So it will be first thing I see when I pop online so I can be motivated to get my workout done.

Eating was bad but workable.

Breakfast: generic fruit loops with silk soy milk

Lunch: nothing kinda skipped but I had slept in till 10:30 since I had the day off.

Dinner: Taco Bell I had a Nachos BellGrande and a hard taco supreme with large Pink Lemonade and a carmel apple empanada.

I went over calories, finally started journaling that again on sparkpeople, but not buy a lot. I'm shocked it wasn't alot more being Taco Bell and all.


I did 45 minutes of WATP and 5 minutes of stretching and then 10 minutes ab workout with Denise Austin.

Heres to a better tomorrow.


Oh and I passed on the I had made for dd. I'm not a big lover of popcorn so it wasn't that hard. THere is about half a bag left she will probably munch tomorrow for morning snack. She doesn't care if its cold and stale.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Melissa -- It is so wonderful to see you here and doing so well. I see you are still posting very late at night though. How in the world do you keep up with Zoe after being up so late? Congratulations on being so disciplined in getting the exercise done!
Keep up the great work and have a fabulous weekend! :

hehe just now replying to this but I dunno how I do it. Though now that I'm doing it I have dejavu that I did but it didn't clear because I clearly remember Zoe getting out of bed crying and upset after being asleep for the night only a few hours. On weekdays I gotta be up by 5:30am. I really gotta work on getting workout scheduled for better time than 8-9pm sometimes later like tonight. But I wait for her to go to bed most nights. When I try to exercise with her she of course is only 3 and can't go on long and stops but then she hovers at my feet and its hard. Now that we have a tv upstairs in our room we can put her in there while we do workouts sooner than late pm.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Did some running in afternoon and then have just felt bloated and upset tummy since around 2pm. Blah!!

Not that great for eating today.

Breakfast
Toaster strudels cream cheese filling(see told you not good)

Lunch:
Goolaash(however the heck its spelt) you know elbow macaroni tomatoes and beef??
started with half a salami sandwich on some whole grain bread but Zoe didn't eat hers so I finished it.
Had some bread and butter pickles and some mild banana pepper rings. YUMM

snack:
dried apricots

Dinner:
shirmp alfredo with broccoli and cheesy garlic toast.

snack:
doughnut.

And to make matters worse since my tummy feels crummy I'm skipping exercise and will try to do one in morning while doing laundry and cleaning house.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Eating not bad today but man yesterday I did a no no and bought some Dove chocolate eggs. I've been in them. Could be PMS. LOL I know I'm about a week from starting good ol' aunt flow as I'm 9 days past ovulation and usually start 14-16 days past that. Blah!!! I like it because I seem to be having semi regular cycles lately around 35 days in length better than 90+ ones I get some cycles(I'd say months but I don't exactly have monthly cycles).

 

[Zoesmama03]

Today was a busy day and I was exhausted so we went out to chinese buffet it was not a good thing for eating plan. And then I have had a upset tummy since probably because I ate too much. And my bowels aren't "happy" either so I didn't want to get into the walking and kickin' and have that act up. Plus I just don't have the energy for it. I think my iron is low I've been spotting and will start my time of month very soon.

I'll get in a nice long 60 minutes of exercise tomorrow. And really try on the eating.

Weight was creeping up and not good.

Gonna set up a plan with dh because I know he wants to really get some weight off too but we gotta do some actual scheduling because of our opposite work schedules. He is planning to job hunt because the 11pm-7am is getting to him finally after a year. I just pray he finds something close and decent pay.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Had a very rough April. Starting with the lose of my husband(no he is alive and fine) but he has run off to TN to be with some woman he had met online in his video game(World of Warcraft) I knew it was true and I moved out before he could up and leave. Its been alright on those lines but I lost my grandma on the 29th she passed away.

I'm just moving on with the marriage problems and will be looking into lawyers as soon as I can get stable. I know he can't do anything for 6 months over there in TN he has to live ther 6 months to file so I have time to find and pay payments as needed.

Just incrediably stressed out last month and as much as I wanted I couldn't get to the exercise and food choices have been bad. I'm also living at my moms which limits my exercise times greatly since she is sleeping most of the time I'm home and I don't want to wake her seeing as she lives in a manufactured home and it would shake I feel. I do have a bike that I aquired recently I just need to air the tires and find time without dd is hard until I can afford a trailer to pull her behind.


So far today I had a Sprite and a banana. I gotta get something else in my tummy its telling me so anyway. I'm going shopping this afternoon for some yummy healthy foods to stock the kitchen up good.

I'm very much looking forward to a healthy weight loss this month. At my dr.s on Wed. the scale said 258 but that is a BIG LIE I fear the home scales put me at 277 to 279. I really think their scale is off because normally my home one was very close to theirs. Maybe the nurse had not read it right. I was looking and it looked like that to me too but


Anyway May is the month to take care of myself. I have signed up to do a 3 mile walk local here for Y-ME National Breast Cancer Organization. It should be fun. I just wonder if I can bring dd or if I need a sitter.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Couldn't make the walk.

I'm having a rough patch adjusting to new routines and I need to get the exercise back in. My weight is up partly from good ol' AF visit right now and partly due to soda and eating badly. Even though my Dr. scale had me at 258last wed. I know its more like 278.

My brother and I are discussing a possible trip to WDW/Florida(also have family we visit when we go) and I so want to be a good 50-60 lbs lighter when we go. I know I can do it I just gotta work at it. So back to journaling on Sparkpeople and really need to actually do it and also here. I know if I keep a journal awhile I will really watch what I eat. Exercise will be a big thing too. I just have a really hard time taking my dd anywhere but I saw a family with their young child at the high school track and thinking maybe I'll try going and walking while she runs around in the grass(football field) while I walk and eventually jog/walk. It really helped in the past. Though hoping to find a way to pay for a gym membership so I can really get some weight coming off.

 

[Zoesmama03]

Eating was good today and I'm proud of myself for getting ONE cookie not my usual 3-4 at work.


I had yogurt and a bagel with cream chesse for breakfast.

I wasn't that hungry so I didn't eat anything until around noon when I had a bowl of cinnamon Life because I'm having AF and it was quite heavy this morning and I KNEW my iron was low. I can not find my SloFe(iron supplement to replace the dr. recommend multi that was making me sick and since he told me to take it for iron I figure I'll take iron seperate) so I had to find stuff high iron to kinda help raise my energy level. I had horrible cramps too.

At 2pm I had a cup of Ramen noodles hey it does have some peas and carrots in it.

For dinner I made pork chops but only had a little of the pork(not a meat eater) about a cup of Stove Top stuffing though. And I had mashed taters about a 1/2 cup and lots of broccoli and cauliflower with a few carrot slices.

Downfall came at home when I had 3 pieces of fudge my mom always finds at the bakery and a chocolate covered icecream bar. AF always brings out the chocolate cravings really bad.


I strive to make tomorrow an even better eating day.