Marie's New Years Resolution~in July

[kmp1191]

Thanks Jen.....(I hear you want an Elvis shirt too.....?)

Anyway, today was good...got the house cleaned up...(thank god DH is home!!) I even took the curtains down in my bedroom and am going to get them washed up. (I even dusted the walls in there!!! MAJOR dustbunnie breeding!!)
We went to DD soccer coaches pool party/meet & greet today. Was a really nice time. There are some kids on the team that we've played w/ before, and some new ones. Gonna be a good year! oh, and for some reason...I must have been in my other personality mode...I volunteered to be the team secretary WTH was I thinking?? I have to coordinate who brings drinks & snacks to the games, make sure we know where the games are, etc. no one else was volunteering and I felt bad for the coach....I did tell them that they would be responsible for helping out if I had to go out of town!! (yeah, right!)
Also, talked to mom today...she sounded good! I think I'm going to go home over labor day...THIS COMING WEEKEND! I already talked to my boss and she said I can have Friday off. (yeah!) The only thing that would make it not possible is if my Photography boss's mom takes a turn for the worse. She's 81 and is intensive care on a ventilator. She's improving, but slowly. He has a wedding to shoot on Sunday, and if he can't do it, I'll have to. He said he'd keep me informed on his mom. He said he could call another photographer to cover for us, but I told him not to...that if he couldn't do it, I would...it's my job. Yes, I want to see mom, but I also have to cover for him...he would do it for me.....that's just how we are.

anyway...gonna go get my scrapbook stuff organized....that's one thing mom wants to do while i'm there....I told her I'd bring my stuff and we would get some pages done. (she really enjoys me helping (doing) it w/ her)

ok...talk to ya'll later!!
marie

 

[kmp1191]

I'm in a bad mood. Woke up that way. How can you wake up in a bad mood?? Does't something have to get you in that mood??
Anyway, since I was in a bad mood anyway, I started balancing my checkbook and paying bills. Now I'm in a worse mood!!
I'll snap out of it eventually....I'm sure it's mostly PMS. Should start soon...(tmi,sorry)
Ok....so on the agenda for today...
1) go for a walk/run - do situps & pushups (time to get back on track)
2) go get cake for ds's b-day gathering (his b-day is tomorrow, but I told 2 of his friends to come over this afternoon for a while...don't know what I was thinking!!
3) continue organizing scrapbook stuff...maybe even work on a page or 12!!
4) hide from kids
5) hide from husband
6) plan for better meals for the week....I've got to get this family healthy...it might kill me, but by golly, they'll be healthy!!!
7) get treadmill back from boss....gonna set it up in the garage..ds can do that in the mornings!
8) DRINK ALL THE WATER IN THE HOUSE!!!
9) finish balancing checkbook - rob a bank
10) long, hot, quiet bath~

I don't know what order I will accomplish all these tasks, but this is my list for today. Wish me luck.

I think I'm gonna go back to bed for a little while....
marie

 

[kimwim8]

Hey lady. I hope your mood improves. I've definitely woken in a funk at times...there's just too much going on at all times and I guess we think about that crap while sleeping!

I hope everying works out so you can go see your mom this weekend. I know you need to be with her right now. It'll make you both feel better.

Take care, and try to get out there & run or walk. It really does help clear your mind!

Oh, and I'm jealous you have a treadmill. I really want one. I know there are days I could hop on there & run while the kids are around and DH isn't. It's just impossible to run outside when he's not here. OK, enough of my whining.

Keep us posted on all aspects of your life. We're here for ya.

 

[kmp1191]

Ok....so on the agenda for today...
1) go for a walk/run - do situps & pushups (time to get back on track)
2) go get cake for ds's b-day gathering (his b-day is tomorrow, but I told 2 of his friends to come over this afternoon for a while...don't know what I was thinking!!
3) continue organizing scrapbook stuff...maybe even work on a page or 12!!
4) hide from kids
5) hide from husband
6) plan for better meals for the week....I've got to get this family healthy...it might kill me, but by golly, they'll be healthy!!!
7) get treadmill back from boss....gonna set it up in the garage..ds can do that in the mornings!
8) DRINK ALL THE WATER IN THE HOUSE!!!
9) finish balancing checkbook - rob a bank
10) long, hot, quiet bath~

ok...so lets see...what did I accomplish today from this list....
1) did NOT run/walk or do any other excersises
2) got a big cookie instead of a cake....fewer leftovers!!
3) headed that way in about 5 minutes.
4 & 5) see #3!
6) went and got groceries - $200.00 worth of veggies, fruits, non-frozen/processed foods...yeah, this could get scarey!!
7) will get the treadmill later in the week
8) drank 20 oz
9) got to depressed....walked away from it.
10) yeah, right, who are we kidding on this one??!!

I did accomplish watching the last 4 episodes of RESCUE ME!!! we tivo'd it!! LOVE THAT SHOW!!!
ok...gonna disappear now.
bye!!
marie

 

[CACruisin']

Hi Marie - you did great with your goals today. Great idea to get the cookie, and it is fun and unique too. I am so with you on #3-5, but they keep finding me! This fresh food thing is not cheap, is it. Have you gotten the "there is nothing to eat!" speech yet from the kids (and DH!) when the pantry is full of food? What they mean is there is no JUNK to eat. They will get over it eventually. Hang in there! Why is it when we are cranky, can't sleep and wake up early we try and balance the checkbook? I do the same thing. Doesn't help my mood or the checkbook. When you find the money tree, let me know. 10

Have a great week. Sounds like you are getting off to a good start!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Marie

Nice job with the groceries! I know it stinks how much the GOOD food costs. But you're doing a good thing for you AND your family...and really, can you put a pricetag on that?

When you get a chance, post that veggie wrap and veggie bake thing you used to make (and I assume will be making again). I remember thinking how good it sounds, but never wrote it down.

Talk to you later! Keep up the great work, girlie. You're on the right path...

 

[lovinaz]

I hope you are in a better mood today! I know what you mean about expensive groceries. It's the pits! I guess I have just gotten used to it, but it really stinks to try to judge how many fruits and veggies will get eaten during the week before they go bad... I love apples and grapes because they keep longest. You are doing great with your shopping and the whole family will benefit.

I hope you get to see your mom this weekend!

 

[kmp1191]

ok guys, forgive me if i ramble tonight. I'm a little tired.
talked to mom tonight...now the dr.'s are saying something completely different. Now they say that yes, it is still incapuslated, and still in stage one, but that they need to remove it first. So, what they are suggesting is that they remove the tumor and follow up w/ radiation & chemo. Then they will monitor her closely for the rest of her life to make sure it doesn't come back...but the risk is hight that it would come back. They also said they can remove the tumor, and the surrounding tissue, and still follow up w/ radiation, but she would have a colostomy. That is the one thing she DOES NOT want to do. They also told her that they couldn't do the radiation first because it would burn the "tube", and she would end up w/ a colostomy anyway. There would be nothing to resect. I told her to get a second opinion. These dr.'s want to do the surgery within the next 2 weeks.
I asked her if she wanted me to wait to come home then and she didn't hesitate, she said no, i want you to come home now. Then she said, what are you gonna do if you come home when I have the surgery? I said "Sit at the hospital and look at sis#2." She laughed and said come home now..that way we can have some fun!
I'm trying to stay up....happy....relaxed.....but I am so damn worried I can't stand it. I've been doing pretty good so far, but it's getting harder. She's worried, and mad....and so are the rest of us, but again, I try to be the comic relief....that's always been my job....it's what I'm good at. I hate hospitals....hate everything about them. 3 years ago, my Dad spent a month in for gallbladder surgery & double pnuemonia.....I went up there once. He understood....he's the same way. But I did talk to him everyday, and made him laugh at least twice a day. (I also stayed at the farm and did the work that he normally does, that way my mom & sis could be up there)

ok...onto something better to talk about! 11 years ago today my son was born!!! 35 hours of labor, 3 hours of hard pushing, and he finally arrived....sunny side up!!! He is the sweetest, most lovable kid I know. Yeah, we have our share of problems, (adhd, anger, homework, sister), but I wouldn't trade him for anything!! He's mine!! I strung a banner across his door so when he woke up this morning, it was the first thing he saw!! Also, I had ordered his gift online, and it arrived today! (he LOVES legos, so I got him the star wars Jabba the Hut Sailbarge thing...he's been asking for it for 3 months!!) I told him he could work on it for 30 minutes a night, but that homework and exercise came first!

ok...i'm rambling. I'm tired. I'll try to check in tomorrow. No DISing at work really SUCKS!!!

marie

 

[lindalinda]

I wish I knew what to tell you about your mom, a second opinion for sure. I hate hospitals too! Even DRs offices , I never go. Is your mom in chicago? I have no idea why I think that...maybe you said something sometime. Her idea to visit now and have fun sounds great tho.

Happy Birthday to your baby boy! My son loved building toys too, but we did the K'nex mostly. Give him lots of hugs now while he still lets ya!

Okay..you need to find yourself a geek to get your computer around the filter! I know it can be done! C'mon ...find yourself Pocket-Protector-Paul and get your flirt on!

 

[kmp1191]

Okay..you need to find yourself a geek to get your computer around the filter! I know it can be done! C'mon ...find yourself Pocket-Protector-Paul and get your flirt on!

love it!!! I'll get right on that today!!!

yeah, my mom is about an hour south of Chicago.She went to Northwestern for her breast cancer, but said she wants to stay in the area this time....we'll see....

(oh, and I gave the boy 11 kisses all over his face last night before bed!! I thought he was gonna wet himself he was laughing so hard!!!)

have a good day guys.
marie

 

[kimwim8]

Yes, I definitely agree that a second opinion is the way to go. What does your mom say about that? You, your mom and your family continues to be in my prayers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUR DS!!!

...and yet another thing to like about you....you ALSO had a sunny-side up child. Mine was DD...wonder if that's why they are a bit of a thorn in our side? But we love them anyway....

Hope you have some luck with Pocket Protector Paul!

 

[CJK]

Sending you lots of and pixie dust . I hope you do get a second opinion. It's good to arm yourself with as much info as possible. Happy Birthday to your ds!! Doesn't the time go by quickly! I don't know how I missed your journal before. Take care you!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Happy bday to your son!!
i am also thinking a second opinion...hang in there!!!

 

[lovinaz]

Happy B-Day to DS!!! My DS was also face up. So when I say he was a pain in the butt (ok, back) from the get-go, I'm not lying!

I think it is wise for your mom to get a second opinion, especially with something so serious. With all the advances in medicine/surgery, etc there is more than one way to skin a cat!

 

[kimwim8]

Special package sent (finally) today! Should arrive down south in approximately 3 days. (let me know if you don't get it by Saturday or Monday!)

 

[goldcupmom]

Wow, Marie, you have a lot going on!!

Definitely a second opinion would be a good move for your mom. Very hard to know who to trust & what decisions to make.

Take care of you & your family through this. Give lots of hugs so you get lots back. Feel free to cry when you need to. I used to tell my HS kids when I taught that God wants us to cry - We have all this water inside that has to come out & if we don't cry, we'll sweat too much & stink. Don't get stinky on us!!

Praying for all of you!!

 

[kmp1191]

Wow....I really love you guys!!!
Thanks for all the encouragement....I'm really needing it right now. TOM hit today, and I feel like crap!! I told my boss (female) that it felt like my breasts were going to explode!!! I'm so swollen and bloated...I hate this!!
Oh, I've also gained about 7 lbs!!! I haven't been watching what I'm eating, and I haven't been running either....I'm a sloth...a worm.....a lazy, bon bon eating rolly polly schmegworm!! I know I have to get back on track...I know this...why am I not??!! Depression? Worry? Stress? Kids? Jobs?
I don't have anything that the rest of you don't....so why am I such a slacker??? Enough whining...I'm going to start back on my schedule tonight. I'm going to do my 3 mile power walk when DH & DD get back from soccer practice!
We started DS on Focalin this morning. If anyone has any knowledge, feel free to throw it my way. The teacher asked me how long before it starts working. I gave her a look and said, "Why, is he THAT bad?" I know he's not bad, he's just not focused...AT ALL!!! He brought home his Tuesday Folder....
Conduct-U (called a girl an ugly name....rhymes w/ witch! )
A- 2, B-2, C-3, D-1, F-5. Yeah....real nice huh?
I work with him every night for hours on homework...it's the classwork that he struggles with. I just don't get it.
Met w/ DD's 2nd grade teacher tonight...I felt like I was in the army and she was the drill sergeant!!! Heck, one of the dad's asked if she was this way with the kids!! It was pretty funny! Gonna be a long year for all of us!!

ok...let's see if i remember what I shoveled in my mouth today~
b-8 oz chocolate milk/banana
s-1/2 cup grapes
l-7layer dip & about 10 fritos
s-2 mini almond joy's
d-don't know yet...probably a salad wrap
water-40 oz
sweet tea - none....I actually haven't had any in about 4 days, no cokes either. maybe that's what's wrong....no caffine. oh well...don't need it anyway.
exercise-none yet, but i will be when dh gets home.

ok...gotta help ds....
marie

 

[CJK]

Lots and lots of coming your way. You know, your children are fortunate to have a parent like you who is so involved and willing to help out in many ways. We need more parents like you!

Now, stop beating yourself up about your food and exercise!!!!!! You have had A LOT to deal with and despite it all, you've maintained your sense of humour. That's INCREDIBLE!!! I know you'll get back on track and we're all here for you!!! Hope you enjoy your power walk tonight!!

 

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Marie! Sending lots of and your way! I hope that your mom is getting a second opinion so that you guys can do whatever is best for her! I really hope you get to go see her this weekend! It is best to spend happy time together. Sitting around in a hospital doesn't really make good memories for anyone involved.

Happy late birthday to your DS! Sounds like you guys are working on a plan to get him healthy! Maybe with all the exercise you guys are doing, he won't need any meds!

I know that it has been difficult to concentrate on diet and exercise. I think that is just fine. Sometimes life just gets in the way. You'll get back on track when life gets a little bit calmer. Maybe a long evening walk through the neighborhood might be a good stress reliever though.

Take care of yourself!! I think that is some of the best advice that I have gotten in a while, so I'm passing it along!

Hope you get to have a Great weekend with your mom!!

 

[lovinaz]

It doesn't take a rocket scientist (which I am, by the way ) to figure out what is wrong with you - it's the big S-monster: STRESS! Look at all that is going on in your life right now. Your mom has health issues, DS has school issues, you might be moving, etc... Remember that while you are taking care of everyone else, you also have to take care of YOU. Us moms sometimes forget that and we always put ourselves last. So pick one thing to do for yourself EVERY DAY. Take the dog for a walk and sort some things out in your head or make sure you have a healthy breakfast (or lunch or dinner) every day. Just do it for you and don't feel guilty about it! That's an order! ::cop:

I really hope things start calming down for you soon, but sometimes it only gets crazier before it gets calm. So hang in there, do your best and don't let the stress get to you too much!