
Hee, hee, I LOVE it when I come to my journal and find my friends have stopped over for a visit!

Hi, Beth! Hi, Tracy! Hi, Doreen! Hi, Maryellen!
OK, I have to confess. . .I'm loving this day.

I got up with DD, took her to school and then went out for a walk. Kind of cool (around 45), but I really enjoyed seeing the leaves. I walked in a park pretty close to my house and pretty much just strolled along, looking at the scenery and the deer. It started to rain a bit, but I just kept going. I guess it was about 50 minutes. It wasn't 60, but I'm OK with that.
I'm thinking I might go get a mammogram this morning, but then again, I'm thinking I might just cozy up in my chair with the puppy and watch a movie. Sounds downright decadent, doesn't it? My work schedule was changed around so I don't have to go in until later. . .like I said, I'm loving it.
Last night I was lying in bed and it occurred to me that my eating is TOTALLY out of control. I mean totally. Totally. When it's like this and I feel like I practically inhale the weight back onto my body, I know that I'm in the throws of my carbohydrate addiction. And looking back on what I ate yesterday, it's true beyond a shadow of a doubt. I had my eng. muffin w/pb for breakfast, a mini pizza for lunch, munchkins (it's Halloween party time in my keyboard classes

) throughout the day, a bagel for dinner, cheese and crackers for a snack when I got home (like I needed a snack!!!!!!). I'm eating whether I'm hungry or not, grazing around the kitchen like it's the darn Chinese buffet. I start each day with a promise to myself that I'll do better, but I don't. Heck, by the time the day is done, I don't even CARE! So, last night, lying there, I realized that it all has to stop. NOW. And with God's help, that's how I'm proceeding into my day.
First thing I did was wait until I was truly hungry to eat breakfast.
Then I had an egg w/cheese on the Eng. muffin. (I can tolerate carbs as long as they're balanced with protein. When I start having popcorn for dinner, like I did Wednesday, things are baaaad and that's a sure indication that I'm back into a carb-junky nightmare.) The plan for lunch is tuna salad w/a few crackers--heavy on tuna, light on crackers. Dinner will be some kind of chicken dish. No popcorn.

I'm going to make some jello pudding for dessert. NO SUGAR TODAY.
My experience with Thin Within has kind of messed up my healthy living thinking, I believe. I WANT to have the self control to eat whatever I want in small amounts whenever I feel true hunger, but with the crazy schedule I work, it's hard. I want to rely on those points again! I like to think that I can incorporate my good ole points into all of what I learned in Sept. on Thin Within. . .maybe I need to have my own Christian WWers?
So, breakfast was good. Didn't take my vitamins yet, but I'm going to take them when I'm done here. I had my exercise. I'm going to take a nap or read a book or watch a movie. Ahhhh, I'll go get the mammogram on Monday. I PROMISE! (If I don't promise, I'm afraid I won't go. Please keep me accountable).
So, that's it for the day. I'm moving onward and looking upward.

,
Erin
Edit: For lunch I had my tuna and crackers, for a snack I had a cheese stick. I had ONE munchkin, and that was really just a TEST munchkin ( I had to see if they were stale

). More importantly, what I didn't have were cheese curls, barb-b-que chips, iced sugar cookies, and mini-cupcakes (all the junk that came to the little party). I'm satisfied with that. I'm going home now and I'm going to have a nice drink of water in the car and center myself before I go in and graze through the kitchen. DH should have dinner ready--I'll think through what my portion size should be before I begin.