Lisa's Journal (Life on the "Beach" - Part 2 all the way to goal!)

[ZerasPride]

July 21, 2004 (Wednesday) Day 235 on the Beach

I don't have much time to post but I wanted to get my menu and exercise recorded for the day.

Here's today's menu:
B: egg, cheese, bacon sandwich on ww toast with simply fruit spread and 1/2 glass of 1% milk
S: 10 whole small almonds
L: tuna salad and 8 ww crackers with a nectarine
S: Dannon light and fit strawberry yogurt - 4 oz.
D: Ruby Tuesdays - I had an order of lc hot wings and 2 small triangular lc chicken quesidias (sp?) with a diet soda - I ordered the lc cheesecake but only took a couple of bites because it was very good and tasted suspiciously like the real thing to me

Exercise: I did Firm super body sculpt (ab portion only) today as it's supposed to be my "rest" day so I didn't want to use any weights. Today makes 14 straight days of working out for me!

That's a wrap for Wednesday!

Amanda - thanks for checking on me. I have to get over to your journal and see how things are going with you. I do hope all is well. Thanks for the compliment on my meals. I try to eat only yummy foods that I love or at least really like and that helps to keep me on program without cheating. I get the sugar free creamsicles from our local grocery store. They are popsicle brand. I have seen both sugar free and no sugar added creamsicles. The n/s/a taste a little better but they have a few more calories. I like having 2 sugar free creamsicles in the evening and for 40 calories, you can't beat them. Unfortunately I had to give up the sugar free candy. It seemed to contribute to my slow weight loss in the month of June. I do love it though. Anyway, I hope this helps! Take care!!!

 

[sm4987]

Hello. Lisa. Just stopping by to check on you and to see how you were doing. The challenge is just that, a challenge. I too wish I knew this very minute what I weighed. Last week my family was here and I must admit that I didn't get that great off a compliment. 35 pounds gone, and not much positive to say other than I'm not as skinny as I used to be still. At that moment, I wanted that scale real bad. I was depressed for several days, but I'm almost over that. I too am knowing that my clothes fit great and I'm almost in a size 8 which is way smaller than what I used to wear. Oh well. Keep looking in the mirror girl and remember the scale dosne't dictate, it just indicates.

PS, I know what you mean about that cheesecake. I was just there on Tuesday, and I must admit it was like the real thing. I didn't finish it either.

 

[ZerasPride]

July 22, 2004 (Thursday) Day 236 on the Beach

Even though today is actually Friday, I wanted to write about the jeans I'm wearing to work today. I bought these jeans a week ago at Lane Bryant and they are a size 14. I am so excited to be wearing jeans this small. I started this journey, 7 months, 3 weeks and 2 days ago wearing a snug fitting size 26 jeans. I never in my wildest dreams thought I could be in a 14 and not this soon anyway! I was thinking that t his size is actually half the size I was wearing. Wow! I am getting lots of compliments from people on my shape. It's very flattering and definitely helps to keep me going and let's me know all my hard work is worth it.

It's been brutal not being able to weigh but sitting here at work and fitting into these jeans lets me know that I'm making progress! I am almost speechless as to what else to say. I want to get my thoughts, feelings and emotions down about this. But it's so unbelieveable. I feel like at any minute, I'll wake up and find I was only dreaming of being this small. I'm no little thing, mind you, I still have another 70 pounds or so before I'll be at goal, but I have come a long long way. I can get to my goal, I know I can. It's a scary and exhilirating thought!

I was also thinking that I'm still scared and frightened of this journey but for a different reason than when I started. I used to be afraid of what becoming thin would mean, of the unknown. I have been heavy all my life. How would my life change? Would I become conceited or promiscuous, want to leave my husband and son or some other such nonesense. Why I had such a negative view of being thin, I'm not sure. But none of those things are happening. I am still the same person I was 70 pounds ago. Thankfully!

Today forward I find myself a bit frightened by the thought of being successful. When I started this journey, I had no intention of getting to goal. I thought this experience would be like every other attempt at losing weight I've ever made, that it would end in failure. To find myself basically halfway to goal and just 3 pant sizes from my ideal size 8, is just mind boggling to me. What will I do if I actually reach my goal? What happens then? I've been dieting or trying not to diet all my life. What in the world will fill the space and time I have religiously devoted to this weight loss process?

I know these are probably silly thoughts to other people but I wanted to get my raw feelings down while they are fresh in my mind. For today, I'm going to enjoy wearing my size 14 jeans and do what I have done for the past 7 months, 3 weeks and 2 days - take this journey of weight loss and self discovery one day at a time - and try to enjoy the ride!

Here's my menu for today:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal and 3 slices of bacon
S: 10 whole small almonds
L: leftover beef stroganoff over 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice and a nectarine
S: Dannon light and fit peach yogurt (4 oz.)
D: heroine chicken strips with 1/2 cup of rice with mushroom sauce and the rest of my lc cheesecake from RT's for

Exercise: I did my entire Firm Super Body Sculpt work out for the very first time! All 45 minutes (upper, lower and ab)!!! Woohoo!!!! Today makes 15 straight days of working out for me. That is a record. But I am determined to listen to my body and if I feel like I need a break on a particular day, I'll just do my short super ab work out instead.

Status of daily goals:
1) Exercise - Firm super body sculpt (upper, lower and abs, woohoo!!!);
2) Drink my water (80 to 120 ounces per day) - I drank somewhere between 30-50 ounces of water today;
3) Watch my portion sizes and the grains I eat (breakfast like a king, lunch like a price and dinner like a pauper) I tried to be very careful with dinner, I watched how many chicken tenders I ate and had a small portion of rice, stopping before I cleaned my plate;
4) Positive self-talk - I was a bit nervous about wearing my new jeans and felt some negative feelings creep in but I'm determined to keep the feelings at bay, experiencing them but not giving in to them;
5) Stay away from the (bad for me) desserts - I finished my cheesecake but it took me 2 days and DH had about half of it so that's pretty good considering it was a small slice to start with.

That's a wrap for Thursday!

Sheree - thanks so much for stopping by! I'm so sorry your family isn't more positive about your weight loss. I think 35 pounds is a large amount of weight to lose! I have been wanting the scale badly too. You have been so strong and have been an instrumental part in my being able to stick with it. In case you didn't know it. I think about you frequently when I'm tempted to hop in the scale. Who would know. Well, I would! Plus I keep thinking that you and my other fellow "soldiers" are hanging tough so I can do it too. We're on day 19, more than half way there. We can do this and then of the reward at the end. Yes, we'll be able to weigh again but more importantly, we'll be able to say we stared down the face of this monster and didn't flinch! I can't wait for that sweet feeling of completing this challenge successful with you!!!! Take care!

 

[CruisingCA2005]

Hi Lisa!

I posted in your jeans thread on the Wish board but I wanted to be sure that you know how special you are to those of us on the boards. I may not be able to post in your journal often, but I always notice when you're the first to post in the exercise thread of the day and how active you are on the boards. Keep up the great work.

 

[ZerasPride]

RaeAnn - I did see your post but haven't been able to get back and thank everyone personally. Let me thank you here first. I so appreciate all the support I get on this board. Staying active and excited here and in RL is instrumental in my keeping focused on my weight loss goals. I always hope my posts are not obnoxious and that people aren't thinking, "she should get a life" or something. Thanks for your support and encouragement. They mean more than I can put into words!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lisa!
Stopping by to say hello and WISH you a great weekend! I hope you get a chance to enjoy this beautiful weather. It's hard to believe that it's July, but we'll take it, right?

Take care,
Tracy

 

[ZerasPride]

July 23, 2004 (Friday) Day 237 on the Beach
July 24, 2004 (Saturday) Day 238 on the Beach
July 25, 2004 (Sunday) Day 239 on the Beach

I either haven't been able to post due to technical difficulties or been too busy to post my menu and exercise for the past few days. I have stayed OP and worked out each day. I could do better with my water that but that's nothing unusual.

So that's it for Friday, Saturday and Sunday on the Beach!

Tracy - I posted to our Firm thread that I'm glad you were able to get a new VCR or was it a DVD player? I can't remember now but I'm glad you back Firming with us. The weather is a bit chilly today but I guess it's better than having snow on the ground so I guess we'll take it. Have a great Tuesday afternoon!

 

[ZerasPride]

July 26, 2004 (Monday) Day 240 on the Beach

Here is my menu for today:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal with 1% milk, 2 scrambled eggs with a slice of lf cheese and 2 small sausage patties
S: 16 cherries
L: tuna salad with 8 or 9 ww crackers and a nectarine
S: Dannon light and fit peach yogurt
D: hamburger casserole with ww noodles, lean ground beef, onions, fresh mushrooms, green peppers and cream of mushroom soup with some of my delicious sugar free pudding (chocolate fudge & banana creme) for dessert

Exercise: I did Firm cardio sculpt blaster for my work out this morning and did the ab portion of Firm super body sculpt in the evening.

That's a wrap for Monday!

 

[ZerasPride]

July 27, 2004 (Tuesday) Day 241 on the Beach

I have to share this cute story with you guys. I take the bus every morning with the same ladies and this morning I decided to wear my shortest black skirt. I don't usually wear skirts this short but I was feeling "thin" this morning and wore it. Anyway, one of the ladies says to me that I should give her my skirt because she could wear it as an armband it looks so small!!!! She said what a great job I'm doing and how wonderful and "tiny" I look these days! I still have a smile on my face from that compliment! Thank you SBD and the Firm!!!!!

Just also had to share that a friend of mine that started SBD at work on January 5, hit the 50 pound club today!!! I'm so happy for her. She looks absolutely wonderful and I couldn't be more pleased that she is having this much success. She said the most she has ever lost before in her life was 20 pounds so she is on cloud 9 right now! Woohoo for my friend Kim!!!!

Okay, here is today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal with 1% milk, 2 small sausage patties and 2 scrambled eggs with a slice of lowfat cheese
S: 8 whole small almonds
L: tuna salad with 9 whole wheat crackers and a nectarine
S: Dannon light and fit strawberry yogurt (4 oz.)
D: leftover hamburger casserole and some of my delicious homemade sugar free banana creme and chocolate fudge pudding for dessert

Exercise: This morning I did Firm super body sculpt (upper and lower body) and tonight I'll do the ab portion of this same work out.

 

[septbride2002]

Lisa,
Cute story! When are you going to post some before and present pictures of yourself!?!? I am dying to see - I know you look great!

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, I've been enjoying your clothes adventures! I've gained back some of the weight I lost and have been feeling very un-motivated. Reading about your shopping trips and your experiences wearing your new clothes has reminded me how much I enjoyed wearing my "smaller" clothes. I want that experience back!!! Thanks for sharing and know that you're helping me in the process.

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, know that I'm thinking of you today and wishing you a wonderful day!

 

[ZerasPride]

Wow! I can't believe I haven't posted to my journal in almost a week. I've been so busy preparing for and then attending my annual summer religious district convention.

I won't bother to try and catch up but will post that I have stayed OP each day and worked out everyday.

I was able to wear my new black designer suit to the convention on Sunday and it fit like a glove. It was like the suit was tailor made for me. It hugged in all the right places and I felt absolutely beautiful in it! I received so many compliments ranging from I looked younger than my teenaged son, I was called skinny minnie several times and got many "you go girls" as well. It was a wonderful experience and just spurs me on to want to get to goal! I don't think I'm going to tell people how much more weight I'm trying to lose because they always seemed shocked by the number. I think I'll just say something like I'm going for a size 10 or an 8, which ever feels more comfortable for me, when I'm asked the question.

I will be able to weigh myself on Wednesday morning so I've got just 1 more day to go for the 30 day stay off the scale challenge and I'm so anxious to find out how much weight I've lost. I would be happy if it was about 7 pounds because that would put me at my next 10% weight loss goal. We'll see. Fitting into my suit comfortably was the focus of my attention for the past few weeks and making that goal is such a wonderful feeling that I know (or at least hope) that I've lost at least 5 pounds. We'll see Wednesday.

I will also say that I may be revising my weight loss goals. I like having curves and had no idea I had a "shape" under all the fat. I get so many compliments on how my shape is coming along so nicely and I don't want to get so thin (whoever thought I'd be saying that!) that I lose those femine curves so when I get down to about 175 pounds, I'm going to re-evaluate where I want to be. If I can wear size 16 and 14 now at a little over 200 pounds, then when I lose another 25-35, I might be in a size 12 or 10, perhaps. I really don't know. But it's fun trying!!!!

Amanda - thanks for stopping by! I was thinking once my religious convention was over I would read up on how to scan a pic or two of myself. I have to warn you that the "before" isn't pretty and the "during" isn't all that great either but I will do my best to figure out how to post something soon.

Doe - thanks to you too for checking on me and thinking of me. I as so busy that I haven't had a chance to log on in a few days and I missed everyone but it was a good experience too because I felt like I was spending way to much time on the internet so it was good to connect with my family and other important aspects of my life that I was neglecting. I won't be spending nearly as much time on the net as I used to but will be here as much as I reasonably can. I'm glad my experience can help you out and know you'll be in those smaller clothes in no time. It's such awesome feeling and I know you must want it back! Keep working your plan and if you stay focused I know you will reach your goals!!!!

 

[septbride2002]

Amanda - thanks for stopping by! I was thinking once my religious convention was over I would read up on how to scan a pic or two of myself. I have to warn you that the "before" isn't pretty and the "during" isn't all that great either but I will do my best to figure out how to post something soon.

Now is this positive? You just finished saying that everyone was complimenting you at the convention. That you felt beautiful and thin, that you are loving your curves and shape. And then you post this!

Don't cut yourself down sweetie - I'm sure you are looking fabulous!

~Amanda

 

[KLH 1973]

WOW I just spent 3hrs reading all of Stings journal and I must say she gives Days of our Lives a run for there money.

Started my own journal as well and If i get as much help or stay on track like you guys do I will be overjoyed.

One question either my kids distracted me or i missed it what was the original story with the person stalking Katie.....what happend to make you notice?????

Kristin

P.S thanks for hours of enjoyment

 

[ZerasPride]

August 2, 2004 (Monday) Day 247 on the Beach

I don't have much time left in my work day to post so here's my eating plan for the day and exercise:

B: I slept late so no breakfast
S: ditto for morning snack time
L: egg, bacon and cheese on ww toast with strawberry simply fruit spread and 1/2 glass of 1% milk
S: popcorn and a diet vanilla pepsi
D: 2 chicken wings fried in canola oil and coated with ww flour, 1/2 cup of rice with mushroom sauce and sugar free chocolate fudge and vanilla pudding for dessert

Exercise: I already mentioned that I did Firm calorie killer this morning.

Amanda - You are right that I shouldn't put myself down. It's just that I have so far to go but I've come pretty far too so I won't say negative stuff about myself anymore. Thanks for the support, you know I appreciate it!

Kristin - I think you may have wanted to post to String's (Beth's) journal and not mine. Thanks for stopping by though! I see you've started a journal, I'll have to check it out!

 

[sm4987]

Lisa, didn't know that you were gone. I too like hearing about your shopping adventures. Stop with the negative talk. You can do this. Hang in there SBD buddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lisa

Are you enjoying this steamy weather? Whew! I hear relief is on the way in the form of a cold front.

You are doing a great job! Congratulations on making the stay off the scale challenge! I bet you are excited to see the scale tomorrow. Sending you lots of for weigh-in.

Have a great day tomorrow!

Tracy

P.S. After posting this, I am sending you a PM.

 

[Castillo Mom]

 

[ZerasPride]

August 3, 2004 (Tuesday) Day 248 on the Beach

Okay, even though today I am reporting on Tuesday's activities, since it's Wednesday and the end of the stay off the scale challenge I wanted to report my loss offiically here.

I have lost 5 pounds in last 30 days and 5 inches off my body. In addition to claiming a 70 pound clippie, I have lost 73 pounds total and am 2 pounds from my next clippie, and that same 2 pounds will get me to my third 10% weight loss goal. Right now I'm 10 pounds from onderland and feel just great about my progress!

I have decided to change my goal weight and focus more on a goal size. I hope to be wearing a size 10 when I reach 150 pounds and that is my new goal instead of 140. I plan to keep my weight somwhere between 145 and 150. We'll see how I feel though when I reach 2 more 10% goals which will be about 169 pounds. I've got a ways to go to reach that point but it's fun thinking about it.

Here is today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal and 2 small sausage patties
S: 10 whole small almonds
L: tuna salad with 8 whole wheat crackers and a nectarine
S: Dannon light and fit yogurt
D: beef stroganoff over 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice and some sugar free chocolate fudge and vanilla pudding for dessert

Exercise: I was up early and did Firm super body sculpt and did the entire work out (upper/lower/abs) which I usually do the ab portion separately but I took a chance this morning (I didn't want to be late for work and that extra 12 minutes can make a difference). Anyway, great work out as usual. I just love my Firm work outs!!!!

That's a wrap for Tuesday!

Sheree - thanks for stopping by. I'm glad my adventures in shopping. It's so much fun, that I feel like a kid with a new toy. Congrats again to you on your new clippie and on successfully completing our challenge!

Tracy - I sent you a long pm (sorry I'm so long winded). I hope you'll be on the Beach soon!!!

Lisa - Hey you! Thanks for dropping by and sharing some bounces with me! Looking forward to our talk tonight.