Lesli's Changing Life at 40 Journal

[goldcupmom]

The thing is, it really wasn't even worth all the bad choices, weight gain aside. Let's face it, the junk food really doesn't have a lot of flavor, not compared to healthy foods. I feel more drug out and my mind feels like I could slip into the food coma.

Wow, Lesli! That pretty much sums up the junk food binges here, too!

You've been really good for the most part, so don't beat yourself up. Avoiding Cake is a HUGE SUCCESS in my book!

Glad everyone is healthy again. Hope those darned computers stay up & working.

have a great rest of the week!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lesli,

No worries about yesterday. Days like that do happen. The key is to move forward and drink lots of water to flush the system. You CAN do it, Lesli!

I've been meaning to ask you...What kind of store do you own? How have sales been for you?(If you don't mind sharing.) The store I used to work at closed up shop a couple of weeks ago. I was shocked! The owner seemed to be doing quite well. I'm not sure what happened.

I hope you have a great day today!

 

[Lesli54]

Thanks for the encouragement, Tracy. You're right, those days do happen and I did drink lots of water yesterday. To your other question, we own a grocery store. Although we are in a needs based industry, the economy is still slowing business for our industry as well. People are changing their buying habits as they look for ways to stretch their meals. Of course, that could mean that we as a country will all lose weight. Ok, maybe that is WISHful thinking.

Actually, amazingly, yesterday was pretty much OP. I had a handful of trail mix sometime in the afternoon along w/ a few Fruit Loops. Supper changed to 1 hamburger patty (no bun), some cream corn, and 10 potato rounds. I guess, I will never get that steak. Later I had 1 sm piece of dark chocolate. I was doing fine until..........I polished off the doritos (about 2 cups) at about 11:30pm, doing bookwork and waiting for DH who was off solving computer problems for DMom. Mind you I wasn't bored or hungry, just felt like munching on something. Maybe I should pick up some gum, that might have helped. Water as 88 oz.

Also, I did a few minutes of exercise. I actually tried to see if I could do pushups. Negative. But I did realize that I could just raise and lower the top portion of my body to add resistance to my arms which did not seem to bother my shoulder. That is a good thing. I have to admit that some things with exercise have scared me since the accident because I was afraid that I would reinjure something or that limitations would prevent me from doing certain things. However, I have found that actually there is still quite a bit that I can do. That alone has added to the motivation.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 egg omelet w/mushrooms, some cheese, gr peppers & onion, 1 c milk, 1/2 c grapefruit juice
AM snack - 4 saltines & pb
Lunch - roast beef, gr pepper, pear
PM snack - fresh pineapple, carrots
Supper - pizza (fozen since we have some in the freezer), 6 oz soda

Today's goals:
1. exercise
2. Have DH start looking for a treadmill

I better get going. I have quite a bit of work to do and a computer glitch that is halting my progress so I need to make some calls. Everyone have a great day!

 

[toystoryduo]

Great job getting your water in and staying OP yesterday!

I hope you have a great weekend ahead!

 

[Lesli54]

Julie, sorry I missed your post the other day. Thanks for reminding me about the successes that I have had.

All food yesterday was OP, except the PM snack. I was talking with DD19 and forgot the time, then ran off to the store. By the time I got back, it was close to supper so I just had a few of the ritz chips.......and gum, which worked. Oh, I also had a piece of dark chocolate in the evening. Water was 88 oz.

Exercise didn't happen, but I got ALOT of work done which goes a long way in my get organized plan.

Today has been long. I went to breakfast w/ DMom, which was really nice and relaxing. Also, I was at the store for awhile. So my food has been way off today.

Today's food:
Breakfast - Village Inn, denver omelet, hashbrowns, and 1 1/2 pieces of wheat toast, water to drink
AM snack - missed (breakfast was almost brunch)
Lunch - missed (too full)
PM snack - almonds (too many), ritz chips (don't know how many), piece of dark chocolate, about 1/2 tbsp pb, couple handfuls of fruit loops scared1: did I really eat all that)
Supper - pork chop, pasta, peas

Today's goals:
1. Reign in the control

Problem: I went beserk in the afternoon thinking about sweets. Breakfast was too big so it threw off the day.

Solution: Order a la carte when going to Village Inn, such as 1 egg, side of fruit, milk, etc. It probably costs the same as a meal and is better portioned so that I don't get too full. Also, I should have had something sweet in the afternoon. A few hundred calories that I tried to save on something probably not worth it actually turned into a 3 times the calories.

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lesli,

Great job staying OP!!! That Denver omelet sounds yummy!

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

 

[Lesli54]

Let's just call yesterday a bad day in terms of food. Things did not get better last night. DH came home late and we all ended up fending for ourselves. The kids wanted cereal and that sounded good so I ate a large bowl of froot loops. Then a small biscuit that DH made, then 6 oz orange pop & almost 1/2 bag of popcorn, followed by a sm piece dark chocolate (the last). Water for the day was about 60oz. Control???? I think it went out the window.

Here's what I know. I must have a plan in order to stick with this program and I needed to eat fairly consistent small meal throughout the day. The next time that I eat a late breakfast with DMom, I will grab a sm piece of fruit when I first get up rather than waiting hours before eating anything. Maybe that would have helped keep things on an even keel yesterday.

But, hey, I am caught up with one section of my bookwork. Now I will be able to keep on top of that part while I get the others caught up.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 fried egg, 1/2 c grapefruit juice, 1/2 7 grain toast w/jelly, 1 c milk
AM snack - 15 almonds, 2 dried prunes (trying new ways to combine crunchy and sweet)
Lunch - roast beef, green pepper, 1/2 pear
PM snack - 4 crackers w/cheese spread
Supper - pork chop, noodle, peas, salad

Today's goals:
1. stretching exercises
2. work on family history project
3. bookwork
4. watch a movie tonight (at home, but learning to take time away from my office to relax)

We are back to winter weather as it snowed here. Hopefully, it will quickly melt. It just makes DH and I want to go to WDW that much more. Maybe next year.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend.

 

[Lesli54]

Time to chalk off the last few days and move forward. These things happen and you just have to get going again.

Yesterday's food was fine until, I hit the afternoon. I had been wanting chocolate donuts all week and asked DD19 to bring them home along with doritos. The good thing? I managed convince myself to eat my planned lunch instead of those donuts. The bad thing? I later ate all 6 of those mini donuts (300 cal) along with the sm bag of doritos (500 cal). Plans changed for the evening and we brought in pizza, of which I ate 1/2 of a medium and 6 oz of orange soda. Later, I was munchy and wanting sweet. Not hungry mind you. So I ate a large bowl of froot loops. Water was 56 oz.

On the plus side, it seems that when I finally gave into the one thing I have been wanting, my mindset was a bit better. However, I think because I denied myself for so long that I just ate more than I would have and then some.

The best thing that I did do yesterday was get ready for bed at 9:45pm. I read for awhile and then realized that I was so relaxed (a first in a long time) that I actually fell asleep by 10:30. I finally got a great nights sleep. This morning, I was awake at 6:30 and very clear minded and alert. Ok, now I just need to get myself out of bed at 6:30. Which was the time that I used to exercise.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 egg omelet w/ mushrooms, little cheese, onion & gr pepper, 1/2 c grapefruit juice, 1 c milk
AM snack - banana
Lunch - salad w/tuna, walnuts, craisins & grapenuts
PM snack - sm piece cake, maybe (a baby shower, if not too long then I will have fruit when I come home)
Supper - pork chops, noodle, peas

Today's goals:
1. exercise - dance to some Billy Joel
2. clean my office - finish clearing my floor (almost done)
3. watch a movie tonight or read a book (I like the relaxing at the end of the day)

Time to get going. So far today, I feel energetic so I need to take advantage of it while I can. Everyone have a wonderful day!

 

[toystoryduo]

Happy Monday Lesli!

I hope you have a wonderful week ahead!

 

[Lesli54]

I have to admit that part of the reason for not posting the last few days was because part of me was ready to give up. I don't know if you would call it stress, but maybe more of a bit of depression as I allowed things that I haven't gotten around to doing weight down on me. Most of the last few days would start out well, but by the end of the evening, I was eating late and just about anything. There have been many cookies, little snack cakes, late night popcorn, extra bowls of cereal, and almost constant afternoon munching. Now I have been working really hard on getting various projects done that I have promised or that is close to deadlines, trying so desperately to get on top of things. But by evening, I keep trying to work the projects and I struggle with getting it done or taking time for myself, so I snack and work.

On the plus side......water has been 64-72oz a day which is a great thing, I have been taking my vitamins daily, have been drinking a cup of milk daily, and am making progress with getting things done rather than walking away and ignoring it. Looking at it that way, I guess I have been making some lifestyle changes that are sticking. Baby steps, right?

So here I am to keep moving forward because I just don't want to go back to drowning in projects and never having time for myself or my family.

Today's food: (I realize that I am better off planning even if it doesn't quite work every day)
Breakfast - 1 fried egg, 1/2 slice 7 grain toast, ham, 1 c milk, 3/4 c grapefruit juice
AM snack - banana
Lunch - HC chicken rice soup, 4 saltines w/butter
PM snack - nutrigrain bar (will be gone)
Supper - pizza & 6 oz orange pop (take it easy on the amount of pizza)

Today's goals:
1. Bookwork to ready for taxes
2. no eating after 8pm. (need to get back to this before I really ruin this habit I was forming)

Another good thing in the last few days is that I have been up moving around more and "dancing" around the house as I go from place to place. It really helps with the mood and any extra movement is good.

Time to get going. Hope that everyone has a great week and remember, we all stumble a little, but it is important to keep moving forward.

 

[toystoryduo]

Sending a gentle your way. A few weeks ago, I avoided my journal and I was ready to throw in the towel on this healthy living journey, but my DH reminded me that my motto for 2009 was to keep moving forward. I am trying to do that and I know that you are trying to do that too. It can be tough at times, but know that your WISH sisters are here to cheer you on to victory!!!

Please be sure and take some time just for you this evening. I hope you have a good one!

 

[Lesli54]

Yesterday was a good day for the most part. I did manage to get alot of work done, which is a good thing. If I can just finish the last pieces needed for taxes then I will actually be able to see my desk. I did take yesterday to reorganize it and managed to clear alot of things away.

Food for the most part was as planned and I must say that I feel good about that. The few things that I should have done better? I ended up being home during the PM snack and instead of grabbing that snack bar, I grabbed some trail mix (all natural, not very salty, no chocolate), which is not all bad for you........unless you eat the entire bag at 150 cal per servings....that was 7 servings. I can definitely call that stress eating since I was working and having a few problems with calculations. Then I ate 1/2 a pizza when I really was not that hungry. It was the taste. Unfortunately, I also had a bowl of froot loops afterwards because I wanted something sweet. A cup of tea would have been better. However, I didn't eat anything after 8:15pm, a plus. Water was 80 oz.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 fried egg, ham, 1/2 slice 7 grain toast, 1 c milk, 1 c hot tea
AM snack - 3 slatines w/pb
Lunch - tuna rollup, celery, pear
PM snack - banana
Supper - potato soup (if I have time to make) or ??????

Today's goals:
1. no eating after 8pm
2. Bookwork for taxes (soon it will be done, right?)

I better get going. It has already been one of those days with trying to solve problems with the store's new computer system.

Everyone have a great weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lesli,

How's the weekend going? I hope you're having a good one!

 

[goldcupmom]

Lesli, your donuts/doritos day sounds like what my last few WEEKS have been!! UGH!!!!! We know better, yet we do this to ourselves!! At least we have good company!!

Hope things are going better for you! We CAN do this, but not alone!

 

[Lesli54]

Thanks for stopping by Ladies!

Today is the sense of big relief........taxes are done, at least off my desk anyway and on the tax accountants desk to finish up. As always, the day after feels like the "tax hangover" because I am tired and moving a bit slow today. I guess working most of the day 4-5 days in a row and then having computer problems until 2:30 in the morning the day of a tax meeting will kind of make you tired.

Actually, since Friday, things have gone well for the most part. Although I was busy so I don't quite remember everything that I ate, I do know that I did not munch all day long on junk foods. Most of the foods were well proportioned and even if they were not the healthiest, I was concious of keeping the calories in check. Also, I made sure to at least get in 1c of milk, vitamins, and 64+ oz water everyday. (Well, yesterday, I didn't get in all my water since I had meetings all day and was on the go). For the most part, I have been too busy to think about being hungry. Oh, I have been sticking to the no eating after 8pm.

Weight has stayed consistent (I think...scale is broke). I am pretty sure that I haven't lost anything since I haven't done well with getting enough sleep, but I don't really think I gained either. Good news.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 egg omelet w/mushrooms & cheese, ham, 1 c milk, 4 oz grapefruit juice
AM snack - almonds
Lunch - LC chicken a l'orange
PM snack - banana
Supper - spaghetti, salad, maybe some bread

Today's goals:
1. In bed by 10pm

Let's say, I am keeping things simple today since I can tell that I really won't get alot done anyway. I really need to find something mindless to do since thinking could be dangerous right now.

Off to look at a few journals. Everyone have a great day!

 

[toystoryduo]

Way to Go, Lesli!!!! I completely understand your sense of relief that your taxes are done. We finally finished our federal and state taxes last weekend and it is such a great feeling! Being self employed does have it's perks, but easy, uncomplicated taxes are not one of them.

I think your plan to rest and take it easy this evening is a good one. Have a great evening!

 

[Lesli54]

Today is definitely a much better day! I feel so well rested and have already done dishes, started laundry, pd bills, etc. I just love productive days! Of course, it helps that today is sunny and temperatures are supposed to reach 66!

Food yesterday went pretty well. Although, I ate 4 crackers w/pb for the PM snack, plus something else, but I can't remember. Supper was nachos with the works. Not too bad until I ate too many and was overstuffed. I finished the day with a piece of Godiva chocolate. Water was 72 oz.

I crashed in the afternoon and slept for a few hours so I think that contributed to the overeating at supper. It was just a very very tired day. On the plus side I did get to bed early, which helped alot.

Today's food:
Breakfast - 1 fried egg, 1 slice 7 grain toast w/jelly, 1 c grapefruit juice
AM snack - 4 crackers w/pb
Lunch - Panera's, probably soup, but not sure
PM snack - banana
Supper - pizza night and 6 oz oranged pop

Today's goals:
1. In bed by 10:30pm
2. Exercise

I'm off to meet DD19 for lunch between her classes. We are working towards a more adult relationship. With DD21 it was established much quicker, I think, because she went away to college so I quickly had to realize that she was making her own decisions into adulthood. When I visited her, we would eat out and have a chance to talk. Since DD19 has stayed home for school, we haven't completely reached the point that she is really an adult and I think that has come from both sides. We both want to get beyond the mother/high school kid role and move the the mother/daughter as friends role. In the long run, I think that it will be much better if we can get to the point where we both treat each other as adults and she knows that she can still count on me. I didn't realize how important it is that I still take time to meet DD19 for lunch even though she still lives at home. This should be fun.

Everyone have a great day!

 

[goldcupmom]

Wanna come do my taxes, Lesli????? I still haven't started!

Glad you got a bit of rest & things are going well. Good luck w/ DD19. Hope you had a nice visit! Hard to see them as adults when they are still under our roofs!!

Almost the weekend! Have a good one!!

 

[toystoryduo]

It sounds like yesterday was a great day, Lesli! How did lunch go with your DD?

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

 

[Lesli54]

Lunch with DD19 went really well. It was nice to just have a conversation that wasn't stressed or a repeat of things we have rehashed over and over again. After lunch, we stopped to look at washer and dryers (mine are dying and new ones are too $$$$) before I dropped her back off for classes. Overall, I think we both enjoyed the one on one time.

Yesterday's food for the most part was on track and water was 64 oz. For lunch I had a turkey artichoke 1/2 sandwich (probably way too many cal) and a salad. The pm snack was 1/2 a bear claw that DD19 and I split. Everything else was as planned. Didn't get to bed as early as I had hoped but I didn't stay up too late. Exercise was lifting cases of GS cookies. Not many, but hey, it counts right?

Today I was up early and it was great! I was 100% ready for the day, makeup and all BEFORE I took the kids to school. That actually felt nice and not near as rushed as I had thought it might be. DH asked me to go up to Chicago with him for something he was attending. Nice trip, nice company, nice lunch, boring everything else. Needless to say, I was not productive today, but I guess it is good to have a day away from work.

Today's food:
Breakfast - McD's sausage biscuit (on the road)
AM snack - missed
Lunch - too many tortilla chips and salsa, too many nachos at chilis
PM snack - missed (late lunch)
In between snack? - 1 bite of bear claw, 1 godiva chocolate (too tired and trying for energy, not the way to go)
Supper - probably 1/2 pb sandwich or maybe some popcorn (still too full from lunch)

Guess I better work on better foods tomorrow.

Goals for the day:
1. Bed by 10:30pm

Time to get going. Maybe I will go through some pictures tonight so that I feel productive. Everyone have a great evening!