Jay-nee's journal

[Strings]

Hi Jaynee,

Cograts on the great clippie. You definatley deserve it.

I am glad things are going well for you. Finances are tough. I hope it works out.

Keep us posted.

Take care,
Beth

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Way to go Jaynee. Sorry to hear about DH. But you sound to be okay with everything.

Just wanted to stop by and see how you were doing. I'm sure you'll hit that 145ish in no time without even trying.

Take care...Gail

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Jay-nee

Sounds like you are doing well. I'm so sorry to hear about your goats I'm sure that was very hard to do.

Well sounds like you are right back into your exercise if you've been digging ditches! It doesn't get any harder than that!

You are doing a great job of staying at goal and inching downwards.

Sunny

 

[mking624]

Hi Jaynee!

I'm sorry to hear about your goats...I bet that must have been tough. It's amazing how much impact these precious creatures have on our lives!

I'm glad to hear you're doing well.

 

[jay-nee]

Good monring everyone! I am going to try and get better about posting, but so many things to do! Plus, anyone who knows me, knows that I hate sitting at the computer! Basically I kill time at the computer, I hate to be bored!

So, here's what I have been up to... cleaning brush from the property has been alot of my focus this week. I have a good sized section to go, but I've made a huge amount of headway this past week. My arms hurt for a day afterward, a good hurt, sore muscles. I have been back on my bike too, that feels so good (other than my butt!). I haven't done the bowflex or pilates in a while, but I need to get them back into my schedule soon.

I am heading to my DMs this weekend with the kids, her Bday is Saturday. It will be fun for us. Thankfully a neighbor is watching the pony, as pet sitter has just had a baby girl, so she won't be able to watch the pony for a bit. Barn chores don't take much time now anyway, just the pony and a barn cat. I miss my old girls, they were just so sweet. It's so quiet out there now, weird! So far, I don't notice that the pony misses them, but the cat was really friendly for a few days after, she seems fine now. I'm going to build her a little box just outside of the pony's stall so that she can sleep and see the pony too. I don't want her to be lonely and she used to sleep with the goats. Thank God it's not winter!

The kids are doing great, so far. Having my Mom down last week was a great change of routine for all of us and kind of refocused things. I have alot of decisions to make (some soon, some can wait). I'm trying to put thinsg in perspective and make changes as I need, but I want to make well-thought out decisions, so I'm trying to put thought into things now. I don't want to make panicky decisions. So for now, I'm trying to change only those things that I have to.

Well, the kids are up so we are going to start our Mother's Day together. Hope everyone has a great day! Enjoy your families!

 

[jay-nee]

I am stabilizing a bit. Actually, probably, pretty good for me to do. I feel great.

I have to stay focused now, I think maintenance is going to be hard for me, I need to find new challenges now to keep me focused. This is why people gain weight back, because the goal is different and I don't know how to program myself for it.

Well, my big thrill was...the kids took me shopping for a new pair of jeans on Mother's Day. So, I'm thinking maybe I can feel comfortable in one of the pairs of 10's. I tried 3 different pairs on and they all fit and nicely! I brought my DD in to help me. Honestly, I thought this trying on clothes things was going to bum me out - not so! So, DD says, Mom why don't you try a pair of 8's on. I'm thinking - no way - but what the heck. An aside is --- as many of you know, I will NOT wear fitted clothes, I HATE them, so until I can sit, breathe, move in whatever, it doesn't fit in my eyes. But, the 8's fit comfortably snug, but I stuck with the 10's! I need to be comfortable all day in them.

So, what a day! So, here's what I am going to do. I am going to stay on track and in 2 weeks, I'm buying those 8's! They will be my "check myself" jeans. Each week, I will try them on and they will be my progress check. I still can't believe that it wasn't that long ago that I couldn't squeeze (literally) into my 14's! And, now, I am ready to eBay those 14's!

Well, I had to share. You can all appreciate, I know... Little steps add up to big losses! Be consistant and OP most of the time, it will happen! Now, I need to learn to maintain! Argh!

Happy Tuesday WISHers!

 

[pearlieq]

I think you're right--maintaining is an even bigger challenge than losing, but you've made so many positive changes, I'm sure you can do it!

Maybe you could start working on some new fitness goals? Maybe picking up a new sport or pushing your training would be enough of a "carrot" to keep you motivated.

Congrats on those new jeans! That had to feel good!!!

 

[jay-nee]

is definately much harder now. Weird... But, you can see why most folks gain the weight back.

New goals...pearlieq...really no time to pick up a new sport, but I think we are going to play tennis today. It's going to be much harder now that I'm a single parent and, believe me, it was hard enough before.

I brushed the pony yesterday (that is work for sure!). I will brush her out again today, honestly, you wouldn't believe the amount of hair that I took out and to think there is so much more! Yesterday was the second time I had brushed her out this spring, but you'd never know it!

My eating is so off plan lately, ever since my Mom came down. The same week my exercise bike broke again. This year is just so hard. I think God is trying to teach me to be adaptable, but I am such a type A, routine oriented person, it's so hard for me to roll with the punches.

I'm not completely crazy in my eating, but not nearly on my normal plan. And my exercise is all over the place. I am doing alot of outside yard-type work. I'm breaking a sweat so I know it is good physical activity, but I'd like to squeeze biking in too, but I'm always so tired (probably because I'm off plan on eating). Vicious cycle.

Plus, I think I'm a little depressed lately, trying not to be but things are starting to hit me here and there... This divorce thing is so sad to me. I know it's for the best, but I feel sad for my husband, he's lost so much and it's just starting to hit him now. Neither of us wants to be back together, but 19 yrs is so long... Honestly, none of this makes any sense to me still.

Well, I better put on my happy face, the kids will be up soon.

Happy Wednesday! (see I'm trying...)

 

[jay-nee]

so good.

Eating OP---

breakfast - my usual (total with craisens and almonds w/1% milk - picked up 1% instead of skim - drrrr)

lunch - 1 1/2 grilled cheese with 1/2 can of healthy request tomato soup and a mug of 1% milk (it's almost gone - whew...)

No exercise yet unless you count dusting the house and doing laundry. But, I did manage to get the pony brushed again - she's looking so cute! Well, she's cute even when she's scragally anyway (if that's even a word ).

Off to run errands now including a bit of tennis with the kids.

I planned on drinking alot of water today, but alas my weakness... I will go gulp some now though...

Staying on track so far...

 

[jay-nee]

Yep, I did much, much better yesterday. Still working for great. Splurged for a small soft serve with the kids and made a nice banana bread that I checked for poisoning! But, stayed focused. I drank more water too. I really have to push myself to drink the water, but I know it will help so much, so I'll do it!

I ended up playing tennis with the kids for 25 minutes so I counted that as my exercise. I was running around and sweating so I don't feel guilty either! Plus, I had to mow some of the lawn, so I had to make choices with my time.

Today's plan: water, water, water!

breakfast - the usual

lunch - will be an apple and peanut butter and blueberry preserves on Katahdin 4 seed bread (can't wait - so yummy!)

no plan for dinner yet...

will bike and do pilates too!

Happy Thursday!

 

[rcyannacci]

The sun must be coming out in Maine if you're playing tennis This type of fun and active activities with your kids sounds like just what you need right now- good both emotionally and physically.

Have a good Thursday!

 

[jay-nee]

from the long weekend at DM's. We had so much fun, wish we could have stayed longer, but alas we will go back soon or she will be down soon.

I did ok...at DM's...she is a great cook and loves to cook, so it's trouble from the beginning. I gained 2 lbs, but no worries.

I rode my bike last night and did most of my bowflex routine (the sliding seat needs to be fixed). Do you see the trend here? God, I keep breaking all of my equipment, it's so frustrating! I am not rough on it, I just use it daily. Thankfully, I think I can fix this myself.

I am starting to clean the pool out for summer, what a job! But, I threw some algaecide in today and shocked it too. I need to get the pump hooked up and then things will start to look better.

DM sent some perennials back with us, so I got those in yesterday. I'm not much of a gardener, but I do feel so much pride in how the house and property look that I'm willing to try new things this year. DH usually takes care of the little bit of gardening we've done in the past. The kids are going to do the veggie garden this year though, they are planning it already. I guess they will be putting it in on Memorial Weekend.

Well, today we have a field trip to a local wildlife rehabilitation lady, that should be very interesting... Plus, DS is doing a project on volunteering in Maine, so we are hoping this is dual-purpose.

Happy Tuesday all!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Jay-nee

Man you are busy! I didn't realize you have a pool, too! We're going to knick name you the Hulk if you keep breaking all of your ex. equipment

I hope the flowers turn out nice. I'm not much of a gardner either but I love planting a few and seeing them everytime I come home.

Sunny

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi Jaynee--i have completely missed coming to your journal..luckily i think i will have more time without too many c lasses..hope things are going well with you!

 

[Strings]

Hi Jay-nee,

You are a busy woman. I think the reason Won preferred the house we are in to the other house we looked at before moving was the pool. He didn't want the extra work. I hope the flowers turned out beautiful.

Take care,
Beth

 

[jay-nee]

I've been so busy with work and home that I don't get alot of time to post anymore. I usually read my journal, but posting takes time...sorry...

Well, I've been doing well OP with eating and pretty much OP with exercise, but yardwork definately challenges my exercise time. Mowing is a forever chore and takes along time - 2 acres of lawn - argh! Thankfully, DS rakes it, if not, I would have no free time at all. Yesterday I rode our mower over an old dog tie-out that I had forgotten was there. Thank God I didn't wreck the riding mower! I tried and tried and tried some more to get the dog cable off the mower blade, but no way. So I ended up getting one of my neighbor's help. God, I hate that couldn't do it by myself, how frustrating... I pride myself on taking care of everything by myself, but honestly, there are some jobs I can not do. I am trying to come up with something to bake for their family to thank them. We've been to WDW twice with these neighbors, they are good neighbors. Thank God for that!

So, my yard looks great and I did get the plants my Mom gave me in, they are definately suffering a set back, but I think they will make it - I hope. In my next life I will be a better gardener. I will also NOT sunburn in my next life!

Work has been busy because we are moving from one section of the building to another so I worked yesterday which makes for a short weekend for me. Yes, I am spoiled by having most Fridays off. Funny how you can get used to that! So today feels like Friday to me, so I have to keep reminding myself that it's Saturday - drrrr!

I miss my Mom. I think we are going to have to move. DH is playing money games again and I need to not rely on what he might bring each week. I am left with all of the bills and no money, savings will only go so far. We are definately not going to WDW in Sept and what a bummer because our PAPs are still valid through the end of Sept '05. That makes me so mad! But, such is life and the priorities have changed now.

I will say that the kids are doing great! There school work is back on track. DS is all A's again and DD is 1 B+ and all A's otherwise. They are good kids and try so hard to do their best. DS has been working for one of the neighbors doing some odd jobs. He owes me some money so it was good timing. He borrowed money to buy a sperpa jacket from Wilson's leather. It was on sale and he looks so good in it. He's been wanting one all winter and when he saw the sale sign at Wilson's, he just about jumped out of the car! He got it for 1/2 price but it was still a bit over $100. He tries it on everyday, he's so cute!

I am at 150 today, so I am happy. Plus the bike tech came and "fixed" my bike for me - so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is actually fixed this time! We'll see, I have a new 30 day warranty on this part so I will be riding it daily for these 30 days! Just to be sure!

Well, gotta jet. So glad it's the weekend! Now I am going to try and enjoy it!

 

[jay-nee]

my exercise bike is working (at least for the moment!). I had an ok ride on it. It's hard to go between the 3 bikes (windtrainer, exercise bike, and outdoor mountain bike). Each on has it's good and bad, it seems that just when I get into a groove on one, it breaks... then I adjust and the same thing happens - so frustrating!

Well, the tech did tell me that if the same part breaks again that I will have some legal recourse. Well, you'd think after 4 months I'd have something, huh?

I did pretty well eating yesterday. I was busy, so that always helps! I got some small marigolds to mingle with the the plants my Mom gave me. It's raining today, so I'll plant them when we get a bit of a dry day - not sure when that will be... We finally got rid of the snow and since then it just rains and rains and rains. Now I love the rain, so no biggie, but it would be nice to see the sun here and there. I've had my deck and lawn furniture out for ages and have only sat in any of them for about 15 minutes total! It's been a crazy spring.

Well, I will be riding the exercise bike again today, plus doing my bowflex routine too. I am making corn chowder and biscuits today, but I'll be good. The kids love bisuits, I could take them or leave them. I've been substituting whole wheat flour for 1/2 the flour in my recipes lately, so far it hasn't affected the quality of the recipe, plus it adds a nutty flavor and a nice texture too.

Happy Sunday all...back to work tomorrow...but I'll be moving into my new office so it will be fun!

 

[rcyannacci]

Happy Sunday! Glad you got you bike fixed...what a pain. I just did some bike riding on my vacation and loved it!

As a Southern woman, I probably shouldn't admit this, but I've never been able to make biscuits. I'm much impressed, and imagine that they are an awesome compliment to corn chowder!

Have a great weekend!

 

[joelyfaithsmommy]

Happy Sunday, just wanted to say hello and try to be an encouragement!!!


HUGZ!

Jen

 

[jay-nee]

I can't believe that May is almost gone! It has rained here a good part of the month and I, a rain lover normally, am ready for the sun to come out. I want to lay out and soak it in and jump in the pool with the kids! I am trying to enjoy the rainy days - making the most of them - but it is starting to wear on me...

I am eating ok - not quite OP, but not a total mess either. Today is WI day for me, so we'll see how I'm doing. I seem to be maintaining my 150-ish. And, since I'm not gaining, I guess I am learning to maintain. I hope so...

I am in an exercise lull. I wrote this a couple of days ago, but I truly believe that jummping from bike to bike that I can't make it a routine. It is so frustrating! I want to fall in love with my exercise bike again, but I don't trust the darn thing! As soon as I get into a routine with it - BAM! - it breaks again. But, I have to do it. Today is a bowflex day too. I am trying to be better...

I have been really down lately too. This whole thing with my "husband" ---what the heck should I call him now? --- it eats me up sometimes. I do fine until he starts playing games - money, kids, etc... I can't take it! Right now, he hasn't sent any money for 2 weeks. House payment is due soon and I'm freaking out! Also, he sees the kids once a week for about 15 minutes to an hour. It might be easier if he didn't even bother! But, I know that's not good for them either. DD won't talk to him and DS is trying but it is starting to wear on him that his Dad is a schmuck. I covered for him for all these years, but now he's on his own. I can't cover for him when I have no idea what he's up to. Enuf said. Just spitting it out makes me mad!

So, today the kids and I are going to devise an afternoon plan - once a week, we are going to do something interesting as a field trip. This week we are going to the Maine State Museum in Augusta. I really want to take them to Boston for a day, but I'm still working on doggie day care arrangements for that. Plus, my Mom's knee replacement is coming up so we will have 4 dogs and a parrot for possibly 4-6 weeks while she is recovering. That should be interesting! (trying to be posiitive here...) So I want to do some fun stuff with the kids before the menagerie shows up!

Well, better get to my day... I need to do 435 minutes of exercise by next Tuesday to make goal - argh! I know I can do it though... it comes out to 55 minutes a day! I can do that!

Happy Tuesday all!