Jay-nee's journal

[Strings]

Jay-nee,
How are you doing? I've been thinking about you.

You are in definate need of some pampering. A massage sounds great. Other suggestions are an evening with a girlfriend for dinner and a movie. A trip to the bookstore and an hour to read is also relaxing for me. I have always been able to escape into a book. A hot bubble bath after the kids are in bed is another thought.

Take care,
Beth

 

[jay-nee]

I'm doing ok. The rollercoaster has started again and it takes such a toll on me. I am trying to stay focused and positive for the kids sake and my sanity but it wipes me out!

I have lost another 1/2 lb, brings me to 163.5. One of my size 12 jeans fits well enough to wear (I have them on right now!!!!). The other two are just a bit too snug for me (I can't stand tight clothes!). Only 8.5 lbs to goal.

Today, I am having a hungry day. That is such a new feeling for me lately, good to have a challenge like that! It will be interesting to see how I do with that.

As of yesterday, I have exercised 500 minutes this month, so I am well on my way to making the Feb exercise challenge too!

I am glad that I am able to turn all of this stress into something healthy for me with working out intensely and not overeating. So glad that I am just eating again, God, that was scary! Counselor told me that if I didn't start sleeping better and eating better that anti-depressants were going to be in my future, well, talk about a wake-up call. I hate taking anything I don't NEED to take. Plus, I'm just in a better place in my head at the moment, hopefully I can stay there.

Well, I'm off to update my ticker to my total of 28.5 lbs lost! yippee for me! I'm thinking about posting a picture if I can figure out how to do it...

I put a thread on the main WISH board for reward ideas too, it's interesting what people do. Guess I never thought about it much... hmmmm...

Thanks again to my WISH friends, you guys are too cool!

 

[sarahsmom73]

Hey Jay -nee!!!

First and for most take care of you... Read my journal and you'll see what is going on with me... I pretty much got the shock of my life yesterday at the Dr...

Your weight loss is amazing! Keep up the grea work!

 

[pettyone]

I'm doing ok. The rollercoaster has started again and it takes such a toll on me. I am trying to stay focused and positive for the kids sake and my sanity but it wipes me out!

 

[Strings]

jay-nee,

If you are battleing depression, you are doing it the right way. Healthy eating and exercise are very powerful weapons against depression. We are all here to listen to you. You are doing an amazing job. Keep up the great work.
Beth

 

[sarahsmom73]

Check in with us! We are here for you!

 

[jay-nee]

I'm actually doing pretty good right now. The ups and downs with DH are brutal though. I try to stay focused, but it's hard to be positive faced with so many challenges and worries about what the future holds.

I have been diligent about my workouts, but I think I might drop the Bowflex as something I did aggravated my knee and I want no part of that at all! I am so mad about it.

Other than the flabbiness of my arms and upper legs, I feel like I am finally looking like myself again. I need toning so badly now. I have a very strong body that I have let slide with this knee injury and I need to work towards that now that my weight is coming into check again.

I am eating great! I am most proud of this because this is the key to keeping me from gaining again. I have learned to feel hunger instead of thinking hunger (that's the best way I can describe it). I do still think hunger, but I just drink some water and, usually, I am fine.

I have not eaten anything that I would consider "cheating." I work in an office building so there is always cakes, donuts, cookies, etc. I walk right on by.

I am thinking about joining the gym in my building so that I can take spinning classes. But, I wish it didn't cost $30 bucks a month. I only work 3 days a week and probably would only use it on the day that I get a lunch break, so I really don't want to justify it, but I want to try spinning and have them do a health evaluation on me too.

So, things are good. Stay tuned though, it seems to change from minute to minute! I wish I could control THAT! yikes...

Hope my WISH friends are all doing well....

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Jay-nee

hugs for you and your family situation. I hope it all evens out so you can get off the roller coaster.

Spinning sounds wonderful! Maybe you could do a couple of months and decide if it was really worth the investment in membership? There are spinning classes as my gym but I've never signed up. You've inspired me! I just might try a class.

I agree that working out intensly is much better than drowning in food. I have been through major stresses with my DD over the past two years. If I didn't workout I don't know where I'd be right now.

Endorphins the anti-drug

Keep up the great work, and take good care of yourself through this time.

Sunny

 

[Strings]

Hi Jay-nee,

You may be able to take the spinning class for a higher fee without signing up for a membership. Take care of that knee.
Beth

 

[jay-nee]

Well, DM is here for the weekend, which results in me having very little comp time, as she is an early morning riser too!

Also, she has brought her 3 dogs, argh! So, I have non-stop doggie duty and it's sooooo cold this weekend, yikes... brrr...

But, hopefully, we will have fun together and have some lighthearter down time...

Have a great Friday! (BTW, things are going ok and I will catch everyone up soon).

 

[wilderness01]

Glad things are starting to look up.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

hi jaynee! i hope everything is still going good--im trying to catch up on everyones journals tonight, but ill be back to coming around all the time again..cant get rid of me!! "see" ya soon! have a great weekend

 

[sarahsmom73]

Hope you have a fun time with DM!!! Stay warm!!!

 

[jay-nee]

I really enjoyed having my Mom around, alot... I miss her already...

I will say that she is not helpful in the eating department at all! But, I stayed on track pretty well anyway. Given all of the mess in my life, my eating habits and exercise habits are really the only constant I have.

The kids are doing great and had a blast hanging out with my Mom too. They even got her to play Donkey-Konga, what a hoot! But, they all had alot of fun.

I am up to 705/1000 minutes for this month and intend on making goal. WI day is tomorrow.

It's snowing again. I hate the thought of shoveling some more. I know spring is coming, but shoveling has been brutual with no help this year. Thankfully, I am very capable to be on my own. DS helps if he's not doing school, he always does the deck, at least. But, spring will be here soon, right? I can't wait.

Meanwhile, it is supposed to be a very cold week here. I miss Fl alot... I want to be warm all the way through again... I also want to make new memories at my happy place and forget that last trip... Not sure if that will happen, but it's worth thinking about...

Hope everyone is doing well...

 

[sarahsmom73]

Glad your weekend was good! I was thinking about you!

I completely understand about the snow! I have had it!!!! In a BIG way! I am tired of snow and cold I am always cold! We should form the North east winter support group!!!

Hang in there! It's almost March!

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Glad you a great weekend with DM! Hope your weigh in goes great tomorrow! You are getting so close to goal! That must be so exciting!

Take care!

Gail

 

[Blueeyes101817]

jaynee-i was thinking about you! glad you are doing well--stay warm!!!

 

[jay-nee]

I am so psyched, I lost! I lost! I am down to 162 lbs! Only 7 lbs from goal!

This couldn't have happened at a better time for me... I was really thinking I had blown it this weekend. But, I kept up with my workouts, even though I was positive that it wouldn't matter... Exercise really is the trick to this, just make a plan and stick with it. Even if you think you've blown it, just get back with your plan asap!

I've decided to make 155 my "high" goal weight. It is the highest I want to weigh, ever! So, weighing myself weekly and staying with that plan, plus exercising and eating healthy (and not too much), should keep me in check. I can't wait for things to start toning up, this will be the long process though.

I also read a post that someone was buying clothes for their ideal size and I think I may use that as my reward. I am thinking about buying an item of "ideal" sized clothing each, say, 2 weeks or each month. That would be really cool. I have this really cool top that I can fit in now and I feel so good in it I want to wear it every day. I wonder if others are like me in this way...

Got alot of snow yesterday and into last evening, it is so light and fluffy though, it was a dream to shovel, I'm loving that light stuff! Wish I could take the kids snowboarding today (no extra money...argh!). This whole thing with DH is making me so mad in more ways than 1.

So, off to update my clippie to...get this... 30 lbs off this bod! WAHOOOOO! Isn't that so cool! I am amazed...and thrilled...

WISHers keep up the great work. I couldn't have done this without this board, I swear! If I can do this, anyone can...I mean it! It seemed like such a daunting task when I first posted, but WISH makes you so accountable. Love you WISHers! to you Jen(x2), Gail, Beth, Sunny, wilderness01, and pettyone. You guys help me through everyday...

 

[sarahsmom73]

Great job Jay-nee!!!! You must feel awesome! I am very proud of you!!! Keep up the great work!

 

[Strings]

Jay-nee,

Congratulations on your beautiful new clippie! You have stuck with your program despite a great deal of stress. Keep up the great work. You are an amazing woman.

Have a good day,
Beth