Soo.. my grandma is in the hospital. She went in Wed. night and is now in ICU. It started off with her blood pressure being ridiculously low, and now she is bleeding every time she has a bm. She had an endoscopy (sp?) done today (they put a camera down your throat into your belly to look around) The results showed nothing there. That's good.. maybe.. now she has to have a colonstapy (again sp?) to see if there is anything wrong there (maybe a tear in the intestine??) Hoping it's nothing there as well. Idk why but I just have this terrible feeling. I asked her to stay strong and not do anything dumb like pass away right before my trip(my grandma is not your typical old lady, so i can say stuff like this).. cause to be honest, i will prolly lose my mind and be nuts for a good couple years if anything happens, as will my children.
Ok on to brighter things so i don't lose it right now. This sunday we are going shopping..again. This time for John and myself..only (yeah right

) ok well thats the plan anyways. We both need new sneakers, and possibly sandals. I need new undies. We are looking for a gps, since ours got stolen the day after xmas last year!! did i mention it was the gift santa brought us!(aka, we bought it for ourselves and signed santa so the kids wouldnt get suspiscous!)What else.. ok how about this..
my trip is only 16 days away!! i'm down to weeks!!! that seems to unreal after planning this for almost 2 years.. well officially since january, but talking about it for almost 2 years. The more I think about it the more emotional I get.. I'm def going to cry when we leave to go there ,when we get there,while we are there, and then when we leave..oh and when we get home! Its so rare that we get to let our hair down and do whatever we want. Disney allows just that. No pressure to look cool, or have the latest and greatest clothing,shoes,gadgets, whatever.. that can be associated with many other kids of trips. no need for the perfect beach body, no need to be all high class and look important on your blackberry.. no nothing.. just eating, and being a kid! I cant EFFING wait!! Maybe I'll start packing next week??
On another lousy note, I got the letter in the mail telling me who my dd's 2nd grade teacher was going to be...and don't you know its the teacher we were both dreading!! not only that, but the one parent I absolutely hate has a dd in the same class.. what luck!! I normally don't hate people, but this lady is such a bitc* it is ridiculous!! she talks down to me and tries to make herself look better then me. Says things like"well your a baby, and don't have the expirience I have" Uhm boo, we both have 7 year old daughters... what more expirience with children do you have..plus a nanny raised her dd for 5 of her 7 years.. so please tell me what more you know about kids then I do?? Oh and I am a nanny and have been working with children for over 12 years.. so yeah. As you can see I get in a nutty fit when I even think about this lady!! did I mention when she said all this it was over cream cheese ghost sandwiches for the halloween party in kindergarten?? and in addition to the snide remark, she said how she had PR expirience with big coopertaions.. wow great.. so did you make a big fit over your cream cheese ghosts there too?? oh and the best part of all this, is she touched my face when she said, "oh your just a baby".. I hate when 40 something moms are jealous of 20 something moms. It's ageism and just plain dumb!! I get it OFTEN so I'm getting more and more used to it. But it still sucks. Doesn't help that I am tattooed i suppose?? or that I'm not married.. or that I have two different baby daddies,or that i don't own a home.. or that i don't own a lexus suv like most of them do (nor would i ever, even if I could) So in conclusion.. i have no clue where my post is going, but I feel better now!!

sorry I don't have more disney updates... I feel like there is stuff to be done..but idk what... it will hit me all last minute i'm sure
