Hey all.
I'll just kind of answer everything all together.
I really appreciate the concern from everyone, and moving on has been something that we've both really considered. The fact of the matter is, we both know this is where we want to be, we just want it to be a better place to be.
I don't really want to go into too much detail, just because I think he and I really need to focus on it without too much outside opinion so that we can do what truly makes us happy, but most of all, because all of this involved a lot more people than the two of us, and some bad decisions were made by pretty much everyone involved, myself included. He didn't cheat, and neither did I, so I'll put that to rest right now, but there were some lines crossed by him as well as others and it's caused a lot of friction and drama in our social circle. I've gotten a lot of negativity thrown at me about it, but I'm a fighter and so is he, and we both believe we can get past this with love, positivity, and honesty, and that's what we're going to do. We're kind of taking a break from our group of friends so that everyone can just chill out for a while and let the dust settle, and just spending quality time together. It sounds weird, but really, it's like this is the best thing to happen to us in a long time. We've been so much more open and honest with each other the last week, and have spent much much more quality time together than we have in a long time. It's weird how something bad can bring you closer together and make you stronger.
I'm really sorry if I sound defensive, and I don't want to be seeking for sympathy, just positivity and support, which I know I can find among the people here, so I wanted to say I truly am appreciative of all of you.
I'm really doing a lot better today, pain-wise, stress-wise, and just mentally, and really looking at things with a much better outlook.
As far as my stomach goes, I will have a final diagnosis after they redo the colonoscopy on Feb. 8th. My primary doctor has said that there are other meds she'd like to try if the final diagnosis is IBS, that won't have the same side effects as what I'm taking now, but that since we are still trying to decide between Crohn's and IBS, she doens't want to pursue that just yet. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Diet wise, I've been doing much better the last few days, and keeping a food journal for my doctor has been good. I always tried before but would slack off, because I could. Now, it's really important and needed, so I've stuck to it a lot more and it's really opened up my eyes as to what I'm eating, how much, etc. And how much water I drink vs what I THINK I'm drinking. It's going to really help.
For the first time in a while, I'm really actually excited to step onto the scale on Friday
Thanks again for the support and listening, I promise I won't make an all-about-Cathie hijack again.
I hope everyone's having a fantastic Wednesday!!!!