In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[HockeyKat]

OH Jo, I couldn't understand more.

I wish I had an answer for you, because if I did then I could learn to walk away too.

All we can do is pick up and say tomorrow is another day.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

OH Jo, I couldn't understand more.

I wish I had an answer for you, because if I did then I could learn to walk away too.

All we can do is pick up and say tomorrow is another day.

Thanks Kat,
I am just going to have to tell myself one day at a time, If I get do just this one day without junk I will be ok. (and so on)
Already packed lunch for work tomorrow, no "treats" Just one day at a time.

Right?

 

[3DisneyKids]

Sorry you are struggling, Jo. As Kat said, there isn't any magic anything that we can give you--we all struggle with this, too. I just said it myself--I keep gaining and losing the same damn weight. And I am SO happy when I take it off--why won't I let myself stay that way?

But listen, here's the thing...the eating and the Half don't have to go hand in hand. You can train for and run the Half at your current size. I realize that isn't your goal, but I am just saying that you don't have to focus on both at the same time. The Half is in nine months. You have SO much time. So think about which you want to get under control first. My guess is the running since you seem to be having an easier time sticking with that than WW.

Just get on your training plan and stick with it--slowly increasing your mileage. And I am willing to bet that as your fitness level improves, you are naturally going to start eating better. Once you get up into higher miles, you start realize that food is fuel for your body. And once you start to see food as fuel, well, the rest starts to fall into place.

The other way to look at it is to just concentrate on your food plan for a while. OMG, Liz lost 80 pounds on WW and she sat on the couch! (Her words, not mine--she'll be the first one to tell you that.) And then once she was in a great place with her food and weight, she started adding in exercise.

You don't have to do it all at once. In fact, doing too much at once is a sure fire recipe for failure.

Hang in there! And hang out here! Do you have any books? We can suggest some.

 

[HockeyKat]

I agree with Erika. When I focused on training in Jan/Feb, the eating just fell in line.

That is the reason I decided to try and join the Galloway group and train for a Nov half with my friend. Just that focus, and goal, may help with the weight stuff too.

Also, you can TOTALLY TOTALLY make the half. I was 218 lbs when I started training, and not only hadn't exercised in like 6 mos (other than once a week hockey), had never really run before. My first 3 mile time the 2nd week in Jan was like 50 min and I thought I was going to die, and I did the half with 14:30 min miles in March, at 193 lbs.

Seriously, if you had asked me in Dec 2009 if I would have finished I would have told you he!! no. If I can do it, you can too!!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Off to make some more costumes for my kids to wear.

Costumes? Does someone need costumes?

D and I have committed to 3 solid months of eating healthy and NO ALCOHOL. I will be honest, and I don't think that we will make it more than about 2 weeks.

WOW Kat. 3 months? Really, the first week is the hardest for me. I really love a nice glass of wine when I'm making dinner But not only do I save calories when I don't drink, but OMG the MONEY!

SH*T! I am so tired of gaining and losing the same 10-ish pounds. I swear, I have lots 200 pounds if you add it all up.

WORD!

But listen, here's the thing...the eating and the Half don't have to go hand in hand.

......

You don't have to do it all at once. In fact, doing too much at once is a sure fire recipe for failure.

Jo - Erika is exactly right. Exactly! Small, manageable lifestyle changes will make a huge difference in the long run. OH! And my little *treat* for the sugar fix is Hershey's dark chocolate kisses. Just 2 or 3. They are only about 20 calories each, so not bad and they seem to do the trick for me.



Today I ran my most comfortable 5.5 miles since the 1/2 My hamstring was a little tender by the end of the day, but overall feeling much better than I have in months. I didn't track, however I know that each of my meals was right where I wanted it to be so I think I'm ok for the day.

 

[lisaviolet]

Nancy - maintain this week - I'm acting like you have a notebook and are documenting. And Lord knows why I keep choosing Wednesday night over Thursday morning.

Jo - the book? Didn't resonate at all? No sarcasm. Just curious.

I have a few things to say about sugar (including the special yummy carbs that turn into sugar). Most I'm sure you know .....

1) Sugar brings on more sugar cravings - hand's down. Doesn't keep me from it though. .

Ie.I rarely ever drink pop. It's not my thing. But if I do - I want another. Sugar LOVES sugar.

2) Overtired sometimes can make one crave sugar. Me - ALWAYS.

3) Low immunity/sick/coming down with sickness can make one crave sugar.

4) I've heard stress depletes vitamin C - can make one crave a fast sugar hit.

5) Not having enough nutrients in the body/enough vitamins/minerals can make one crave sugar. I know when I'm active about eating better I don't have as many sugar cravings.

Of them all - overtired makes me sugar nuts.

And stop being so BLOODY hard on yourself Jo. That's jumping off the page. Look at what you've accomplished already.

The hardest issue to balance: not being hard on yourself but being hard enough on yourself - if that makes any sense. It's late.

Kelly ( if any of you watch Grey's don't tell her a thing she's about six/seven shows behind )- Kelly GA season finale tomorrow (well today) and parental discretion is advised. Last week was fabulous. After a very dull and boring start to the season it really picked up.

 

[lisaviolet]

more cookie sticks

I would google but I'm far too lazy. And I'm sure they are pretty self explanatory. Just never heard of them.

 

[lisaviolet]

I had a horrifying conversation with my mother tonight. INSERT BIG EFFIN' SIGH.

Nothing's wrong - just apparent that everything is kind of conversation. You know I've done this with Jean's mother and it still shocks like a kick in the stomach. It's like having a relationship with a new mother. And I'm very loving and patient and present. So I can't imagine where my father is at - read he is struggling with not reacting over and over.

She got her cardiologist appointment - August. (this is not because our health care is free - it's because we have a shortage of specialists at this moment in time) Lord knows why her GP didn't hook her up while they were in Florida. I guess the delay is because the aorta has to be replaced but it's not an *emergency* right now.

Okay I could just a ramble......

 

[lisaviolet]

And by the way - my mother had unchecked HBP and high cholesterol for YEARS. Why? Because SHE didn't believe in meds.

And her doctor didn't push her or educate her. (No one likes meds). And both were hardly caused by her lifestyle - probably genes in her case. It's a joke in my family. My mom was always active all over the place and ate half decently - my father NEITHER. And he had/has neither.

Anyway, I'm SURE that although they don't know the ins and outs of why with this - that both were factors. So please please don't leave either unchecked.

 

[poppinspal]

Good morning ladies! Quick post as I'm on my phone. The sun is out, I slept well last night, I have moved on. Life is good.

Jo- you've gotten some great advice but I wanted to just say I agree that the training and eating do not have to go together. I trained for my first race(8 miles) about 35 pounds heavier then I am now and I did not try to eat very healthy. You can do it!

Lisa- Sending hugs your way as always. And I agree people should get checked. I was 17 and was diagnosed with extremely high cholesterol. I was active, it was a lot to do with genetics. Regulating my diet helped and it was good to be aware so I can keep an eye on it. I don't know where I was going with this but I'm hoping your mom can get her bp and cholesterol to healthy levels.

 

[lisaviolet]

Good morning ladies! Quick post as I'm on my phone. The sun is out, I slept well last night, I have moved on. Life is good.

Lovely Megan.

Jo- you've gotten some great advice but I wanted to just say I agree that the training and eating do not have to go together. I trained for my first race(8 miles) about 35 pounds heavier then I am now and I did not try to eat very healthy. You can do it!

Jo, I was thinking about this this morning. Erika mentioned how Liz lost her weight. Food only for the first part. I don't think you know how I lost mine. ONLY concentrating on exercise. Eighty pounds came off because I worked through a lot of emotions and issues (hence mentioning the book you bought). I just naturally ate more consciously from doing that. Why am I struggling NOW? Because for the past year I've been struggling with life in general. I'm not in the same mindset. Trying NOT to deal with emotions. I KNOW that once I work through some things it will happen again.

(Plus my age - hormones play much more of a part at this age.)

This is merely an example that there is not one way to lose weight.

Lisa- Sending hugs your way as always. And I agree people should get checked. I was 17 and was diagnosed with extremely high cholesterol. I was active, it was a lot to do with genetics. Regulating my diet helped and it was good to be aware so I can keep an eye on it. I don't know where I was going with this but I'm hoping your mom can get her bp and cholesterol to healthy levels.

Megan - I was rambling. Her BP and Cholesterol are in check. She gave in to meds at some point. Both came after menopause for her.

I was trying to say - poorly - that the years of her stubborness and both sitting high - well I'm sure that factored in to her Alzheimer's or mini strokes - whatever has happened to her (the first can't be truly diagnosed - just perceived).

I'm better this morning. Sometimes a "bad" conversation with her takes me places. Usually taking too much time knowing what is to come.

Onward.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Stunningly gorgeous here today. Simply picture perfect.

Nancy - maintain this week - I'm acting like you have a notebook and are documenting.

well, maybe I am

ok. I'm not. But I *could* be

I have a few things to say about sugar (including the special yummy carbs that turn into sugar).

Freakin' sugar. We were discussing this very thing this morning at the gym whilst TM'ing. One gal (who *thought* she was doing something positive) read the label of a Slimfast can - 38g of sugar. It's hidden in almost everything. <sigh>

Lisa to your mom. And dad. And you.

Hope everyone is having a fabulous day. Speaking of sugar, I'm off to make people fat & unhealthy

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Lisa, first I want to comment on your mom. I totally understand. My dad just had to deal with all that because he did not go to the doc sooner and he smokes and drinks. (yes even after bypass and artery surgery he is still smoking)

I hope it all works out for your mom and dad.



Lisa, Kat, Nancy, E, Meg
Thanks you all so much for the support. I think I have been in a downward spiral with eating because of :

1. lack of sleep (can not get that baby out of my bed, my fault I know)
2. STRESS, Stress with DH, Stress about money, Stress about work
3. STRESS about my baby going to K, (yes I am having a really really really hard time with this)
4. lack of support from DH about my wanting to run the 1/2 (but I knew that when I started this)

I don't really have a training plan, I just go run when I can, when DH is home and I can go alone, the other days I try to do the elliptical or walk with the kids or DVD.

This Saturday I plan and running as far as I can (I hope for 5)!

Growing up and even now as an adult I never had "support", not a good friend to call, not a mom to call, when you just need to "let it all out" Also, I was looking at picture of myself as a child (showing Alexa, mommy at her age)
I was overweight then too, So there must be many many issues in my childhood that made me this way, I just don't remember


Sorry for the longggggg post.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOU SUPPORT!
I don't know if I will ever be able to thank you enough for what you Goddess do for me!

 

[HockeyKat]

And by the way - my mother had unchecked HBP and high cholesterol for YEARS. Why? Because SHE didn't believe in meds.

And her doctor didn't push her or educate her. (No one likes meds). And both were hardly caused by her lifestyle - probably genes in her case. It's a joke in my family. My mom was always active all over the place and ate half decently - my father NEITHER. And he had/has neither.

Anyway, I'm SURE that although they don't know the ins and outs of why with this - that both were factors. So please please don't leave either unchecked.

I was trying to say - poorly - that the years of her stubborness and both sitting high - well I'm sure that factored in to her Alzheimer's or mini strokes - whatever has happened to her (the first can't be truly diagnosed - just perceived).

Lisa, I can 2nd this. My aunt (mother's sister) is in the exact same place, and for the exact same reason. Years of stubborness with taking her HBP and HC meds. It's the strokes, in her case, little chance of Alzheimer's.


Jo, I get some support from DH for the healthy lifestyle (off and on), but none for the running. He thinks I am outright crazy, and even worries openly that I will wind up in some "running cult".

I also understand on the pouring your heart out to people thing.


Oh, and for the record, I very rarely crave sugar. My issues are pizza, beer, cheese, salt (chips!). Munchies.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa, first I want to comment on your mom. I totally understand. My dad just had to deal with all that because he did not go to the doc sooner and he smokes and drinks. (yes even after bypass and artery surgery he is still smoking)

I hope it all works out for your mom and dad.



Lisa, Kat, Nancy, E, Meg
Thanks you all so much for the support. I think I have been in a downward spiral with eating because of :

1. lack of sleep (can not get that baby out of my bed, my fault I know)
2. STRESS, Stress with DH, Stress about money, Stress about work
3. STRESS about my baby going to K, (yes I am having a really really really hard time with this)
4. lack of support from DH about my wanting to run the 1/2 (but I knew that when I started this)

I don't really have a training plan, I just go run when I can, when DH is home and I can go alone, the other days I try to do the elliptical or walk with the kids or DVD.

This Saturday I plan and running as far as I can (I hope for 5)!

Growing up and even now as an adult I never had "support", not a good friend to call, not a mom to call, when you just need to "let it all out" Also, I was looking at picture of myself as a child (showing Alexa, mommy at her age)
I was overweight then too, So there must be many many issues in my childhood that made me this way, I just don't remember


Sorry for the longggggg post.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOU SUPPORT!
I don't know if I will ever be able to thank you enough for what you Goddess do for me!

to you Jo. You've come so far - this too shall pass. Please look after yourself. It isn't selfish - it's the only way you can be there for your chidren and your husband.

Lisa, I can 2nd this. My aunt (mother's sister) is in the exact same place, and for the exact same reason. Years of stubborness with taking her HBP and HC meds. It's the strokes, in her case, little chance of Alzheimer's.

So frustrating.


Jo, I get some support from DH for the healthy lifestyle (off and on), but none for the running. He thinks I am outright crazy, and even worries openly that I will wind up in some "running cult".

I also understand on the pouring your heart out to people thing.


Oh, and for the record, I very rarely crave sugar. My issues are pizza, beer, cheese, salt (chips!). Munchies.

Mr. Kat! I'm mad at Mr. Kat.

I LOVE your cravings. I have them too. I'm an equal opportunity craver.

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I've made a decision. Big one. And please know that it might be hard for you all to understand without being in these shoes. I'm going away for Christmas. On purpose. Strictly on purpose.

I've had five or so Christmases that have been "okay" because of my Mom's changes and I don't want ONE more.

Sounds awful and thinking about me. It is thinking about me. Yes. I'll tell you why. When we looked after Mama for years - one Christmas Jean had a look on her face. And I caught it and said, "what?".

And she said, "I can't remember.".

What?

I can't remember what came before this. I can't remember it. I can't.

And it has never left my head. Ever. The look on her face. To forget lovely Christmas memories - she still can't in many ways even though Mama has passed because it's so intense that the last ones cloud your thinking. And I swore to myself that this disease was not going to rob the past joy. And I'm going to make sure it doesn't. It's not SO BAD that I can't still remember but it's getting there so I'm going away.

I always have my family together at my place for a pre-Christmas movie afternoon the week before. So that will be it.

Anyway, I scored BW view. I had it booked for the 19 to the 24th. And through some miracle I was able to extend it the 26th last week. And then at 7 months next week I'll add on a few more days.

Oh boy - sighing. I'm so off today. I've got to get off here.

 

[lisaviolet]

Stunningly gorgeous here today. Simply picture perfect.

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Oh crap I forgot an inside quote. Funny on the monitoring me. FUNNY.

Well hope the gorgeous day is great. It's gorgeous here to 75 and straight sun and I'm off and inside. Silly me.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

He thinks I am outright crazy, and even worries openly that I will wind up in some "running cult".

That's the other thing Stephen calls us. A "cult of women"

I've made a decision. Big one. And please know that it might be hard for you all to understand without being in these shoes. I'm going away for Christmas. On purpose. Strictly on purpose.

That is SO exciting Lisa. Your family gatherings will each be special in their own way - but to wake up Christmas morning at WDW? OMG that is going to be incredible.

So. Are you going to be asking Santa for park tickets?

It's gorgeous here to 75 and straight sun and I'm off and inside. Silly me.

Silly me too.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Lisa, OMG OMG OMG OMG, I AM SO SO SOOOOO Happy for you Christmas at WDW!!! Can I come!!! I think this is a GREAT IDEA!!!!

87 and sunny is in the forcast for SUNDAY for me!!!
Rain tonigh

 

[HockeyKat]

Mr Kat doesn't really get on my case for doing it, but he makes it clear he thinks I am nuts.

Yay for Christmas in WDW! You will be there on my bday, too.


Is it Friday yet??

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

I forgot to tell you the books I have
I have Marathoning for Mortals
and Women Food and God,
Lisa, I have not read the book at all in the past month, I NEED to get on that.