In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[goofyfan-12]

Lisa is back!!!! How we have all missed thee.

Meg - I am so sorry that Ryan is being a total jerk. Sounds like he has a lot on his plate and doesn't realize that he can ask for help. Sending hugs your way.

Jo - hang in there. Things with your hubby will get better.

E - your trip sounds amazing. I have to admit though that the bit about your room being inaccessible for a period of time has me a bit concerned. The architect in mee is freaking out about egress issues and building codes. Had you decided to stay in your room, would you have been able to get out? I know I am wierd, but I also have issues with stores that only unlock one side of the double doors at the entrance. In most cases the two doors are required to meet the building codes. Ok vent over - enjoy San Diego!

Nancy - how is the tracking going? I am feeling a bit more in control this week. Lost 1.4 pounds this week which is cool, but the feeling of control is even better. My goal for the week is to maintain that feeling.

Off to prep my veggies for the week.

 

[poppinspal]

Ok now that I'm settled at my computer, in bed and not on my iphone I will say a bit more.


I'm still not sure what happened. Sunday we were making plans to have dinner with my family this week(his idea) and he was telling me what to wear to a nice dinner he was taking me to friday(again his idea). Today he is breaking up with me and telling me he is so confused. Ummmm yeah join the club. He said he has too much stress in his life to be in a relationship. That we moved too fast. (This seems to be only in reference to moving too fast in the bedroom which was him not me. Which also leads to the question of if he's a virgin. Its confusing and this is probably TMI.) In the end I said if he'd really wanted to be with me we'd have worked past all this but I'd rather he break up with me now then to invest in a relationship he didn't want. That it's too bad we had discussed the fact that we'd some day have our first fight and we both knew it was part of a relationship but it turns out the first fight is what did us in. He says he's confused. I'm returning some sweatshirts to him tomorrow night and he said we can talk in person then. I'm not sure what more he wants to say because he ended it, I feel like there's nothing more to say between us. He kept talking like we'd see each other again and that he didn't want to do this. I don't know. My friends all think that something is not right, they think he's not telling me something and it's weird for someone's feelings to change in less then 24 hours. A few of my friends think maybe he acted rashly. I don't know.


So I know I should be more upset. I did cry a bit right when I hung up with him. (Oh yes after he text messaged me our break up I called and told him if he wouldn't do it in person he at least had to talk to me.) I was in the parking lot of my kickboxing class and I just couldn't go in. I met my friend and had a drink instead. I vented out my feelings, she said the whole break up was weird but after like thirty minutes of talking about it we'd moved on to other topics and I was laughing and joking. I know it's odd that I don't get more emotional about break ups but especially one like this... I see that after his actions of the past few days that it is better to cut ties and move on. The fact that he text messaged me, that he left me hanging for over a day, that he hasn't been truthful with me about why it's ending... makes it easier to let go. I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt, he said he loved me, he was making plans for the future, till this weekend we had an amazing time together. So yeah it hurts but it's another life experience. I can now working on finding the person who is right for me to settle down with. I should also say after about a day of waiting to hear from him it was a relief to have things done. I mean I didn't want it to end but it was almost harder being in that limbo where we were still together but he was ignoring me.

My mom even says she doesn't understand it. But I wanted to share what my mom did say to me today as it is something that makes me feel really good. She and my father were away for their 30th Wedding Anniversary. (Awww) Just a quick long weekend away. Apparently they did some shopping while away and my mom said every store she went into she saw a million dresses that she wanted to get me. She says that I look so good now and am so beautiful. She actually could not stop talking tonight about how good I look and how I am so much more confident now then when I had let myself gain the weight. And to some it might seem as if she was saying I looked bad before but she's not. Lets be honest we all look our best at a certain weight and I'm just finally reaching it. I have to admit I used to think I was pretty plain and average. Lately I'm feeling like I'm a little bit more than either of those things.

 

[poppinspal]

Lisa- I was not going to lump this in with all the relationship drama. I am considering this day a good day because you are back and I really do mean it when I say your posts always brighten up my day. Either with the laughs you give me or the way you can always look at the positive. I'm so glad you posted today. I'm sending tons of hugs your way.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Busy day here! Digging gardens, buying plants, cutting down trees and shrubs for no apparent reason.... Seriously. On somewhat of a whim, Stephen and I decided to rip out the shubbery in front of our house. I think I've completely lost my mind!

Lots to comment on.

Erika - LOVE the TR. But ?? No Indiana Jones? No California Screamin'? Hope you have a fab time in San Diego!

Liz! Lisa! YAY! You're here!!!

Paula - congrats on your loss! Tracking has been <meh>. I mentally tracked today, but didn't yet put it down on paper. I suppose I should do that before I go to bed.

Jo - I swear. All men think that they are getting the short stick. Seriously. My God.

Meg - speaking of sticks, I'd like to beat that guy with one. Who breaks up with a Goddess via text message? I do agree that something seems off. I hope that when you see him you can get a straight answer.

So my jug - how did I get it to the lab? I SHOVED the sucker into my small pink and purple girly basket on my bike and pedaled across town. In you go big jug.

OMG Lisa. That is hilarious. Mighty precious cargo in that basket

Oh - and congrats on being promoted to the next phase of testing.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Meg, something definitely doesn't seem right with this guy. I hope you get the answers you are looking for. I am thinking that the illness in his family is too much to deal with and the relationship sent him over the edge. Hugs...

 

[HockeyKat]

KAT!!!

Can I just say this was the funniest part of catching up.

I laughed and laughed and laughed. You are truly gifted with your words.

Standard Jambo is much better - guaranteed pool view and a lovely one.

It's like the planners that did BWV and BCV retired. There are so many "off" parts to new DVCs.

I do LOVE the water play area at Kidani though. The water guns and such. I haven't stayed there yet though. Just at Jambo a couple of times.

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Thanks!!

That line is totally from a movie, though, I can't take credit for it. The movie is called Big Trouble and if you haven't seen it, you should. It's hilarious. Anyhow, the line is when two guys get off the plane and are leaving the Miami airport and go, "So, this is Miami, eh? They can keep it."

SO glad you're back.



I have been totally in the weeds lately, the WDW trip and then the weekend in Savannah has wiped me out.



Sorry I haven't commented on anything else, but wanted to say Meg, . I have so been there with this kind of situation. Please please please vent here as much as you need. Nothing is ever TMI, we are your friends and are here to listen.

 

[lisaviolet]

Hi Lisa,
Sorry about the 5year old. That sucks. Sorry about all your testing and stuff. I hope is ends soon. Missed you on the thread. Nice to see you back!!
And incase you were wondering, DH and I had a blow out again today. I guess the issue is, he does not think he gets ********* enough. UGG MEN!

You know my head hurts trying to count out/word out the bleeped.

No worries about the testing Jo. No reason to be sorry. I'm fine with it all. It's just the gosh darn humans.

Today one says to me that the other has been trying to get ahold of me to tell me that I cleared the retest. Only after I say Wait does this mean it came back okay?

I was so on it.

I said, "what?"

And she repeated.

And I said, "what?"

And she repeated. (we both knew NO MESSAGES and they know they can leave them).

So I bite my tongue not to say I'm sorry - how - telepathically?

But I say, "I'm sorry - with no messages on either phone - I'm confused - what does trying to get ahold of me MEAN?

I will be the ***** of the donors and I don't care. They are SO frustrating.

E - your trip sounds amazing. I have to admit though that the bit about your room being inaccessible for a period of time has me a bit concerned. The architect in mee is freaking out about egress issues and building codes. Had you decided to stay in your room, would you have been able to get out? I know I am wierd, but I also have issues with stores that only unlock one side of the double doors at the entrance. In most cases the two doors are required to meet the building codes. Ok vent over - enjoy San Diego!

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I loved this Paula.

Ok now that I'm settled at my computer, in bed and not on my iphone I will say a bit more.


I'm still not sure what happened. Sunday we were making plans to have dinner with my family this week(his idea) and he was telling me what to wear to a nice dinner he was taking me to friday(again his idea). Today he is breaking up with me and telling me he is so confused. Ummmm yeah join the club. He said he has too much stress in his life to be in a relationship. That we moved too fast. (This seems to be only in reference to moving too fast in the bedroom which was him not me. Which also leads to the question of if he's a virgin. Its confusing and this is probably TMI.) In the end I said if he'd really wanted to be with me we'd have worked past all this but I'd rather he break up with me now then to invest in a relationship he didn't want. That it's too bad we had discussed the fact that we'd some day have our first fight and we both knew it was part of a relationship but it turns out the first fight is what did us in. He says he's confused. I'm returning some sweatshirts to him tomorrow night and he said we can talk in person then. I'm not sure what more he wants to say because he ended it, I feel like there's nothing more to say between us. He kept talking like we'd see each other again and that he didn't want to do this. I don't know. My friends all think that something is not right, they think he's not telling me something and it's weird for someone's feelings to change in less then 24 hours. A few of my friends think maybe he acted rashly. I don't know.


So I know I should be more upset. I did cry a bit right when I hung up with him. (Oh yes after he text messaged me our break up I called and told him if he wouldn't do it in person he at least had to talk to me.) I was in the parking lot of my kickboxing class and I just couldn't go in. I met my friend and had a drink instead. I vented out my feelings, she said the whole break up was weird but after like thirty minutes of talking about it we'd moved on to other topics and I was laughing and joking. I know it's odd that I don't get more emotional about break ups but especially one like this... I see that after his actions of the past few days that it is better to cut ties and move on. The fact that he text messaged me, that he left me hanging for over a day, that he hasn't been truthful with me about why it's ending... makes it easier to let go. I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt, he said he loved me, he was making plans for the future, till this weekend we had an amazing time together. So yeah it hurts but it's another life experience. I can now working on finding the person who is right for me to settle down with. I should also say after about a day of waiting to hear from him it was a relief to have things done. I mean I didn't want it to end but it was almost harder being in that limbo where we were still together but he was ignoring me.

My mom even says she doesn't understand it. But I wanted to share what my mom did say to me today as it is something that makes me feel really good. She and my father were away for their 30th Wedding Anniversary. (Awww) Just a quick long weekend away. Apparently they did some shopping while away and my mom said every store she went into she saw a million dresses that she wanted to get me. She says that I look so good now and am so beautiful. She actually could not stop talking tonight about how good I look and how I am so much more confident now then when I had let myself gain the weight. And to some it might seem as if she was saying I looked bad before but she's not. Lets be honest we all look our best at a certain weight and I'm just finally reaching it. I have to admit I used to think I was pretty plain and average. Lately I'm feeling like I'm a little bit more than either of those things.

I bit my tongue HARD earlier because I didn't want to soapbox on your pain one bit but since you're saying you're doing "okay" well.....

Let us BOTH revisit this line:

When people show you who they are - believe them. (I too have to remember) (Maya Angelou)

And it doesn't make Ryan a devil. It's not just his confusion for me that is the huge red flag - it's his way of dealing with conflict. I find it abusive to leave another standing alone - holding the entire bag so to speak. It's cruel. None of us is perfect but it's awful to leave someone standing there alone.

Okay, shutting up now. Wait one more. I've learned this in my old age - - and it didn't come easy to me at all - I have to repeat Maya Angelou over and over - when it comes to men - words mean nada no matter how lovely they are - No I don'[t mean they are not lovely it's just that they have to be balanced by action - ACTIONS ARE EVERYTHING!!!!!! Actions show love.

YOu know I've gone on and on and really all you need is to be listened to Megan. It's what I would want - sighing - a tad hypocritical of me. Winking.

Love to you....hope today is better.

to you.

Lisa- I was not going to lump this in with all the relationship drama. I am considering this day a good day because you are back and I really do mean it when I say your posts always brighten up my day. Either with the laughs you give me or the way you can always look at the positive. I'm so glad you posted today. I'm sending tons of hugs your way.

So sweet. Thank you.

Busy day here! Digging gardens, buying plants, cutting down trees and shrubs for no apparent reason.... Seriously. On somewhat of a whim, Stephen and I decided to rip out the shubbery in front of our house. Holy crap It must have felt good, eh? All that ripping. I weeded our garden the other day - took me hours. I think I've completely lost my mind!

Lots to comment on.

Erika - LOVE the TR. But ?? No Indiana Jones? No California Screamin'? Hope you have a fab time in San Diego!

Liz! Lisa! YAY! You're here!!!

Paula - congrats on your loss! Tracking has been <meh>. I mentally tracked today, but didn't yet put it down on paper. I suppose I should do that before I go to bed. Crap. IPaula forgot. Congrats. Control even better. Yeah.

Jo - I swear. All men think that they are getting the short stick. Seriously. My God.

Meg - speaking of sticks, I'd like to beat that guy with one. Who breaks up with a Goddess via text message? I do agree that something seems off. I hope that when you see him you can get a straight answer.



OMG Lisa. That is hilarious. Mighty precious cargo in that basket

Oh - and congrats on being promoted to the next phase of testing.

Funny, eh? The whole twenty minute ride was hysterical to me.

Kelly - you are still so close to goal and that is exciting.

Was watching Suns and Lakers. So pumped. Started so well........

 

[HockeyKat]

Lisa, sorry about all the testing problems. I couldn't agree more on the gosh darn humans. I tried to clear up an insurance issue with a doc office today and geebus freaking.... Too tired to type out the whole thing right now but let's just say the utter slacka$$ery and overall stupidity practically rendered me speechless.

Okay bed. I had to re-type that sentence above like three times.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

\ I am feeling a bit more in control this week. Lost 1.4 pounds this week which is cool, but the feeling of control is even better. My goal for the week is to maintain that feeling.

Off to prep my veggies for the week.

YAY PAULA!!!

Meg, You sound great about this. I agree with everyone, somthing is not right. But as you said, better off finding out now

Lisa, Kat, Meg, Ummmm CHICAGO BLACKHAWKS, need I say more!!

Nancy, OMG with DH, I just don't get it. Hello, he just worked nights 4 in a row, I asked him if he wanted me to back of the kids in the van, drive to his police department and meet him behind the building, so he would get what he want. He did not answer me!!!!

Liz, Ronda, EE, E, Have a Great Tuesday!!

 

[lisaviolet]

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Thanks!!

That line is totally from a movie, though, I can't take credit for it. The movie is called Big Trouble and if you haven't seen it, you should. It's hilarious. Anyhow, the line is when two guys get off the plane and are leaving the Miami airport and go, "So, this is Miami, eh? They can keep it."

SO glad you're back.



I have been totally in the weeds lately, the WDW trip and then the weekend in Savannah has wiped me out.



Sorry I haven't commented on anything else, but wanted to say Meg, . I have so been there with this kind of situation. Please please please vent here as much as you need. Nothing is ever TMI, we are your friends and are here to listen.

I haven't seen it Kat. I know the title. I should.

Lisa, sorry about all the testing problems. I couldn't agree more on the gosh darn humans. I tried to clear up an insurance issue with a doc office today and geebus freaking.... Too tired to type out the whole thing right now but let's just say the utter slacka$$ery and overall stupidity practically rendered me speechless.

Okay bed. I had to re-type that sentence above like three times.

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Jo - I'm NBA all the way. Although I did watch game six and seven of Montreal/Pittsburgh.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Good Morning Lisa!!!



2 mile run, FELT GREAT!!!
This weekend, DH is home and I am going to try for 4-5 miles,
I have to get out of my 2 mile comfort zone.


Off to get ready for work.
Have a great day everyone

 

[poppinspal]

Morning ladies. I woke up at six this morning... didn't have to be up till seven today, I watched some of New Moon. Figured some vamps and wolves might make me smile.

I woke up to a facebook message from one of his best friends saying he was really sorry to hear about Ryan and I and that he really enjoyed all the times we hung out. I'm not sure why but that made me a bit sad, maybe it's brings home the idea that in a breakup you don't just loose the person you were with. I don't know. I'm still doing pretty okay. We will see how I am after I see him tonight, I've decided to ask him the questions I have because at this point I have nothing left to loose.

I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm a stronger person then I realized. Or maybe I have finally realized that when its meant to be with a guy then it won't be ended as easily as this so there's no use being an emotional wreck. Either way I'm learning a lot about myself right now.

Lisa- That quote says a lot and it is true. Leaving me hanging for so long, standing there wondering what was happening, that says a lot about who he is. At least now I know what things I want in a guy, I just have to find a guy whose actions match the promises. (That doesn't make as much sense as it does in my head.)

As for your testing... it's amazing at times how people can make situations worse then they have to be. I suppose that's all part of human nature. Just so you know though, the image of you with your cargo on your bike still makes me smile.

Jo- I'm rooting for anyone who is not the Philli or Montreal at this point. Those are two teams I never like. Makes watching the games easy because I'm less invested right... but wait till the next round, I'll be a cheering machine.

To all you other ladies, thank you so much for your support. It means the world to me that you're all here to listen. I promise to stop posting about it soon. Thank you for being such great friends.

Oh and Nancy, this line "Who breaks up with a Goddess via text message?" is what I'm going to remember today. It keeps making me smile.

Off to get ready for the day! Have a good one everyone!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Funny, eh? The whole twenty minute ride was hysterical to me.

Lisa, I woke up laughing about this. I don't know how you did it. Seriously! I would have been in giggle fits the whole way!

can I just say how wonderful it is to see you again. Please do quote Maya Angelou anytime. Sage advice there.

I tried to clear up an insurance issue with a doc office today and geebus freaking.... Too tired to type out the whole thing right now but let's just say the utter slacka$$ery and overall stupidity practically rendered me speechless.

so, Kat. How did you REALLY feel

You know how I hate people. Not *all* people, just "people".

Paula - I need to thank you. I hadn't written my food down yesterday, and when you asked it gave me the nudge I needed to just get it done. Thanks.

Jo - nice job on the run! You certainly are up and out early in the a.m.!

Meg - wow. I love the way you can find the good things in this break up. You are an amazing woman and when the right guy comes along you'll both know it!



It's off to the gym for me, then hopefully get some more planting done before the rains get here today.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

I am not very good with these things,
my MP3 play is broken, I think, says tracks are missing, I pull it up on the computer and there are all these file from 1980? and I can not delete them.

So I was think I would get a cell phone with an MP3 play, I have sprint and I can not leave sprint.

Does anyone have a recommendation for a phone with an MP3??? that may be budget friendly?

Thanks

(still mad at DH, but having a good day, I think the run helped)!

 

[poppinspal]

Nancy- I figure I could let myself get really upset hut what good would that do. I've worked very hard to get myself in a good place with my health and life, I figure I should look at this as another step in that. When someone is right for me it won't end like this.

Jo- I'll look at what phones sprint has to offer during the kids nap today, I don't have enough time now but I'll see what advice I can offer.

 

[adsrtw]

Can't talk too long. Just wanted to say Hi.

 

[HockeyKat]

so, Kat. How did you REALLY feel

You know how I hate people. Not *all* people, just "people".

Seriously, I tempered my comments!!

I got a letter in the mail saying my labwork claim was denied because I was not a member of xxx or yyy insurance companies, which is what I have on file. Xxx insurance is at least last year's, but yyy dates from 2005 (mind you, the 2005 insurance is also the one they used to file the claim, I got the EOB today).

So, I call UNC Hospital, where the labwork was done. Here is a rough translation of the conversation, without proper quotes cuz I'm lazy. Note the timestamps. I was watching the clock as my work phone has a digital readout. In between was total silence, no please hold, no nothing:

2:30: Kat calls UNC, flunky answers phone with, account number? Kat gives it.
2:32: Flunky - so what can I help you with. Kat explains situation.
2:35: Kat gets impatient and says, are you still there?
Flunky says pissily, yes, still here. Account Number?
Kat - I gave it to you already.
Flunky -your account number didn't go through, it's invalid. (ARGH!)
Kat - is there something else we can use? Medical Records Number?
Flunky- okay, and takes it. Then says, What can I help you with? Kat repeats issue. Flunky takes down new insurance number.
2:40 (or so): Flunky - is this primary or secondary?
Kat - ONLY.
Flunky - oh. What's the insurance number? (ARGH!!) Kat gives, Flunky says I will put in the request. Kat has NO confidence that this was done.

I am not very good with these things,
my MP3 play is broken, I think, says tracks are missing, I pull it up on the computer and there are all these file from 1980? and I can not delete them.

So I was think I would get a cell phone with an MP3 play, I have sprint and I can not leave sprint.

Does anyone have a recommendation for a phone with an MP3??? that may be budget friendly?

Jo, are you able to get an "upgrade" from Sprint, or would you have to buy the phone cash? Also, are you a Sam's (or BJs/Costco) member?

I have a Samsung Moment from Sprint. It's an Android phone so does all of the internet stuff as well as mp3s. I have found it pretty easy to use. It was the "free" phone at Sam's but would have cost more at a Sprint store. However, if you don't have the internet on your phone I am not sure how useful it would be to you.

Sam's offered basically $100 off the phone in addition to Sprint's promotions. I would imagine BJs or Costco would do something similar, so check them out if you are a member.


Meg, I have more to say, but need to head to a meeting. More later. And don't ever ever ever worry about talking too much to us about anything, okay??

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Thanks Meg, but never mind, I did find one on sprint then I called DH and told him, but he suggested that we get a Ipod, this way we can get the speakers too and play music in the house. I thinks its a good idea, I just don't want to spend the $$

(but I think this is DH trying to apologize, so I don't want to be negative)

 

[AKASnowWhite]

2:30: Kat calls UNC, flunky answers phone with, account number? Kat gives it.

"flunky" Don't you hate it when you get the one that was smacked repeatedly with the stupid stick? Gads. No wonder the insurance & healthcare industry is such a mess. If you have to call back, I'd skip "flunky" entirely and insist on speaking to a manager.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just checking in from Nashville. One more leg and we are home. It has been a great vacation. And the kids are doing SO well with this long travel day!