In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[goofyfan-12]

Thanks everyone for all of the great advice. You all have no idea how much of a lifeline this board can be for me so thanks!!!!

I was talking to a friend tonight and its official, my mojo is missing and I am officially on the hunt for it. Tomorrow is my day of reckoning at JC and the results are not going to be pretty but it is what it is now right. I have to find the balance again and I will find it. I refuse to let a little thing stop me now and Liz - I promise to be kind and not beat myself up.

Nancy - I have a hammer (a pink one) that I will send to you. I haven't read anything about Erika doing her core workout tonight. Looks like we are going to need the whistle and the hammer soon... just sayin'

Jo - amazing loss!!!! Great job!

Kelly - have fun at Hairspray this weekend. What a fun show.

Kat - remeber when I kicked up my workouts and was starving all the time? You need to eat more...

EE - glad you love the new shoes... It is a beautiful thing isn't it?

I am starting to crash so it is off to bed for me...

 

[HockeyKat]

Okay Kat. Was it a big lie or a little one? Education, experience, criminal record?

Ronda

I can't give too many details (public board and all that), but I was not on the giving side of said resume, and it was more in the work history area. Last week was different person, more in the experience area. Seriously? So not worth it to lie. It's like sending an online dating photo of someone else... do you think that person will like you MORE when they find out you are a liar??

I think you may be right. It takes a lot of fuel for your body to do all that you are doing - between the hockey & the 1/2 marathon? That's a whole lotta calories you are burning.

Oops, I meant to quote Paula too... anyhow, it's not that I am hungry, in fact, far from it! It's more that I am NOT hungry and then realize at like 11PM that I was way under my calories for the day. So my goal for the next two weeks is to eat all 1200 calories.


Tonight, I probably went over on calories... stopped counting, although I didn't go nuts on food, but had a few beers.

We had a grand mass furniture moving night. Moved master bedroom furniture into spare bedroom, what was the study's furniture (one bookcase, a futon, and a whole bunch of CRAP) into the garage, and the spare bedroom's furniture into the study. Oh, and the piano from what was the study into the loft. 3 1/2 hours of moving stuff.

So, now we have two complete queen-sized spare bedrooms (dresser, bed, armoire, nightstand), and will have a king-sized master bedroom tomorrow. And I am tired as HECK.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I was talking to a friend tonight and its official, my mojo is missing and I am officially on the hunt for it.

Time for posters & milk carton advertising! MISSING: Paula's mojo. We miss it terribly and only ask for it's safe return. No questions asked.

Seriously though Paula. Lots going on right now, so I can understand that while totally frustrating to you, it's normal.

Kat - New furniture FINALLY!

Off to the gym for me. Busy day today. I never did post my goals last night but they are simple.

1) drink more water - I've been doing ok, but not stellar
2) track
3) keep avoiding wine
4) keep my head above water on this crazy day and try not to get overwhelmed by anything

 

[adsrtw]

Just think, some of us will be waking up at WDW 5 days from today.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Morning everyone.

I have been reading along and love the new faces and success of so many.

I wanted to let you know that there has been some major things going on and I just did not want to dwell on them here. There are so many of you on the right path and so many starting over and so many leading the way that I choose to deal with most privately.

I weighed in Sunday at my highest ever. It was a shock and a reality check that launched me from stagnant to move your feet.

I started back at the Y on Monday with one hour water aerobics plus Spark People.

If I needed the motivation for me and for my family, it came Tuesday. I found out a cousin of the kids on their Dad's side, died of what appears to be a massive heart attack. 32 years old and he has left a wife and three kids behind with no clue how to move forward. I had known him for almost 20 years. He was a guest in my home many times and one of the best people I had the privalege of knowing.

He was a bit heavy - not like I am and although weight may not have played a roll (autopsy results are not back yet), I am giving death a free access card by being at this weight. 130 pounds overweight is simply put, asking for issues.

I have diabetes in my family, heart disease, high blood pressure, cancer and the list goes on. My chances are good that someday, I will be dealing with any of those and the chances are better because of my weight.

So although I have not been posting, I have been reading and I wanted you guys to know that there are many others reading along too. You inspire people with your drive and passion for health inside and out.

Your posts make a difference to people who are not ready to make a difference for themselves yet and if I have not thanked each of you enough for what you bring individually to the table, I want you all to know that it is appreciated and it is amazing. I can't wait to hear about the upcomming race and the success many of you will have in it!

And Liz - the intro was perfect...every word. Thank You for your gift of vocabulary!

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Morning everyone.

I have been reading along and love the new faces and success of so many.

I wanted to let you know that there has been some major things going on and I just did not want to dwell on them here. There are so many of you on the right path and so many starting over and so many leading the way that I choose to deal with most privately.

I weighed in Sunday at my highest ever. It was a shock and a reality check that launched me from stagnant to move your feet.

I started back at the Y on Monday with one hour water aerobics plus Spark People.

If I needed the motivation for me and for my family, it came Tuesday. I found out a cousin of the kids on their Dad's side, died of what appears to be a massive heart attack. 32 years old and he has left a wife and three kids behind with no clue how to move forward. I had known him for almost 20 years. He was a guest in my home many times and one of the best people I had the privalege of knowing.

He was a bit heavy - not like I am and although weight may not have played a roll (autopsy results are not back yet), I am giving death a free access card by being at this weight. 130 pounds overweight is simply put, asking for issues.

I have diabetes in my family, heart disease, high blood pressure, cancer and the list goes on. My chances are good that someday, I will be dealing with any of those and the chances are better because of my weight.

So although I have not been posting, I have been reading and I wanted you guys to know that there are many others reading along too. You inspire people with your drive and passion for health inside and out.

Your posts make a difference to people who are not ready to make a difference for themselves yet and if I have not thanked each of you enough for what you bring individually to the table, I want you all to know that it is appreciated and it is amazing. I can't wait to hear about the upcomming race and the success many of you will have in it!

And Liz - the intro was perfect...every word. Thank You for your gift of vocabulary!

I had my wake up call too, my father 56 years old, just had carotid artery surgery, he has the other carotid artery fully blocked and they can not do surgery on that, then right after that he has just had a triple bypass.

So with that news, I decided that I did not want that to be me. I start to run, and I just started Weight Watchers. I can't lie, the run is much much easier for me than the diet. I get happy I want to eat, I am sad I want to eat, I am board I want to eat and so on and so on. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!
Hang in there. We will help you every baby step that you need to take!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Time for posters & milk carton advertising! MISSING: Paula's mojo. We miss it terribly and only ask for it's safe return. No questions asked.

Seriously though Paula. Lots going on right now, so I can understand that while totally frustrating to you, it's normal.

Nancy - thanks... I needed to hear that today.

Oh and the posters have gone out and I contacted a few national billboard companies as well. Be on the lookout everyone!

gotta run.. sneaking this post in...

 

[cathie1327]

Morning everyone.

I have been reading along and love the new faces and success of so many.

I wanted to let you know that there has been some major things going on and I just did not want to dwell on them here. There are so many of you on the right path and so many starting over and so many leading the way that I choose to deal with most privately.

I weighed in Sunday at my highest ever. It was a shock and a reality check that launched me from stagnant to move your feet.

I started back at the Y on Monday with one hour water aerobics plus Spark People.

If I needed the motivation for me and for my family, it came Tuesday. I found out a cousin of the kids on their Dad's side, died of what appears to be a massive heart attack. 32 years old and he has left a wife and three kids behind with no clue how to move forward. I had known him for almost 20 years. He was a guest in my home many times and one of the best people I had the privalege of knowing.

He was a bit heavy - not like I am and although weight may not have played a roll (autopsy results are not back yet), I am giving death a free access card by being at this weight. 130 pounds overweight is simply put, asking for issues.

I have diabetes in my family, heart disease, high blood pressure, cancer and the list goes on. My chances are good that someday, I will be dealing with any of those and the chances are better because of my weight.

So although I have not been posting, I have been reading and I wanted you guys to know that there are many others reading along too. You inspire people with your drive and passion for health inside and out.

Your posts make a difference to people who are not ready to make a difference for themselves yet and if I have not thanked each of you enough for what you bring individually to the table, I want you all to know that it is appreciated and it is amazing. I can't wait to hear about the upcomming race and the success many of you will have in it!

And Liz - the intro was perfect...every word. Thank You for your gift of vocabulary!

Dawn I have sort of been the same way, not wanting to really drag everyone down, but feeling guilty that I haven't been around and active and keeping up with everyone, doing as good as they have.

I'm glad there was something to get you motivated, and glad that you had a "wake up call" though I'm really sorry to hear what happened that caused it though.

I haven't really had a wake up call, but am starting to realize that being 130 lbs overweight is really taking it's toll on my body, and I don't want to be this way for the rest of my life. I just need to find that motivator to get me going so I can take the steps to stay ON TRACK and know that I want to stay there when the going gets rough.

I'll be thinking about ya, hang in there. We are all here for you.

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Kelly - have fun at Hairspray this weekend. What a fun show.

Oh I wish it was this weekend - we aren't going until April!

And, big fat bummer, we found out today AFTER they let us book tickets, that Hairspray is finishing its run in the West End on the 28th of March so we will miss it
So, we are going to see Phantom instead!

Dawn - Hope everything is ok. So sorry to hear about your family member

E - So happy for you that Jeff is back!

Everyone - Hi

Back to posting goals! goals for tomorrow are:

Water
Tracking
Cross Trainer
Catch up on Sleep

Hope everyones having a great day

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Oh I wish it was this weekend - we aren't going until April!

And, big fat bummer, we found out today AFTER they let us book tickets, that Hairspray is finishing its run in the West End on the 28th of March so we will miss it
So, we are going to see Phantom instead!


Back to posting goals! goals for tomorrow are:

Water
Tracking
Cross Trainer
Catch up on Sleep

Hope everyones having a great day

Sorry about Hairspray, glad you get to see Phantom

 

[lisaviolet]

Dawn - I'm sorry about your relative.

Also, I have been thinking about you and was wondering where you were.

On the weight - I guarantee you it's all an emotional block for you at this point. Guarantee. As in if I had a million dollars I wouldn't hesitate to put it on that. You know what to do. You know what you have to do and you're not doing it.

And honestly I would concentrate on whatever that is - whatever the emotional work is for you - and forget the weight for now. Or pick what you think you are strongest at - food or exercise and just fake it until ti becomes routine but still forget the weight loss side.

I know many think emotions do not play a part. I talked earlier about this show X weighted - and there are tons of "I"m strong - I just have bad habits" - that come on and it's UNBELIEVABLE the sh!t/insights that come out after six months.

Do you know that in my mid twenties I made a conscious decision that I didn't want to be fat BUT I didn't want the up and down and up and down and up and down anymore MORE. So I decided none of that in my life again even if that meant overweight. There was a point I gained some but other than a large gain I never went up and down again (besides small amounts) and here I am. It's too hard on the psyche to do that over and over again.

But regardless - with you - why beat yourself up? Why bang your head against the wall when I know that YOU KNOW your weight is probably best looked at through emotional work first. And then "JUST DO IT" on all the stuff that you know. Because you do know al the ins and outs. You do,

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Tomorrow is my day of reckoning at JC and the results are not going to be pretty but it is what it is now right.
...

Right.

And this is the exact reason why you will get to goal. The exact reason why I know that. And the exact reason why you inspire me for my journey Paula. Because you go and face it.

 

[lisaviolet]

Oh I wish it was this weekend - we aren't going until April!

And, big fat bummer, we found out today AFTER they let us book tickets, that Hairspray is finishing its run in the West End on the 28th of March so we will miss it
So, we are going to see Phantom instead!

Yeah for Phantom. But holy cow on the Hairspray.

How is MIL? Are you just making a conscious choice to except her at this point? I'm not laughing at you - I'm laughing because I can't imagine she's been on her best behaviour suddenly.

 

[lisaviolet]

Jo on your father's surgeries. He's young, eh?

 

[lisaviolet]

Dawn - I'm reading your TR right now. It's hysterical. OMG! You're good at TRs.

 

[poppinspal]

Just wanted to say a quick hello to everyone. Hope you're all having a great day. I'm off to take some cold medicine and a nap in hopes I can survive ten o'clock hockey today. It's been a long day.

I'll be back if I can't sleep.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Meg, Sorry you feel yucky!, I hope that nap helped.

Lisa, How are you? Keeping warm up there? Ha Ha, Its just as cold here.

2 Miles in 29:58, It was hard, I was so thinking of Erika and wanted to push myself to 3 but I have not ran in a week and my legs are stiff. But hey 2 miles is better than no miles

I hope everyone has a good night.

Tomorrow Is FRIDAY

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Ok, I swear I tried to post yesterday and it ATE my post. Must have been under it's calories! HA!!!!!

Paula - how did you do?

I went to WW today - bc Lyz made me - and I only gained 0.2 lb. That is a HUGE victory. HUGE. I feel like I can make it through the weekend now.

Dawn - Lisa said this perfectly. Forget the weight. Focus on you. By God, woman, you have faced a lot of challenges in the past two years. And you're here. So keep focusing on you. No apologies, right? This is making me think of "No Surrender" by Bruce Springsteen. I don't know why. But it's coming to me. So go listen to it. Nothing to be sorry for, it's like Walt said, keep moving forward. We learn more from our struggles then we do our easy success. I'm living proof of that.

And thank you. I"m glad you liked my words.

Heading to Norwood, MA tomorrow. Must pack. Must walk 8 miles while there in 23 degree weather. Good times!

Kat - I am always shocked when I google people and they HAVEN'T lied. Cause you know I google everyone!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Jo - TWO miles is awesome!

 

[adsrtw]

Hey ladies, very rough day at work (well 2 days). We have unwanted visitors. Wore my new shoes to work (we were casual today) and I was in heaven. I really felt like they were helping my momentum. Yes, I halfway run through the department sometimes.

Is it month end yet???