In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 7! Princesses? Nope, just us Goddesses!

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Lyz - is it the season finale? I'm a week behind. Totally addicted.

Heading for bed. Night All!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Liz! Come out and play!

And Paula--you are NOT done yet. I know it. Nancy knows it. Deb knows it. Now we just have to get you to know it! Why is that when I am on you are off and vice versa???

Thanks Erika - I needed to hear that. Feeling pretty low right now, but am working on not eating my way through this so yeah me! I have no idea why we can't both be on at the same time. Must be one of those if the planets align just right than Paula and Erika will both be on kind of things.

Couple things.

A. Who told Macy's I was fat? Apparently they know! I received the plus size holiday advertisment yesterday!

B. I'm going to Disney World in 11 Days!!!! Which means, Yaaay, I'm going to Disney World in 11 Days and Holy Crap, I'm going to Disney World in 11 days!!

First off - how rude of Macy's. I got that same ad, but have been a plus size shopper there for years so it makes sense.

Second - so excited about your trip!!! I really want to run away right now.

Birthday buffer? What's a birthday buffer. It sounds like something I could use. Did I miss an opportunity? There's icing, isn't there?

Ronda

Ronda - yeah on the run! You are doing so awesome with your training. It helps prove to me that it is possible.

Let me try and explain the birthday buffer. It is something that my sister came up with to prolong the birthday celebration for as long as possible. The usual rule of thumb here is it starts the Saturday before your birthday and runs to the Saturday after. My sister has elected to have hers go for like a month this year because she turned 40. I am so over it at this point. Love her, but enough already.

The birthday buffer is a powerful thing so use it wisely.

Wow, slow day on the boards! Just got home from the gym. I biked for 16 miles tonight and boy is my butt still asleep (TMI, I know). I feel good other than that. I will be back after I take a bubble bath.

I miss my biking... Awesome ride... do yourself a favor and get a pair of padded bike shorts. Your bummocks will thank you for it.

Paula - remember that you've been here before and probably will be again (cause that's the journey). BUT most importantly you got out of it and back into mojo land. It's onlly here for a short, short time and then you will be back to the wonder machine that you are.

Lisa - thanks for the kind words. I am hoping it is a short term thing only.

Had a great workout with Jesse tonight. Made his night by bringing him some lasagna from Tuesday night dinner. My sister's last party was tonight - Star Wars themed and frost / decorate your own cupcakes for birthday cake. Everyone loved it. Still working on trying to answer why, but getting a bit closer.

Hope everyone is doing well. I miss talking to you all during the day...

 

[goofyfan-12]

I have a confession! I fell asleep in the tub.

Paula - I know in your heart that you have your WHY, it just is hidden at this moment. I hope you are able to find it again soon!

Hope you enjoyed you nap... I was dozing on the couch so I'll be off to bed soon.

Send out the dogs - we are now on the hunt for my WHY. If I have to tear the house apart to find it I will. Thanks Amiee...

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Send out the dogs - we are now on the hunt for my WHY. If I have to tear the house apart to find it I will. Thanks Amiee...

Paula, I don't understand this. Now this is coming from someone who hasn't lost anything in the past 2 years. But the "why" is so obvious to me. For multiple reasons!!! I would think you were struggling with the effort not the reasons.

 

[lisaviolet]

Paula, I don't understand this. Now this is coming from someone who hasn't lost anything in the past 2 years. But the "why" is so obvious to me. For multiple reasons!!! I would think you were struggling with the effort not the reasons.

I was thinking that as well - it seems like you know already Paula. I feel like I'm channeling the Wizard of Oz here.

Also Lyz - that thing with Macy's - that's just strange. Just strange. I don't even get it.

And lurking Liz - And besides the love - my DVD did it survive?

 

[lisaviolet]

Edit.

 

[lisaviolet]

I have a confession! I fell asleep in the tub.

Paula - I know in your heart that you have your WHY, it just is hidden at this moment. I hope you are able to find it again soon!

Lyz - I'm with Liz. Hating on Macy's for you. Just for that, I won't buy any ornaments from them this year.

Lisa - Baby Erika and Baby Cutie! I love this!

E - awesome pace!

Nancy - I hope Seth plans to wrap his own gifts. Glad that he remembered everything.

on the bold.

And I love how you have Cutie's back. I Cutie will delete my Macy's pic!!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Morning All!

Lisa, forgive me, I am asking questions. Just for clarity. You mom won't share her medical issues and your dad is telling you in confidence and so you can't help? And they are both older, confuse easily, espically your mom, so they need assistance! Gosh, such a helpless situation. You should be going to the appointments with them. Can you do that now that your mom has talked to you? I can't remember, how far away are you from them now? Do your siblings live close?

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Just so you all know. I will still shop at Macy's, lol. I just won't like it. Ahh, let's be honest, I'll like it. I WILL kick the wall when I walk in though.

 

[DisneyGalUK]

LisaV - No pasting, just

Liz - Hi

Lyz - Im mad at Macys for you too!

Today is blah. I nearly fell over in the street infront of everyone and I hurt my hand stopping myself.

That is all I have to contribute today

 

[Ronda93]

Lisa - glad you got that out. It's so unfair. To your dad and your mom for different reasons. I've often lamented that society has created systems that need us to be at our sharpest when it's becoming biologically impossible. Take social security early? Choose a medicare supplemental plan? Long term care insurance? All things that are best done with a firm grasp of our own realities. Alignment is rare.

I feel for you and your dad. Saying things out loud offers tremendous relief. I hope you both find it here and with each other.

Ronda

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hang in there, Lisa!

I am glad you got that all out. It was important. And don't for a minute think you are being disrespectful to your parents by venting that. It is life, honey, yours as well as theirs. And you have every right to discuss YOUR feelings when you need to.

 

[HockeyKat]

Lisa, .

Lyz, <insert bad word here> Macy's.


I tried to post last night and hit submit and got board maintenance.

Anyway, to answer Nancy's question, we ran internet (cat5e/ethernet) wires from the attic into the master bedroom, study, and loft upstairs, and then down the wall and through the floor into the family room downstairs. We also ran coaxial cable (for the cable) into the master bedroom, and one speaker wire from the family room in-ceiling speaker into the opposite wall (because that wire was stolen by a contractor before they sheet rocked). Then, also had to patch the wall in a few places and install a ceiling-mounted smoke detector to hide the holes that we had to cut in order to do these things, and of course install all of the corresponding wall plates, put everything back together, clean, etc.

While my dad was here and we had extra tools and an extra pair of hands, we also took off the front door and replaced the door shoe/weather stripping.

All in all, about 20 hours of work over two days. I am tired and sore, and actually glad to be back at work where I can rest!!


Oh, and the results of MIL's scans came back... luckily no cancer. Mild emphysema, but treatable. So good news there!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Oh, and the results of MIL's scans came back... luckily no cancer. Mild emphysema, but treatable. So good news there!

That is great news Kat!

We have an ongoing case of Zhu Zhu/Go Go Hamster-gate at work! One of the girls I work with decided yesterday that her two boys would like one each as a toy!

I was like 'Erm, do you realise that Lyz and Erika had to have theirs shipped from Canada, and Erika is helping Grandma Meredith against ZhuZhu thugs?'

She said 'No Kelly, I didn't realise that. Are these people in your head? Do you need to sit down and have a cup of tea?'!

So, there are 3 of us in the office today and we are trawling every shop and website we can find to get them. Amazon and Ebay have them for £50 EACH!!! Thats 5 times the retail price! Crazy hamsters!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Finally catching up from yesterday...


Ronda- awesome job on the run! Way to go sista!

Paula - I know it's there. Probably right in front of you, you just need to recognize what it is. And you know what? I personally think that it doesn't always have to be some deep, profound awakening. "just 'cause I can" is a very much o.k. reason why, IMO.

Liz - I so love it when you play with us

Lisa - ah, Lisa. First. The rodent wrapping. So funny. Customs? I totally wouldn't have thought of that. See, I would have tried to be funny and ask the FedEx guy if they had to go thru Ellis Island or something. I'm sure they would have been confiscated by the time I was done

Just so you all know. I will still shop at Macy's, lol. I just won't like it. Ahh, let's be honest, I'll like it. I WILL kick the wall when I walk in though.

just wear good shoes so you don't break a toe.

Hang in there, Lisa!

I am glad you got that all out. It was important. And don't for a minute think you are being disrespectful to your parents by venting that. It is life, honey, yours as well as theirs. And you have every right to discuss YOUR feelings when you need to.

Word!

Lisa - SECOND! (in case you were wondering why I had put "first" above, followed by...nothing...) Saying that the whole situation really is crappy & difficult is an understatement. And I hope that this doesn't come off as sounding selfish - but don't forget that you need to take care of YOU in order to be able to care for others as well. Physically, emotionally - you need to make sure that your needs are being met as well. So please, vent. Ask for help. It's ok.

And mom. She needs an advocate. Someone who can ask questions, gather information, push for answers, weigh treatment options. Our HIPA laws prevent Dr's from discussing a lot of stuff if you are not the patient, or with the patient at their appointment - but honestly I think many Dr's would love to see someone like your mom getting assistance in the decision making process.

<sigh> lots of love to you. I know this isn't going to be easy

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I tried to post last night and hit submit and got board maintenance.

me too. it was annoying!

....


Oh, and the results of MIL's scans came back... luckily no cancer. Mild emphysema, but treatable. So good news there!

Good news Kat!

Now the wiring - I actually understood all of that. Tons of work you did! But internet cables? You're not wireless?

She said 'No Kelly, I didn't realise that. Are these people in your head? Do you need to sit down and have a cup of tea?'!

Yep. 'Cause a good cup of tea is definitely the cure for voices in your head

Good luck with the European Zhu-Zhu's!



Had a great run this morning. Well, mostly great. Felt great. I was a little leary of how my ankle would be, but it was fine. My toe on the other hand, was not. My favorite running sock is currently blood stained. Being that my toenails are ridiculously short I'm not really sure why it happened, but it would seem that somehow my middle toe stabbed my pointer toe and made it bleed. Haven't had *that* happen in a while.

 

[lisaviolet]

Edit Yes, I'm ridiculous. I do know that.

 

[lisaviolet]

Thanks to everyone. It ALL hellped. Really. So thank you. Everyone. Ronda - yes it is all interesting how it pans out for all of us.

Erika - thanks for your words. I was really suffering with guilt so your thoughts meant a lot.

 

[cathie1327]

Oh Lisa...

Hi to everyone...I am reading and following along, I promise. Just not a lot of time lately...hating it. Hoping things will calm down a bit after finals next week....have to vent a bit so I'm sorry everyone but a lot of emotional stress has been building this month...

All in all, November has not been a good month. Still mourning the loss of Jannelle...seems so strange because it has been years since we were in touch very often and now it's like every day I can feel that she is no longer around, and for her family to have to spend these holidays without her and her 11 year old son...a good friend's father died of cancer the day before Thanksgiving...they thought they might have more time with him but God had other plans...I'm so hurt for her and her young son (I believe he's 4) who is distraught without his grandpa...my band teacher from high school's (yes, I'm an eternal band geek who kept in touch and stayed friends with the band teacher) husband is a parapalegic (Sp?) from a car accident years ago...he was in a coma for a few weeks, and finally came out on Sunday but is still responding very little...not sure of all the details but they are thinking he will likely not make it...has two sons as well....so many people that I am so sad for, it is hard to be happy during these holidays knowing there are so many I love that are hurting...

On more personal levels...my brother was taken to jail from the half way house...probably the best place for him. Was digressed because of too many write ups for REALLY dumb things that he could have prevented...he's so smart when he lets himself be...mom isn't dealing very well. Since he went to the halfway house she spent a lot of time with him, driving him back and forth to work, and when he was laid off, taking him to look for jobs almost every day...now she can't really see him much at all, and having a hard time accepting that....he gets out two days after Christmas though and will be back home....and that scares me. Scares me because I'm not ready to see him...because now he is 18 and can leave the house at 2 or 3 am and we can no longer call the cops and report that he's missing...he can come and go as he pleases, and be involved in whatever he pleases....we have already had people try to break into the house a couple times while he was gone...no doubt looking for him or some of "his" things....I'm looking for a room mate to move in with currently but it's not looking good...most don't want two cats due to not wanting pets in the house or already having pets in the house....Carlos is getting the apt in January and taking the cats (another story....long to short he is living on his own for a few months before I move in) so at that point finding a room mate should be easier. I am ready. Ready to get away from that house and all the bad memories there, from the ugly ways that being there makes me feel....back to a place where I feel I can control my emotional state a little more. I have been doing pretty good for the most part about not letting their drama destroy me, but there are days where I somehow get wound into it and just can't handle it...just ready to distance myself from it a little bit....

Sorry for the long vent, but Nov has been hard on me...trying to get into the Christmas spirit. We're goign to the parade of lights that they do in Denver every year on Saturday...hoping that will bring the spirit back for me a little bit.

Hope everyone's doing great and having a great morning.

 

[lisaviolet]

I was like 'Erm, do you realise that Lyz and Erika had to have theirs shipped from Canada, and Erika is helping Grandma Meredith against ZhuZhu thugs?'

She said 'No Kelly, I didn't realise that. Are these people in your head? Do you need to sit down and have a cup of tea?'!

!

OMG. Too funny. Too funny. Tea. Oh tea.

Lisa - ah, Lisa. First. The rodent wrapping. So funny. Customs? I totally wouldn't have thought of that. See, I would have tried to be funny and ask the FedEx guy if they had to go thru Ellis Island or something. I'm sure they would have been confiscated by the time I was done

OMG. Ellis Island. They don't have an accent. I have them drinking at Niagara Falls. I should go track them. They've probably been separated at this point. Poor things.






Lisa - SECOND! (in case you were wondering why I had put "first" above, followed by...nothing...) Saying that the whole situation really is crappy & difficult is an understatement. And I hope that this doesn't come off as sounding selfish - but don't forget that you need to take care of YOU in order to be able to care for others as well. Physically, emotionally - you need to make sure that your needs are being met as well. So please, vent. Ask for help. It's ok.

And mom. She needs an advocate. Someone who can ask questions, gather information, push for answers, weigh treatment options. Our HIPA laws prevent Dr's from discussing a lot of stuff if you are not the patient, or with the patient at their appointment - but honestly I think many Dr's would love to see someone like your mom getting assistance in the decision making process.

<sigh> lots of love to you. I know this isn't going to be easy [/COLOR]

Thanks Nancy. You're right.