In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 7! Princesses? Nope, just us Goddesses!

[3DisneyKids]

Yeah....I'll be 24 this month. I know, I know, it's not that old and I have a lot of life ahead of me, but I am getting impatient! I've been taking care of myself since I was 18 , so I grew up pretty fast and I just expected all the rest to come fast too! lol

I always wanted to be a younger mom, that way when my grandkids come around, I'll be young enough to still play with them and do things with them. That way when my kids have stuff going on, I can do it with them. Just expectations I set for myself a long time ago, I guess.

Not THAT old.... Nancy, Lisa, Paula, Dawn...help me out please!

Seriously, though, sorry for prying. I must have had your info. mixed up with someone else who popped in here around the same time you did. I thought you were living with your parent/s. Didn't realize that you were on your own. Things will happen in their own time. I know, waiting isn't easy!

 

[lisaviolet]

I am very free for the next week... D works Sat/Sun and then is gone from Mon AM through Fri at 10PM.

Still stressing about stuff here, and don't have any news at all yet. Sigh.


But, on the fun side, tonight is the season opener for the Hurricanes. I have the back of the truck filled with light beer, sandwich makings, fruits and veggies, a table, chairs, and am all ready for tailgating!! I have two friends meeting me here around 4:30 and we are headed over the the arena, and D and his brother are meeting us there as soon as D's brother gets in from Charlotte. Should be a good time!

Rest of the weekend, the couch and I are going to have a good, long get-together. Might even add a few purring kitties to the mix.

Such fun Kat. Have a great time!

 

[lisaviolet]

Not THAT old.... Nancy, Lisa, Paula, Dawn...help me out please!

Why the he!! would I help you? You're having so much fun on your own.

 

[lisaviolet]

Cathie -

I'm sighing. It's great to have dreams and focus. For sure. But - and this is not about you - I've seen so many people PUSh at their wants. And the outcome was not good. Not good at all.

I don't mean to sound negative. Because actually I'm being positive. There is absolute beauty in letting the world flow. It's very difficult at times. ( Here's my difficult : I've always wanted to be a mother - and have been mothering children since I was 15 but it might not ever come to fruition - I'm 42) God - the universe - whatever you believe in - knows the best of each of us. So just be very careful - that's all I'm saying.

I'm so sorry if I'm coming off as a downer. I've just seen it many many many times (not just talking about having children - marriage - life - anytning. I've even said to my niece who just got married (21). She too wants to be a young mother. Her husband just wants to be young. And I tell her leave him be - if you push the future on him I don't think you'll like the outcome. It will come.

You're a youngin' Cathie. You're a yougin'. Enjoy it. And of course your wants and dreams are lovely. Here's to them all coming true.

 

[cathie1327]

Not THAT old.... Nancy, Lisa, Paula, Dawn...help me out please!

Seriously, though, sorry for prying. I must have had your info. mixed up with someone else who popped in here around the same time you did. I thought you were living with your parent/s. Didn't realize that you were on your own. Things will happen in their own time. I know, waiting isn't easy!

No, you were right, give yourself some credit haha! I am staying with my parents for a while to pay off some bills easier (I moved in earlier this year), as Carlos is doing the same thing. We have plans to move out together, but I told him I'm not moving out with him until I get the proposal first. So I'm kind of waiting on that so we can go get a place and I can get the he!! out of my parents as I can't staaaaaaaaaand it there. But it would make no sense to move out on my own just to have him propose then pack all my crap up AGAIN and move AGAIN....so for now I'm just saving money and waiting patiently....oh so patiently waiting.

And don't worry, you're not prying No worries. Sometimes I just tend to forget to supply all the info. necessary for a story haha!

 

[cathie1327]

Cathie -

I'm sighing. It's great to have dreams and focus. For sure. But - and this is not about you - I've seen so many people PUSh at their wants. And the outcome was not good. Not good at all.

I don't mean to sound negative. Because actually I'm being positive. There is absolute beauty in letting the world flow. It's very difficult at times. ( Here's my difficult : I've always wanted to be a mother - and have been mothering children since I was 15 but it might not ever come to fruition - I'm 42) God - the universe - whatever you believe in - knows the best of each of us. So just be very careful - that's all I'm saying.

I'm so sorry if I'm coming off as a downer. I've just seen it many many many times (not just talking about having children - marriage - life - anytning. I've even said to my niece who just got married (21). She too wants to be a young mother. Her husband just wants to be young. And I tell her leave him be - if you push the future on him I don't think you'll like the outcome. It will come.

You're a youngin' Cathie. You're a yougin'. Enjoy it. And of course your wants and dreams are lovely.

Don't worry, you're not being a downer. The advice is genuinely welcomed because well, I am young. And although we've been together for 7 years, we still have a lot to learn.

I don't want to push it on him but I am just getting impatient because it's something he's known all along that I wanted. We are shooting for the same goals, it's just taking him a lot longer to get the the finish line. And that's frustrating for me. It's hard to see it through his eyes, although I know he's totally justified. I know it will be wonderful...one day. I just want that wonderful now lol Always the impatient one. If that isn't testament to my being young, I don't know what is!

It's kind of funny because before my first pregnancy and miscarriage (sorry, not trying to be a downer, it's just part of the story), a friend of ours lost her baby. And Carlos and I both believe in God, and we both also believed she was really not ready to be a mom, and one of our theories was that if God doesn't think you're ready. It won't happen. Then a month later, look what happened with me. So I definitely believe that God, higher power, universe, whatever it is that you believe in, really has a play in things like that. As I'm sure he does with this. Doesn't make me want it less though

Sorry, not pushing my beliefs on anybody, just illustrating the point that I do know I want to be patient, but that doesn't make it any easier!

 

[cathie1327]

Rest of the weekend, the couch and I are going to have a good, long get-together. Might even add a few purring kitties to the mix.

Kat-I like these, they're good for the soul Especially when you've got some purring kitties. No better therapy for me.

 

[lisaviolet]

Sorry, not pushing my beliefs on anybody, just illustrating the point that I do know I want to be patient, but that doesn't make it any easier!

Ain't that the truth.

And just to be clear I wasn't really talking about Carlos and you per se. I meant in general terms.

And I don't think people are PUSHing when they decide enough time has passed either and they make their own choices about where their life is going. I am simply talking about pushing at life.

Look at Jon and Kate plus eight. I was a regular watcher. I haven't watched since the separation. I can't. ( Even the season before I was beginning to feel like it was time to let it go. I understood the need to have an income to keep their lives at a basic level but I felt they had reached that it was time to go. )

Once again not about children - just about pushing life - this just happens to be about children again.

I don't if people know. They had two children. It was difficult to get the two children. Very. Exhausting. They went through a lot. Jon seemed like he would have waited for awhile to even have children - nonetheless Jon was very happy and happy for Kate. Happy to be married. Happy with his two girls. Yet for whatever reason Kate had this constant want/need for another child. Endless. Jon voiced over and over and over that he wasn't ready or didn't know if he would be ever ready and on a positve note was thrilled to just have the girls (documented while they both loved each other by both of them). She didn't let up. And voila - six more.

When they were happy -and I believe they were happy - I used to say to Jean - boy I hope that pushing and pushing and pushing doesn't come back to her at all. Yes, he finally agreed - but when when you love someone you want them to be happy - so I can see why he got worn down and gave in. He wanted her to be happy. He wanted his wife to be happy.

 

[lisaviolet]

if God doesn't think you're ready. It won't happen.

But what about the parents from he!! that have no issues procreating?

 

[cathie1327]

Ain't that the truth.

And just to be clear I wasn't really talking about Carlos and you per se. I meant in general terms.

And I don't think people are PUSHing when they decide enough time has passed either and they make their own choices about where their life is going. I am simply talking about pushing at life.

Look at Jon and Kate plus eight. I was regularly watcher. I haven't watched since the separation. I can't.

Once again not about children - just about pushing life - this just happens to be about children again.

I don't if people know. They had two children. It was difficult to get the two children. Very. Exhausting. They went through a lot. Jon seemed like he would have waited for awhile to even have children - nonetheless Jon was very happy and happy for Kate. Happy to be married. Happy with his two girls. Yet for whatever reason Kate had this constant want/need for another child. Endless. Jon voiced over and over and over that he wasn't ready or didn't know if he would be ever ready (documented while they both loved each other by both of them). She didn't let up. And voila - six more.

When they were happy -and I believe they were happy - I used to say to Jean - boy I hope that pushing and pushing and pushing doesn't come back to her at all. Yes, he finally agreed - but when when you love someone you want them to be happy - so I can see why he got worn down and gave in. He wanted her to be happy. He wanted his wife to be happy.

Sorry if I got defensive, I certainly wasn't meaning to be, because I absolutely 100% agree with the pushing at life thing. Not always about kids, but just life. It never ends up good.

I used to love j&K+8! But I haven't watched at all this year, because of all the junk that went on. It's really sad, because even Kate has attributed part of the possible reason of the crumble of their relationship to having 6 more kids when they weren't really both ready. I was really rooting for them too...so sad to see it fall apart.

I think tonight will be good for us because we can just enjoy each other. I focus too much sometimes on what I don't have and forget what I do have-a really incredible man in my life that has stuck with me through more than I probably deserved at some points. (not to say I haven't returned the favor on occasion ) My best friend got married in June, and I found myself being so envious at first, but she's really not very happy because he's really not very nice sometimes, and suddenly, it's apparent that their marriage isn't the fairy tale they thought it'd be. The grass looks greener on the other side until you're standing in the middle of it. I can and will be patient, because good things are worth waiting for, and there's a reason for it all.

 

[cathie1327]

But what about the parents from he!! that have no issues procreating?

That's a pretty good point cuz there are PLENTY of those haha!

 

[adsrtw]

Hey everybody!

I have a quick pop in and then I am off to help my mom again. I hope everybody is hanging in there.

 

[lisaviolet]

Cathie!!!!

You weren't being remotely defensive. I just felt like flapping my mouth. Nothing to do with you. It runs on overdrive sometimes when I get passionate.

And I don't what's true anyways. I mean God/universe - atrociities happening all over the world. Who really knows.

I thought you were beyond open to me Cathie. I just get on something and want to talk - talk - talk.

And it was funny I turned on Dr. Phil right after going on and on and he was talking about the same thing. Pushing life because you want marriage/children. Funny. Talking to tick tock women.

He said the stats say over 35 better chance at being hit by lightening. Over 40 better chance at being attacked by terrorists. What an uplifting day. But then again - these are just my desires. I'm fine with me regardless.

See Cathie I'm flapping my mouth again.

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey everybody!

I have a quick pop in and then I am off to help my mom again. I hope everybody is hanging in there.

Is hair part deux this weekend? Or done? I can't remember.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Look at Jon and Kate plus eight. I was a regular watcher. I haven't watched since the separation. I can't.

Oh, I can't watch them either. Loved them. We watched as a family. Now I refuse to watch. You know their ratings are the lowest they've ever been. The viewers have spoken!

I find myself with an empty house tonight. Well, Marvin is here with me. An hour and a half then it'll all be crazy again.

 

[lisaviolet]

I find myself with an empty house tonight. Well, Marvin is here with me. An hour and a half then it'll all be crazy again.

Oh enjoy Lyz. Enjoy!!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Good Morning!!!! (almost Good Afternoon!)

I know a lot of people are away this weekend, but some are still around.

Hope you all are enjoying a great weekend so far. I finished my spinning class and am off to my parents' camp to help them close it up for the winter.

Talk to you later...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Checking in from the lake! Would you believe that I slept for TEN HOURS last night??? OMG, for a half-vampire like me, that is HUGE. Double the amount of sleep I normally get!

Just finished a 4.5 mile run in the rain. Not a hard rain, just a nice gentle fall rain. Felt good. I walked a bit, not due to fatigue at all, just trying to protect my newly healed shins. *Trying* to be good and take it easy. I have the slightest twinge in one shin right now, but that's it.

Otherwise, we are enjoying a lazy family day here at the lake. Playing cards and maybe going for a quick paddle if it stops raining. Tomorrow it is back to the craziness of soccer games (three tomorrow).

Hope you are all having a good week-end. Can't wait to hear the reports!

 

[HockeyKat]

E, glad you finally got some rest!! And that your shins are feeling better.

I forgot to post my food for Thursday:
B: Coffee
L: 120 cals of cheese (brie, goat's milk cheese), 60 cals of crackers, and 120 cals of pumpkin soup
D: salmon roulette wheel (190), mashed cauliflower (100), broccoli (50)
S: light mocha almond fudge ice cream (150)

Total for the day,800ish? Wow, not enough.

Yesterday I was bad and we tailgated/drank before the game. I estimate my total in the 1500-2000 range... I am going to try to limit "cheat" days to once every two weeks.


Keep your fingers crossed for me on Monday, I feel that there may be changes afoot at work, and I really hope they are of the good kind.

 

[HockeyKat]

Oh, and I forgot to mention... weighed this AM, and I am down 5.4 lbs from last Fri AM.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!