In Search of My Body....Not the One I ATE! Vol. 5: Goddesses are Always on Top!

[lisaviolet]

WHOA. All that modesty is likely to sabotage your efforts.

Far too much time wasted on modesty. Time's a tickin'. Go Kat. Kat - are you still rockin' your black hair?

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Hi, my name is Liz and I get 23 pts a day on WW. And today, for the first time in months, I ate only 23 pts. And I went to the gym - with my family - and the stocked the house with food. AND I had an Oscars' party and served only WW friendly food, so I stayed on track.

Yes, it's true. Did you hear the switch flip?

Last night as I was driving home, it occurred to me what this is all about. When I go see Nick's family, I get dressed - like, i work it. Shirt, jeans, boots, full makeup, fix hair. Casual but stunning. That's what I go for. And the truth is, if I lose this last weight, I'll be better looking and that's what it's all about for me.

LIZ!


So tonight I didn't eat great but didn't over kill it either and I WALKED A MILE ! They posted in the hospital newsletter that walking back and forth from the ICU to the lab three times is a mile and I did three and half. (I had to get back to the lab!) I was proud of myself! Now If I just can keep it going! My neighbor asked my to start walking with her but we are on opposite shifts she works 9-4 and I 2-11 so its tough I am just going to have to pound the pavement by myself well with Mocha of course!

 

[RodK1975]

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Family party was fun. I like them a lot. I just dread the going. Because I'm a pain in the a$$, basically. But once there, it's fun. And hours into it, we are the last to leave because my husband and his cousin play games like Risk. Takes DAYS. The super nice thing about this family is they consider me family. There's no inlaws, as his 22 year old cousin pointed out to me. "How can you be an inlaw at this point?" he asked me. And when the younger set think that, you know they got it from their parents, who got it from their parents. All my issues are with my MIL, basically, (she married into the clan) and none of those issues are about belonging.

Glad you had a great time!

Kelly - are you following that Jade Goody story? I saw her on the news the last couple of days. Tragic. And odd. I can't imagine wanting cameras documenting my every move. My last dying breath.

I have been following it Its very sad. I cant say I am a huge fan of her in general, but the whole situation breaks my heart, I really feel for her.
I mean she made her name on Reality TV - Big Brother, from there we've seen her get famous, write a book, have two babies, survive the race-row after celebrity big brother, build herself back up again and now this.
The wedding itself had been filmed by Living TV, which is the channel showing the programme 'Jade', but as of today there is no more filming - no death to be shown on TV.

Its all very sad, for the two poor children especially

Drive-by for me. 4.6 mile run today and pain-free so far! Let's hope it stays that way! 3.7 miles yesterday with minor pain.

Glad you are still pain free

Snow is coming down sideways. Pretty intense. We are going to be fine...looks like only 4-8", but coming down HARD and FAST. Keep Lisa in your thoughts, though...they are getting slaughtered up there. Could be 18" - 2 feet.

on the snow. Hope everyone stays safe and warm.

Hi, my name is Liz and I get 23 pts a day on WW. And today, for the first time in months, I ate only 23 pts. And I went to the gym - with my family - and the stocked the house with food. AND I had an Oscars' party and served only WW friendly food, so I stayed on track.

Yes, it's true. Did you hear the switch flip?

Last night as I was driving home, it occurred to me what this is all about. When I go see Nick's family, I get dressed - like, i work it. Shirt, jeans, boots, full makeup, fix hair. Casual but stunning. That's what I go for. And the truth is, if I lose this last weight, I'll be better looking and that's what it's all about for me.

Hi Liz.
You rock. I heard the switch flip.
You WILL rock the jeans

I totally hear you. And same here. I am SO ready to be the hot chick again instead of the dumpy fat chick. There are size 10 jeans in that closet, calling my name...

And you Kat, you will also rock those jeans

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

Steady on!
Ive been up 6 and a half hours, just about to eat lunch

 

[3DisneyKids]

MORNING!

So, it snowed here. We got about 9". Thank God the kids still have school! (This is Maine, after all. 9"? eh. There is a 2-hour delay, though.) Lisa's schools are closed, though, as they are still getting this storm.

Hi, my name is Liz and I get 23 pts a day on WW. And today, for the first time in months, I ate only 23 pts. And I went to the gym - with my family - and the stocked the house with food. AND I had an Oscars' party and served only WW friendly food, so I stayed on track.

Yes, it's true. Did you hear the switch flip?

Last night as I was driving home, it occurred to me what this is all about. When I go see Nick's family, I get dressed - like, i work it. Shirt, jeans, boots, full makeup, fix hair. Casual but stunning. That's what I go for. And the truth is, if I lose this last weight, I'll be better looking and that's what it's all about for me.

B]Liz! ROCK IT! Yes, I heard the click all the way up here. It was slightly muffled due to all of the fleece I wear, but I could hear it! And yes! Sinny jeans and looking hot. HELL YES.[/B]

Yes. Witness my life the last year and a half. Ready and then not ready. Now? READY. The fat can suck it. I've got some hot jeans to fit into.

Friends, remind me sometime about how much easier it is to be shallow, okay? Because I am SO over the thinking and feeling.

Just love this post.

Modesty is overrated. Wearing dark skinny jeans and a vest out in public is not.



You girls know the outfit I mean, right?

I totally remember that outfit! Even when I am teeny tiny I could never pull that one off. My upper arms are just always big. But YOU rocked that outfit! It was so of the moment (that was how you described it...verbatim. )

Amiee - all you did was talk? Really? Sounds like a cozy evening. wink wink

Liz - I'm watching the Oscars. And working at the office. Oscars. I haven't watched any of the movies. The last movie I saw at the theatre was Ratatouie. Slumdog, geezealou, they took it! The Oscar for H. Ledger seems like such a waste to me. Can you believe the animation joke Jack Black made about DreamWorks and Pixar? Ballsey. Oh and I hate Branjolena - so I'm glad they didn't win. Baby factory, yuck. And, and, Queen Latifa-omg she sounded so lovely during the tribute.

So I didn't watch the Oscars last night, though I had intended to. But I have seen most of the movies. I have them all on DVD. How is that possible, you ask? When these are still playing in the theater? Have I mentioned my awesome brother lately? The one who works for ABC (thus Disney and gets free park passes) and the one who is single. Well, he is a "member of the Academy." (As in "I would like to thank the Academy..." ) Screen Writer's Guild. And as a member of the Academy, they send him copies (on DVD) of all of the nominted movies so that he can vote. Have I mentioned that he is SINGLE???

Ok, back after the kids are off to school.

 

[adsrtw]

Good Morning!

Ahhh, a few moments peace while my kids eat breakfast. 9 inches of snow and still school?!? I wish! At least it is sunny today here. We only had a dusting.

Off to get ready for the real world.

 

[zigzagzerr]

Lisa - go for the date. The masseuse won't buy you dinner...

The food though? Not WW friendly. Good, but they all discussed the program with me while feeding me kielbasa.

Families are great that way, aren't they?

I spent about 10 min this morning chatting w/ a friend from high school, but when she first messaged me I was a little taken aback...

Same thing happened to me -- somebody clicked on and just started chatting away. And I thought "well, I haven't talked to you in like 20 years, but okay...." It was weird, but kinda interesting.

Did you hear the switch flip?

I heard it!

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

Okay, okay....so bossy!


Well, after a none-too-inspiring scale number on Friday, I decided against my better judgment to weigh-in again on Sunday. I figured that I probably did some damage over the weekend, and it would be good to know what I need to deal with this week. Well, to my surprise, the number went down...a lot! Maybe it was the whole TOM stuff last week, who knows? Hopefully I keep things up this week.

I was pretty cautious with the unhappy calf muscle over the weekend. Since I have a new aerobics session starting in a week, I spent most of the weekend going over my new choreography and learning the routines (since I figured it might be a good idea to know what I'm doing). I did everything very low impact, and this morning, I am much less gimpy at work -- so that's good.
I might try the shred tonight, but only do the weights and abs, skip the cardio since it's pretty pounding.

Hubby and I took a peek at our new SuperWalmart yesterday -- good gravy, that place is huge! And apparently, Sunday afternoon ain't a good time to visit. We bought a couple of things, and the checkouts were all 8-10 deep. I could spend a lot of money here, but fortunately it was 1) too crowded and 2) the clientele was kinda skeevy. As in, they all looked like they could take me. (not that that's saying much). I may have to stick with my regular grocery store. But I did get a nice bag of clementines, so yum on that!

Hope you're all having a glorious Monday morning -- it's 26 degrees here today, but sunny.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Thanks, baby. You're the best, Paula. When is our shopping trip, again?

I am thinking sometime in the next few months? I am going to be in need of some serious spring / summer clothes once the weather starts warming up. I have begun the closet purge to take stock of what I need and have started to put the cash aside to pay for all of this. Oh and Donna wants to come too! We can work out the details in PM's... m'kay?

Ok ok, I know how you guys have to have details! Lot's of details!

Well, I was enjoying a good read Saturday afternoon and kinda looking forward to a night to myself (getting lost in a fantasy world) when my phone started going off. During his second message, he asked me if I wanted to visit later that evening. Of course I said yes. We spent several hours texting back and forth while he was out of town. Later that night, we ended up talking non-stop for about 3 hours and he watched a movie while I snoozed. We talked about so many things. I ended up getting home in the wee hours of Sunday morning.

Amiee - so happy for you. Sounds like things are moving along nicely. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed that this continues to blossom.

MORNING!
So I didn't watch the Oscars last night, though I had intended to. But I have seen most of the movies. I have them all on DVD. How is that possible, you ask? When these are still playing in the theater? Have I mentioned my awesome brother lately? The one who works for ABC (thus Disney and gets free park passes) and the one who is single. Well, he is a "member of the Academy." (As in "I would like to thank the Academy..." ) Screen Writer's Guild. And as a member of the Academy, they send him copies (on DVD) of all of the nominted movies so that he can vote. Have I mentioned that he is SINGLE???

Ok, back after the kids are off to school.

Sorry about the snow. We got off with a bit of a dusting thankfully. Now about this brother of yours with the awesome job? By any chance, is he single?

Liz – I was watching the Oscars last night. I must go out and see Slumdog Millionaire. It looks like a great film. I too loved Queen Latifah’s song, but then again, I lover her last two CD’s. She has a great voice for the standards. Overall, I liked the fashions too. I didn’t see them all, but will be pouring through the magazines to see them at some point.

Lisa Z - Walmart supercenters are kind of interesting aren't they. You want to like them but at the same time you aren't sure if you should. I won't go to the Walmart near my house at all because the clientele and the staff scare the crap out of me. It is not like it is in a bad neighborhood or anything, its just like walking into something out of Deliverence. I usually go across town to Target instead. Of course, Albany is home to Walmart's largest supercenter. It is something like 200,000 + square feet spread across two floors. The cool thing about that place is not only do they have a people escalator, but a special one for your cart as well. The builder in me is fascinated by that (yeah - I am that kind of geek). Take care of the calf and good luck with the new session.

Tonight is weigh in time for me. I splurged a bit at dinner last night. We went to this one restaurant that does tapas as well as pizzas. Three of us shared a few small plates (with me taking a bite from each plate), a salad and a pizza. Not too bad, but not the JC meal I had planned either. Oh well, sometime life happens right?

Hope you are all having a great day so far!!!

 

[Ronda93]

Found my limit this morning. I started C25K a few weeks ago and everything has gone swimmingly until this morning. W4D1. I could not finish the last five minute run. Both my legs and lungs were not up to it. Week four could last a long time ; )

 

[HockeyKat]

Paula, good luck on the weigh-in!! You are so ON that I bet it will be kind to you.

LisaZ, I am definitely a super-walmart girl, skeevy clientele, crummy staff, and all. Ours is in a fairly affluent area and is very mixed.

However, with our current financial situation (my company is on the edge if I mentioned it before you joined up, paycuts, etc.), I just can't afford not to shopt there as it is *much* cheaper than anything else around here. I do peek in the other grocery stores occasionally, just to see, and there is a HUGE difference in price most of the time.

Being on this low carb thing, we have been buying bulk/value pack lean meat/fish/chicken and cooking and/or freezing it all for quick meals. Fresh veggies do cost, but are so worth it.

I have also noticed that with our moratorium on eating out, we are saving a lot of money.


Oh, and Liz, TOTALLY remember that outfit. Definitely rocking it!! You will get back there, and likely be rocking it next to fat me in April.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ronda--don't sweat it that you couldn't do W4D1. You have two choices: repeat week 3 and try week 4 again next week. Or stay in week 4 until you can make it through. You can do it! If I can run, anyone can...I swear.

Off to PT.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I did my 3 week weigh-in today, and was 181 even. That is an 11.6 lb loss in 3 weeks! One more week and I can have a beer... I only committed to Feb!

Kat! That is outstanding

I was doing my weighted squats today and he upped the size of the barbell to sixty pounds.

Umm. I'd call that huge.

At some point in this process, my thought process shifted away from looking at how much further I had to go to looking at how far I have come.

What a great motto. "Look how far we've come". Totally love it Paula.

I did do a hill interval workout on the TM today. Just a twinge of shin pain and it went away. I also did the stretch erika reccomended.

Glad you're feeling well and enjoying your trip! Keep warm there in frosty N.C.

Vacation wine -doesn't count in my book. It's called "sampling the local flavor"

Modesty is overrated. Wearing dark skinny jeans and a vest out in public is not.



You girls know the outfit I mean, right?

Absolutely. That's the one that reminded me of Felicity Huffman in Desperate Housewives. So good that you found your inspiration!

Talked, no nookie. But I had an awesome time.

so exciting.

So tonight I didn't eat great but didn't over kill it either and I WALKED A MILE ! They posted in the hospital newsletter that walking back and forth from the ICU to the lab three times is a mile and I did three and half. (I had to get back to the lab!) I was proud of myself! Now If I just can keep it going!

That's awesome Steph! Great job!!! And soon spring will be here and it will be more enjoyable to have longer walks with Mocha.

 

[lisaviolet]

So I didn't watch the Oscars last night, though I had intended to. But I have seen most of the movies. I have them all on DVD. How is that possible, you ask? When these are still playing in the theater? Have I mentioned my awesome brother lately? The one who works for ABC (thus Disney and gets free park passes) and the one who is single. Well, he is a "member of the Academy." (As in "I would like to thank the Academy..." ) Screen Writer's Guild. And as a member of the Academy, they send him copies (on DVD) of all of the nominted movies so that he can vote. Have I mentioned that he is SINGLE???

How many times have I told you to sell him as the son of your mother?

 

[lisaviolet]

Liz - I woke up thinking about your switch. So impressed and thrilled for you. Can't wait to see new vanity outfits. Perfect. I so want to show you my new red short trench.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

IOf course, Albany is home to Walmart's largest supercenter. It is something like 200,000 + square feet spread across two floors. The cool thing about that place is not only do they have a people escalator, but a special one for your cart as well. The builder in me is fascinated by that (yeah - I am that kind of geek).

WAIT. What is this? A multi-level Walmart??? I didn't even know such a thing existed.

And an escalator for your cart? Oh my. That is something I'd love to see.

Off to PT.

Have fun

I so want to show you my new red short trench.

Did you get a new battery for your camera yet? Honestly. I'm begining to think that I'm not the *only* one around here who is Amish

 

[lisaviolet]

LIZ!


So tonight I didn't eat great but didn't over kill it either and I WALKED A MILE ! They posted in the hospital newsletter that walking back and forth from the ICU to the lab three times is a mile and I did three and half. (I had to get back to the lab!) I was proud of myself! Now If I just can keep it going! My neighbor asked my to start walking with her but we are on opposite shifts she works 9-4 and I 2-11 so its tough I am just going to have to pound the pavement by myself well with Mocha of course!

Fantastic Steph!

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

So didn't want to get up this morning. One of those overly sensitive down days. Onward.

Well, after a none-too-inspiring scale number on Friday, I decided against my better judgment to weigh-in again on Sunday. I figured that I probably did some damage over the weekend, and it would be good to know what I need to deal with this week. Well, to my surprise, the number went down...a lot! Maybe it was the whole TOM stuff last week, who knows? Hopefully I keep things up this week.

Fantastic Lisa!

I am thinking sometime in the next few months? I am going to be in need of some serious spring / summer clothes once the weather starts warming up. I have begun the closet purge to take stock of what I need and have started to put the cash aside to pay for all of this. Oh and Donna wants to come too! We can work out the details in PM's... m'kay?

That's so flippin' exciting Paula. Can't wait to see it all.

And thank you for the scale explanation. You're a tad, well a lot, more sane than me mentally.

Found my limit this morning. I started C25K a few weeks ago and everything has gone swimmingly until this morning. W4D1. I could not finish the last five minute run. Both my legs and lungs were not up to it. Week four could last a long time ; )

Hi Ronda. Just sayin' hi. I know nada about running. Hang in there.


Nancy - did you google those futuristic fat measurement pods?

 

[goofyfan-12]

WAIT. What is this? A multi-level Walmart??? I didn't even know such a thing existed.

And an escalator for your cart? Oh my. That is something I'd love to see. [/B][/COLOR]

I'll see if I can find some pictures of it from when it opened. Not sure if I have the guts to go and take pictures of it myself. We'll see.

Thanks for the well wishes everyone. Tonight will be what it will be. Can't do anything about it now so I am not stressing about it.

Ronda - hang in there. You will kick C25K week 4's butt in no time.

E - Have fun at PT

Kat - thanks for reminding me, I was going to start shopping at the Walmart supercenter because it is cheaper. I will go there tonight instead of my beloved Price Chopper (the local grocery chain - which is totally awesome).

Later...

 

[goofyfan-12]

Fantastic Steph!

That's so flippin' exciting Paula. Can't wait to see it all.

And thank you for the scale explanation. You're a tad, well a lot, more sane than me mentally.

Lisa - Have you met me recently??? I am neurotic about plenty of things (my job, anything dealing with romantic relationships and my need to always do the right thing being the biggest culprits) so I am not certainly far from sane. but thanks for thinking of me that way.

I was having this same conversation with my trainer yesterday. He was whining about how he was unhappy with his life and I shared my thoughts on the differences with being content vs. being happy as well as trying to look at the postives in your life instead of the negatives and he said the same thing about me that you did (that I was strangly sane).

Trust me, I haven't always been this way (the thinking positive thing), but this journey that I have been on for the past year and a half has taught me so many things about me and my life. Looking at the positives instead of focusing on the negatives has been one of the biggest lessons I have learned. Now, do I slip back and wallow in the why me category - abso-freakin-lutely I do, but it is not as self absorbing as before. Here's hoping I can stick with it.

Paula

 

[lisaviolet]

Okay,

Let me preface that I do like slim/small. But only on bodies that I think should be very slim. I'm all into what bodies were built for. All into that. Ie. I think if a woman is small boned and she's really slim then it looks terrific. No anti small woman here.

But here's what happened. Somehow I walked into a theatre to catch a late afternoon showing of Revolutionary Road. And I somehow read the wrong listing and got "ummm RR isn't here!" Nancy? Twins . And all of their movies had started. So I scan my local theatre for RR or The Reader. Nope. The only movie that worked for Jean's bball game (picking me up at a certain time to leave downtown) was He's Just Not That Into You. So I walk downtown through a snowstorm from one theatre to another cause I need cheap theatre cause I'm not seeing a movie I really don't want to see and pay big bucks. So I was in a foul mood because I had movies to see and none of them worked out. Pissed.

It looked smarmy to me. Not good reviews. No interest. So glad I saw it for one reason. Wow. I found Jennifer Aniston and Jennifer Connolly's (sp?) bodies, and faces because of the very lean bodies, so hard to look at. So weird. Both attractive woman. But so hard to look at. I don't know I'm not into analyzing bodies but it really hit me. Like too much. Too lean. And once again if you're meant to be small you're meant to be small. But both seemed like that wasn't the case.

Ok novel. Done. But a nice moment for me. A la what I want and what I don't want and appreciating size. A clarifying moment for me. I still want to lose but I know where the end is - where my body naturally levels out - fit and llevels out.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa - Have you met me recently??? I am neurotic about plenty of things (my job, anything dealing with romantic relationships and my need to always do the right thing being the biggest culprits) so I am not certainly far from sane. but thanks for thinking of me that way.

I was having this same conversation with my trainer yesterday. He was whining about how he was unhappy with his life and I shared my thoughts on the differences with being content vs. being happy as well as trying to look at the postives in your life instead of the negatives and he said the same thing about me that you did (that I was strangly sane).

Trust me, I haven't always been this way (the thinking positive thing), but this journey that I have been on for the past year and a half has taught me so many things about me and my life. Looking at the positives instead of focusing on the negatives has been one of the biggest lessons I have learned. Now, do I slip back and wallow in the why me category - abso-freakin-lutely I do, but it is not as self absorbing as before. Here's hoping I can stick with it.

Paula

Lovely Paula.