niks81
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Well, its been about a month now and I'm finally deciding to post this. I've tried to write this out several times, but I've never been able to really get through it without crying quite a bit.
In March, I lost my dear friend and past coworker Michelle. At age 26 she was in her prime--having her dream job, driving her dream car, and getting ready to marry her dream guy. Michelle was one of those people we all aspire to be....compassionate, caring, friendly, funny, driven and good hearted. She had this light around her that seemed to make her stand out amongst others. She was just a wonderful person. She was the editor and copywriter of our company magazine...very creative and bright. In her spare time she belonged to many outside organizations, but the one that I remember most is her love for dance. She and her mother were so excited because they were finally dancing together on stage and they were so happy to be doing so. Almost exactly a year ago, Michelle's fiance proposed to her and I've never seen her glow like that before! They were so in love....I could honestly say I've never seen a couple that was so happy and so in love all the time. My husband agreed....they were like a fairytale romance. They set a date, and Michelle and her mom were making all the plans over the course of the months. She had recently found her dress, and was so excited to do some cake tasting.
In March, they went on their usual skiing trip to Colorado as a family. While they were there Michelle did not feel very well at all. She was tired, nauseated and just overall feeling crummy. She went to lay down for awhile to read--she fell asleep and never awoke
At 26 she had an abdominal aneurysm and was gone before anyone had the chance to say goodbye.
I know that Michelle is in a better place, but having to say goodbye so early is unbearable. I just really think the circumstances stink, and I know that sounds incredibly selfish, but I do. She's 26, her mother's ONLY child, in the prime of her life, and getting ready to be married
It stinks! Her parents are doing the best they can, but Michelle was their life, their everything. And her fiance is without his true soulmate. It's just so unfair As someone on her obituary guestbook said, "Michelle was fit for heaven, no improvements needed. You could simply pin a pair of wings on her, a perfect angel."
When Michelle was found she had been reading a book and she had stopped reading on this page. I just thought I would share it because I truly think it is remarkable:
"I can't believe you're gone. Even now I wake with a sense of disbelief. You're gone. Each morning I rise reluctantly, wondering whether to live the day or let it wash over me. I walk numbly, listlessly, drifting like a phantom. I feel apart from my body. I am half a person. You're gone.
From the start everyone knew you were different. There was something more there. A mysterious glow, a strange, unfamiliar beauty. But somehow, I felt like I'd known you all my life. Maybe I did, could it be?
I always believed in you. And I believe you always believed in me."
(from A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius)
I usually don't start threads on the CB, I just reply to them....however I felt compelled to share this because of how badly it hurts when you don't get to say goodbye. Love your family, love your friends, and make sure they know it....life is too short.
In March, I lost my dear friend and past coworker Michelle. At age 26 she was in her prime--having her dream job, driving her dream car, and getting ready to marry her dream guy. Michelle was one of those people we all aspire to be....compassionate, caring, friendly, funny, driven and good hearted. She had this light around her that seemed to make her stand out amongst others. She was just a wonderful person. She was the editor and copywriter of our company magazine...very creative and bright. In her spare time she belonged to many outside organizations, but the one that I remember most is her love for dance. She and her mother were so excited because they were finally dancing together on stage and they were so happy to be doing so. Almost exactly a year ago, Michelle's fiance proposed to her and I've never seen her glow like that before! They were so in love....I could honestly say I've never seen a couple that was so happy and so in love all the time. My husband agreed....they were like a fairytale romance. They set a date, and Michelle and her mom were making all the plans over the course of the months. She had recently found her dress, and was so excited to do some cake tasting.
In March, they went on their usual skiing trip to Colorado as a family. While they were there Michelle did not feel very well at all. She was tired, nauseated and just overall feeling crummy. She went to lay down for awhile to read--she fell asleep and never awoke
At 26 she had an abdominal aneurysm and was gone before anyone had the chance to say goodbye. I know that Michelle is in a better place, but having to say goodbye so early is unbearable. I just really think the circumstances stink, and I know that sounds incredibly selfish, but I do. She's 26, her mother's ONLY child, in the prime of her life, and getting ready to be married
It stinks! Her parents are doing the best they can, but Michelle was their life, their everything. And her fiance is without his true soulmate. It's just so unfair As someone on her obituary guestbook said, "Michelle was fit for heaven, no improvements needed. You could simply pin a pair of wings on her, a perfect angel." When Michelle was found she had been reading a book and she had stopped reading on this page. I just thought I would share it because I truly think it is remarkable:
"I can't believe you're gone. Even now I wake with a sense of disbelief. You're gone. Each morning I rise reluctantly, wondering whether to live the day or let it wash over me. I walk numbly, listlessly, drifting like a phantom. I feel apart from my body. I am half a person. You're gone.
From the start everyone knew you were different. There was something more there. A mysterious glow, a strange, unfamiliar beauty. But somehow, I felt like I'd known you all my life. Maybe I did, could it be?
I always believed in you. And I believe you always believed in me."
(from A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius)
I usually don't start threads on the CB, I just reply to them....however I felt compelled to share this because of how badly it hurts when you don't get to say goodbye. Love your family, love your friends, and make sure they know it....life is too short.
I'm very sorry for your loss. Michelle was far too young.
We were trying out my new camera phone...that was the first pic I ever took! She's on the left, I'm on the right.
