Mom, my stomach hurts. Its been hurting all day.
Those were the words that greeted me as I picked up Annie and Jay from school two weeks and a few days before our trip was to take place.
Those are never good words.
But, de-nial aint just a river in Egypt. I asked a few questions about Annies stomach and decided to dismiss it as a fluke. We went home, she wanted a snack. She said her stomach wasnt hurting anymore, so I figured she was just hungry. We went to soccer practice where she ran for a while but then came over to me crying and saying her stomach was bothering her again. Home we went, where she was in too much pain to take a shower and just wanted to lie down.
And hour later, she was fine. I fed her some dry toast and applesauce. It all came back up. So, now Im figuring that we have a stomach virus going on. Code red! Containment! Wash hands! Everybody duck and cover! I dont deal particularly well with stomach viruses, and this one was causing Annie a LOT of pain. It was, frankly, scaring the crap out of me to watch her moan and thrash around on the bed.
After a few hours of the pain and thrashing, but only one bought of throwing up, she was sleeping. I left her in my room, fully prepared for waking up in the middle of the night with her.
She slept all the way through the night. She was fine the next day. We started back on liquids slowly and by lunch time had worked up to dry toast and some broth. I figured maybe this was just a light bug or maybe something had just upset her stomach the day before.
And actually, writing about this? Makes me feel all panicky inside because THIS is where things turn rough for us. And it makes my anxiety (which is usually non-existent) kick up to super high levels.
But about an hour and a half after the broth, the pain started back. The screaming and the thrashing. I began to be worried that this was not a virus and could be appendicitis. Jamie came home from work and looked at her and decided that a trip to the ER was warranted. This was like nothing we had ever seen from Annie. She had never handled a stomach virus like this before. Something was just off.
So, off to the ER they went. And a few hours later, returned with anti-nausea meds and a diagnosis of a stomach virus. Should be a 24-48 hour thing. Annie made the comment, Im glad I got sick now since Ill be well in plenty of time for Disney!
Things went on like this for the next two days. Screaming. Crying. Thrashing on the bed from the pain. Then she would sleep all night long and wake up fine the next day. I would give her sips of water and then a few hours later the pain would start back. Lather, rinse, repeat.
It was on a Thursday afternoon that I HAD HAD ENOUGH. Jamie got home from work to find Annie screaming and moaning in pain and me crying because I was helpless to do anything to help her. Back to the ER they went. He called me a few hours later saying that they were going to admit Annie to give her fluids overnight. Thank goodness. He wanted to stay at the hospital that night since I had been up for several days (not able to sleep because of worry). Of course, I still couldnt sleep at home. I was too keyed up from watching her swing back and forth from a happy little girl to one who was in severe pain. I was very afraid for her.
On Friday morning, I got Jay off to school and then Jane and I immediately headed up to the hospital. We were going to relieve Jamie, who needed to shower. I would spend the day at the hospital with Annie and Jamie would take Jane. Most likely, they would release Annie that afternoon.
Except that on my way to the hospital, Annie started throwing up again. We knew that we had just bought ourselves another day in the hospital. I was dreading the scene when I arrived, thinking she would be in pain again, but I was greeted by my happy girl. Jamie took Jane, and Annie and I spent the morning doing crafts and playing games.
(this is where Annie is pretending to be a "little old lady" and playing around.)
But by that afternoon, she was in serious pain again.
This cycle repeated itself over and over and over. I could give you a play by play on each of our days in the hospital. Because honestly, I remember Every. Single. Moment. Some of them were lots of fun...to be able to spend one on one time with one of my kids is always a gift, but many of those moments were spent with me out in the hallway, crying on the phone to my mother and father or Jamie as Annie, tired from one of her bouts with intense pain, was knocked out.
My wonderful mother drove in from Mississippi to help with the other children so Jamie could go back to work. Special friends drew close to me to keep me afloat. There was blood work (normal). There were x-rays and MRIs scheduled (all normal). Endless consultations with doctors who had determined through blood work that this WASNT viral, but that they didnt know WHAT it was.
I felt like I was on Mystery Diagnosis.
I could have cared less about our trip. It went from being The Most Important Thing, to so far down on my list of wants that it almost didnt register. I just wanted my normal back.
(This was my bed for our stay. Pretty comfortable for a hospital room.)
The doctors were discussing putting in a tube that would drain her gastric contents, with the theory that this may have started as a virus that damaged her stomach lining and her stomach needed to rest from everything. This was our next step. I didnt tell Annie this because the tube would have to be inserted through her nose and would stay there for ten days. I wasnt going to give her THAT information unless it was going to happen.
But then, six days into our stay, it just stopped. I kept waiting for the pain to come back, but it didnt. Annie ate broth and it stayed down. She ate a popscicle and didnt scream from pain an hour later. She had crackers. And then I took her to the cafeteria about bought her dry toast because she wanted out of her hospital room so badly. All of it stayed down and she said, Mom...it doesnt hurt anymore.
They kept us in the hospital another day, just to make sure that she was really able to eat on her own. We were released seven days after we entered the hospital for what was supposed to be a quick, overnight stay to get fluids.
We were supposed to leave for Disney in a week. At this point, I couldnt even imagine. I was so traumatized from our hospital experience. My mother had to leave to go back home to Mississippi, so my mother in law came in to help. She stayed through the weekend and helped me get my house back in order. Though very weak at first, Annie was getting better and better every day. Suddenly, by the Monday before our trip, it almost seemed possible that we might get to go on this trip. We marked off something like 12 days on our calendar all at once. We hadnt been marking when Annie was in the hospital and even when she first came home...I think we were all too scared to think about it.
***We will not mention the 103 fever that Jane spiked when Annie came home that then sent me rushing off, in tears, to the urgent care center where Jane was diagnosed with a UTI. Or the fact that my head almost exploded. Not mentioning...not mentioning...not mentioning.***
But suddenly, the glimmer of light came back. A little Disney sparkle in everyones eye. And really, it seemed that if ANYONE needed a Disney vacation, it was probably us. And so, Annie and I got our Mickey Mouse toes on as a celebration, Annies out of the hospital! pedicure.
And then we marked the very last day off our calendar.