Hi

[Serena]

I just wanted everyone to know that I feel better today. I'm not sure why, but I do.

He did come over last night and figure out a problem with the car for me, and he was back this morning and fixed pancakes for everyone.

It's funny, but I've seen him more in the last week than the few months before when he lived here.

I can't help it, I still love the idiot. We just can't live together right now. We both have some major changes to go through. I think this separation will be a good thing for all of us.
But I think that maybe, on the other side, we may find our way back together. Much better than before. Now if we don't, well, I'll still be a better person, and maybe I'll find someone else. Who knows

In the mean time, I am going to be the best person I can be. I'm going to get a life, I'm going to figure out what I like to do and do it. I'm not going to sit around and wait on him to tell me what I can or cannot do.
I'm going to be the best me I can be.
I'm going to do the stuff I've wanted to do, but was afraid to try something new, or worried about what he'd say. As the saying goes, Just Do It.

Now, the evil little gremlin in me wants to take him back using whatever works. LOL But NO! If he ever decides he wants to come back, he's going to have to want it really, really, really bad.
I don't want to drag him back, I want everything or nothing.

And no, I won't be pining for him. There are a lot of issues that I have to deal with and I'm not sure I will ever get over a few, but I won't hurt to make her worry now will it. lol

BTW, in case anyone was wondering. He was never the least bit violent towards me or anyone. He rarely if ever even raised his voice. He never threatened me or anything like that.
His dad asked me about this and I just thought someone else may be wondering as well.

Also, I tend to type when I can see the screen. I've had hours of crying and feeling sorry for myself, and I'm sure I'll have more.
Anyway, I just wanted to make sure you all didn't think that I'm like the energizer bunny that has constant good moods.

Thank you everyone for caring and worrying. I don't know how to tell you all how much I appreciate it.

 

[iluvorlando]

Laurie,

I am sooo glad you are feeling better. You sound really positive and your attitude is great. I think you should definitely try something new. Good Luck!! (((((HUGS)))))

 

[Dan Murphy]

Hope we see you in October, Laurie.

 

[Serena]

You'll see me Dan. That's one of the things I've wanted to do and haven't tried it yet.

Unless my car isn't working.

 

[kejoda]

You go girl! Happy to see a good attitude. I hope I get the chance to meet you in Chicago!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[minniepumpernickel]

It sounds like you are doing really well! Now you can pursue the things that you really want to do .Just think, the world is your oyster! Good luck!

 

[helenabear]

I'll echo what kejoda said... you have a great attitude right now! Keep that up! Too bad you don't want to go up to Chicago a day early. I could always swing by and pick you up on my way. I do hope to see you there though

 

[newmousecateer]

Hi

Thinking of you,

 

[SeaSpray]

I'm really glad to hear you're feeling better about everything. Going through a separation and divorce is never fun, but you seem to have a great outlook. Hang in there

 

[jldriscoll]

Wow you sound great!!! I know it won't always be this way...but hold on to this feeling!!!

I'll say it again....what a strong smart woman you are!!!

 

[NHAnn]

You Go Girl!!!

 

[nativetxn]

{{{HUGS}}} Good luck

 

[janette]

Sounds great Laurie! You live your life for you and you'll find your way with no problems.

 

[Serena]

Good night everyone. Sleep well.

 

[snowball22]

YOU GO GIRL!!!!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!! STAY STRONG!!!!!!!

 

[browneyes]

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better.

I'm also glad to hear he hasn't been violent with you. Believe it or not, I didn't think it until I read it on this thread. However, emotional turmoil is worse than any outer turmoil-violent or anticipated outer turmoil.

{{hugs}}

 

[JasonLyons]

we still dont like him

 

[Poohbear123]

I think of you and the girls everyday. Best of luck to you and them.

 

[olena]

You sound so much better! ***HUGS***

I hope your personal liberation is a wonderful thing for you...

 

[leahannpen]

I think you've got the right attitude! Way to go! I can't imagine how hard it is to go through what you are going through, but it sounds like you are going to do just fine!