Having a hard time...

[Cherbear013]

I wish this feeling would just go away! I should be in wedded bliss since getting married 2 months ago. My husband and I are fine, but its this dang depression that keeps trying to rear its ugly head.

I feel lonely and isolated right now. Since moving out to CO 7 years ago I haven't made any strong connections. Last year we moved again to a small town outside of Colorado Springs. I'm finding it hard to find friends and connect with people. I had some plans with a few people at work to go to a concert tomorrow night but they all just bailed on me. What makes this feeling worse is that my husband travels for work every week so I am left alone. My family is back in MN and his is in CA so that factor makes it hard too.

Its been very difficult to find someone to open up too about my feelings. My husband's job is very stressful and draining right now so I don't feel good about putting more stress on him. I feel like I am always the one to support him and remain positive but sometimes that is really hard. I try to open up a little bit at times to him, but his response is "at least you don't have to jump on a plane next week and work a job that you hate."

My real friends are so far away that its hard to just call them up and dump all this on them. I know with winter coming my depression will only get worse.

I don't really know what I'm looking for but thanks for letting me share. Its always good to write about your feelings.

 

[fireman17]

You'll always have your Disney friends here.. Hang in there everything will be alright...

 

[DipsyDoodles]

What about taking an adult education course? Does you town offer anything like that? You could also join a gym, exercise can really help your depression. Good luck.

 

[mommasita]

I can imagine that it must be extremely hard.

You have gone through big changes, and it is not easy. If you see those signs of depression, I would advise you to try to see a Dr. It might help you open up a little, and get more release, and perhaps some medication if needed.

As PP stated. We are all here. Write it out any time, and you can PM me anytime.

 

[TheDisneyGirl02]

I had something similar happen to me last year after I got married.

I have OCD and sadly it caused me to go into a major depression for a few weeks. It wasn't my husband - I loved being married to him, it was just the changes in my life that I had no control over -

• I lost my job
• Moved out of my parent's house
• Moved into an apartment that I was scared would never feel like 'home'
• My grandfather died 2 weeks after I got married.

Although I lost my job in July and got married in October, all of the wedding planning kept me from mourning the loss of my job. I cried a lot, I didn't want to get out of bed and just felt like nothing would ever be right again.

I went to my family doctor and he increased my anti-depressent that I take for the OCD. After about 2 weeks, I was feeling much better - like the world was bright and new again.

Please, please, please go see your doctor. You will feel so much better if you do. I never had a chance to thank my family doctor for helping me because he literally stopped practicing a few weeks after my depression.

The best thing I can say to you is that I know what you are going through and here is a hug - I hope it helps a little.