Hi panfan!
Nice to see you posting with us again. Did you know there is a wonderfully supportive accountability thread? I admit I haven't been there in a few days but there are quite a few WISHers who have become reactivated by the encouraging posts on that thread.
Permanent weight loss is truly a journey - a lifelong one - it's something that we have to commit ourselves too and when we find that we have fallen off the wagon or jumped off as the case may be, we can't few it as a total defeat because the truth is we will never get to the finish line. Whatever way of eating and exercising that you have chosen, you have to view it as a lifelong project, not just something to use as a means to an end.
I know you can get back in the swing of things. I know you have it in you to reach your goal and then maintain your loss. We all experience bumps in the road of one sort or another. Don't forget, there is no shame in falling down, the defeat comes from not getting back up (no matter how many times it takes!).
So start posting again and start reading the encouraging threads again for motivation.