going to disney&uni again! Sep 2011

[kaoden39]

Wow I wish I could afford that bike.


The lungs can be tracked back to your childhood. I smoked for years, I never smoked inside but I still smoked. Then it was explained to me that although I didn't smoke in the kids presence they still were exposed to the smoke on my clothes. I quit. It is so tough to quit, and I thank goodness everyday that I quit.


That's great about Robert!! It has made quite the difference hasn't it?

 

[bumbershoot]

It's so awesome that you quit once you realized the problem. My parents...as much as I loved my mom, her addiction went on longer than it should. She should never have started smoking in the first place, as she was one of those rare people back in '44 BORN with asthma. I don't even know what she did (or what her parents did) back then, but when I knew her she had the primatene type inhalers. Anyway, she started smoking at 15, addicted from the first one, she said. Sigh.

She tried to quit for awhile, but it didn't actually stick until the night she woke in a massive asthma attack at 35, and she realized that if she died we'd go to our dad, who was quite less than useless at the time. Cold turkey, next day.

My dad goes with Marlboros still...my mom was a True Blue person.
Oh the things one remembers.....

 

[kaoden39]

Addictions are terrible things. When I got out of the hospital in 2007 they had me on two morphine patches and oxycontin. It wasn't long after I was out of the hospital and I stopped the pain patches. Then I started cutting down the pills and asked for something different. I thought my surgeon was going to have a heart attack. I explain to her that I have an addictive personality and that I didn't want to fall into that. She wasn't happy but she agreed to let me do it my way but she really would have rathered to let me continue that way and deal with it later. I wanted to not have the problem. I was fine quitting the way I did.

 

[bumbershoot]

she really would have rathered to let me continue that way and deal with it later

Isn't that amazing. It's not like SHE would be dealing with it then...

I have to be careful in the same way. On the other hand, most pain stuff doesn't work "right" with me; I'm deathly allergic to naproxen/aleve, tylenol is despised, one ibuprofen works but makes me "high" (let's not even talk about those 600mg pills I took post-E...terrifying experiences and hallucinations combined with extreme cotton mouth from something like hydrocodone)...vicodin makes me angry and doesn't cut down on the pain at all...

I've never had morphine (other than in the hated epidural), but the fentanyl they gave me so I could deal with the needle in my spine was very very loved, if brief. And the demeral I took at 20 was AMAZING.

So, yeah, fentanyl and demerol...let's hear it for two of the most addictive ones out there being the main ones that work right for me!

I stopped taking the demoral with one or two pills left because I knew if I emptied the bottle I'd be heading back to the doctor for more.



I have to be careful with booze, I also have to even be careful with videogames. Computer, too. If you think I'm on a lot NOW, you should have seen it when I was first engaged! OMG that was BAD. At least now I get up and do stuff. Having a set period doesn't really work for me, but just having it on and checking in does. So it looks like I'm online from the moment I'm up until the moment I'm asleep, but I'm back and forth.


Anyway, I know the addictive personality well!

 

[bumbershoot]

The above was brought to you by True Confessions.


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I also need to get some good sunglasses. Prescription, hopefully.

 

[kaoden39]

You understand then. When I went back to have my ostomy reversed she let me control the pain meds. I had proven that I knew me best.


I want some prescription sunglasses.

 

[bumbershoot]

I was just brought to tears by a little add-on to an order I made. Got some clearblueeasy test sticks for our constant baby-goal, this time ordered through a big "let's help you have a baby" store that's selling through amazon. So I open this package, and it's the box of test strips, and then they've included a couple pregnancy tests, and then out falls this little temp tattoo that says "baby dust". I got all verklempt! (spelling?) There's a long and whiny story about it, but I just love it when someone "dusts" me, and that's really the first time it's happened *in person* (= not online) in a VERY long time.


Just had to go out to the toy store to buy a b'day gift for a friend of E (they even wrapped it!). Party tomorrow, then company picnic on Sunday, not a great time for my lungs to be acting up! And I got Robert to come home on time today, so he took E off to Aikido and I get some nice alone-time. If I don't get "stuck" online, I'll go read a book and rest my lungs. Or I could make the guys insane by making my tea while they are gone, leaving them the aftermath of the smelly roots and barks, LOL.

 

[kaoden39]

Oh Molly that is special. What a loving thing for someone to do.


You really need to start feeling better. You worry me.

 

[bumbershoot]

I'm worrying me, too! After last Feb/March I'm really spooked. Monitoring my health every 30 minutes, pretty much. Has it gotten worse, better, same? etc etc. Not sure where my line in the sand for seeking extra help will be, but it will be a whole lot sooner than it was before!

Now the good news is that I haven't felt like I had to use the albuterol today. So things are looking up. Though I think Robert brought home a tummy thing from his trip (he thought it was just b/c he forgot to forgo the ice, whoops). In this case, sharing is NOT caring, dude!

 

[kaoden39]

I once heard that room temperature helps your lungs to relax so that it helps you to breathe. I haven't tried it but who knows. I am glad you didn't have to use your albuterol today that is a good thing.


I am a believer in sharing but that is something I rather people would not share. I will take a cold or a tummy bug any day. They will sap me faster than anything else.

 

[bumbershoot]

I'm feeling a whole lot better today. Started off feeling a bit better, then went and got adjusted, spent some time shopping while Robert took Eamon to a birthday party. Now they are still at the party and I'm relaxing at home, whew. And I'm feeling even better. Turns out that along with my vertebral subluxations (tiny movements of the vertebrae that mess with the proper functioning of the spinal nerves and all the nerves that come from them), I had a rib *massively* out of position that was messing with my sternum on the front as well as where it was "out" on the back. Can't help but think I had a "chicken and egg" thing going on, where nerves were being messed with, lungs weren't taking it very well, causing me to breathe funny and extra hard, which messed things up even more, etc etc etc.

So I got that taken care of and am feeling mucho better.


Just checked the weather for tomorrow's work picnic, oh wow, a chance of rain, and under 70 degrees! Yay, probably no near heat stroke for me! It'll be a first!

 

[bumbershoot]

Oh, and a 27 year old woman told me that I barely look 34, let alone my actual age. I love her!

 

[kaoden39]

Scotty's company picnics are always planned for fall. You know how hot it can be here so that is better for us. But, last year the rain started so early here they never ended up having it.


The company I would love to work for to go to their company picnics is Genetech. They rented out AT&T ballpark this year and they had their picnic with a concert Daughtry opened followed by Sheryl Crow and Maroon 5 was the closing act. They do this sort of thing every year. They are supposed to be one of the best companies to work for. I told my kids they should take the course to work there.

Under 30 days!!

 

[bumbershoot]

They rented out AT&T ballpark this year and they had their picnic with a concert Daughtry opened followed by Sheryl Crow and Maroon 5 was the closing act.

Holy moly.

Robert's winter-time parties have included The Hive, Presidents of the USA, and just last Feb (immediately before I got sick!) what's his face from Tears for Fears.

The summer picnic doesn't involve music or anything really company-ish...it's like they just want to provide the place to have a nice day, and apart from getting a t-shirt and sometimes silly things like frisbees or notepads, you don't have to do anything with people you actually work with, all day.

I'm up so late and I don't know why...today felt really very long so you'd think I would have gone to bed early. Guess I'm getting slightly excited about the trip; I'm nearly sleeping curled up with my red notebook.

 

[kaoden39]

Scotty works for Amcor they are the largest maker of plastic bottles in the world. They have biodegradable bottles and such. They throw the funkiest parties. Of course they are worldwide but I know they get a budget for them. Our winter parties are usually at either the Hilton or a local country club. They serve prime rib, chicken and the such. They do not offer a vegan choice and not a real good vegetarian choice. For the longest time they didn't even offer the chicken for people that don't eat beef. Real sensitive to other peoples cultures, not. The picnic is kind of odd. They have it catered bad hotdogs, burnt/raw chicken and the such. Then they have a carnival game set up where people can win prizes. Face painting, bingo and that sort of thing. Kind of boring you know?

 

[kaoden39]

I meant to post this earlier. I saw this in my twitter feed earlier. It is the new pool at the DLH.

 

[bumbershoot]

That's quite a pool slide!

 

[kaoden39]

It looks like something my teenagers and Scotty would like. And something I would love to watch them use.

 

[bumbershoot]

We recently discovered that Men In Black 2 was actually OK for E. Well there's a bit of language, and Rip Torn goes into inappropriate stuff in the ending scene, but 7 year olds don't understand what he's saying, so almost the whole movie is good for him.

He's pretty excited. And is currently dressed as a MIB, dancing and singing to the video for Nod Ya Head on the second disc. He *loves* Will Smith.

 

[kaoden39]

Oh how fun!! Now he can get the strut down before he dresses up.