Drop the Facade . . . and the Pounds - Amanda's WISH Journal (comments welcome)

[brandip22]

I had the same weekend with all my food, so I understand where you are coming from. But, we are back at it today, aren't we? That's pretty impressive b/c I know a few weeks ago I would have said forget it, I can't do it. But, I can- and so can you! We are gonna be so skinny b/c we keep at it!

 

[contempgal]

June 7, 2005

Thanks Shauna and Brandi! I do hope to get fully back on track soon. I think I'm pretty close right now. It's never easy but worth it. Brandi - you are so right........before I would have just said, oh well. Now though, I want to get things right.

Forced myself out of bed this morning and rode the bike for 20 minutes followed by legs and weights.

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - lime and pineapple

Notice in yesterday's post, I didn't mention going to the grocery store. Hmmm.........I wonder why.

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup, 1 100 calorie snack pack - Chips Ahoy

It was supposed to be sunny and beautiful today but so far its just been dark and dreary. I'm not going to complain though because it's still warm and hasn't actually rained. I'm going to have to watch my scheduling this evening to see if I can get a walk in. I have to meet my mother at my sisters house a little later and then likely cook dinner. I'll see how it goes.

SNACK: 1 dreamscicles pop - sherbet and low fat ice cream, 1 small bag popcorn

I started to get a massive headache about 2:00 so I ate the popcorn so I could take some medicine to try to ward it off. I ate the dremscicles thing a little later.

I went to my sisters house after work and took DN with me. My mother was there helping to plant flowers (I so do not have a green thumb so I watched). DN was a little bit hyper and wanted to get into everything. I had hoped to go for my walk after I left her house since my BIL had said he wanted to cook dinner for everyone but of course, Mother Nature intervened. In the middle of the flower planting session, it started to rain. During one of the small breaks, I decided to take the hyper one on a small walk around DS's neighborhood. This was not a long walk since 1) her neighborhood is small and 2) it started to rain again, so I'm definately not counting it as any form of exercise.

DINNER: 1 small cheesburger, 1.5 servings potato curry with basmati rice

By the time we left, I was starving and DN was cranky so I ran through the drive through at Wendy's in case BIL wasn't done cooking. Mistake yet again. I was so hungry I ended up getting the cheeseburger. I guess the small one is better than the big bacon classic I had last week. When I went home though, BIL was done cooking and I ate 1.5 servings of his wondeful potato curry with rice.

Food choices for the day were not spectacular. Definately could have done without the cheeseburger especially. Could have been worse though so I'll take it.




Quote of the Day: "You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you cannot do." --Eleanor Roosevelt

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi Amanda!!!!!!!!!!! Glad to see that you're back on the WISH Wagon after tumbling off. I absolutely love your quotes of the day! It sounds like you're doing great!!

How are those lime jello and pineapple cuppies? Do they taste good? I didn't think that those two would work together, but whatever flips your pancakes!

Have a terrific Tuesday, Amanda!

 

[contempgal]

How are those lime jello and pineapple cuppies? Do they taste good? I didn't think that those two would work together, but whatever flips your pancakes!

They are suprisingly delicious....but admittedly, I like just about anything with pineapple in it. I've tried the orange with mandarin oranges as well and it is fabulous. I like them very much.

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi again! I like anything with pineapple too. I also love Jello (but not lime). I think orange and mandarin oranges would be awesome! I need to go grocery shopping sometime!

 

[contempgal]

June 8, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I have a new favorite flavor of fruit and gel cup - this one is awesome! Love it. I could have ate all 4 in the package but decided that wouldn't be the best idea. Still haven't gone to the grocery story. Haven't had time.

I couldn't help but get on the scale this morning.......mainly out of fear that yesterday messed up my "back on track" week. Every time I eat a burger, I feel that way. I'm showing I'm down a little over 1 pound since Sunday but I'm not counting it officially until I weigh in on Saturday.

Did I mention that this weekend is my 10 year high school reunion? I keep thinking of all those movies and shows where everyone wants to lose weight and look spectacluar at their reunion. What's so funny is that while losing weight is a huge goal for me, I've never had those feelings of having to look perfect for my reunion. I went to a very small school and was overweight when I went there, yet I was friends with everyone and no one ever made my weight an issue. I actually cannot wait to see everyone again.

LUNCH: Lean Cuisine cheese canoloni (sp?), 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

Love those cups! LOL

So I intentionally didn't take a lunch hour yesterday so I could leave early and go for my walk. My DN had called (well, he got on the phone when someone else called) and asked me to watch The Incredibles with him last night so I thought I'd get my exercise in a bit earlier than normal. WRONG. Went home at 4:15 to get my walking shoes and on cue, as I walk through the door....thunder. This, of course, was followed by a lovely storm. So, I ate an early dinner...

DINNER: 1 serving potato curry and basmati rice

Ok, so by now DN is busy playing on the front porch so I go outside with my bottle of water and wait for it to stop raining. Finally around 6:00, it looked vaguely clear so I handed DN over to BIL and went out for my walk. I walked fast, hoping to hold off the rain and decided to take the same route I did on Tuesday......the shorter distance and then the "scenic" jaunt because this jaunt is right at the end of my normal route so I could nix it if it was raining. Well, the rain held off, however I should never have drank the bottle of water right before leaving because by the time I made it the normal distance, I was dying for a bathroom. I did ATTEMPT the scenic tour but only made it a short distance before turning around and briskly walking to my car. I guess I walked abou 1.2 miles or so. I did, however, follow it up with 20 minutes on the bike and leg lifts and weight rotations (DN still only wanted to play outside).

SNACK: <1.5 servings popcorn, 5 reduced fat lemon drop cookies, 2 thin mint cookies

The downside of eating dinner so early is that you get hungry very late. We did start to watch The Incredibles --- followed by portions of the Spongebob movie, portions of The White Pony and finally, Finding Nemo, and I got a little snacky. I am ok with those snacks considering the rest of my day so it's all good.


Quote of the Day: "Goals are a preview of future events and experiences in your life." --Victor Hansen

 

[pearlieq]

Mmm...potato curry sounds so good!!!

Glad to hear you're looking forward to your reunion--it sounds like you a have it in perspective. I hope you have a wonderful time!!!

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Good luck and have fun at your reunion, Amanda-manda! I'm glad you had such good friends. Those kind of people who look for inner beauty make my heart go !

The potato curry does sound good!

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

 

[contempgal]

June 9, 2005


Wow, I woke up even earlier than my normal need to ride the bike time, so I was easily able to get up and ride.......20 minutes followed by legs and weight rotations. I still don't think the bike is doing much for me but I still feel like I need to ride it.

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I spoke to my DM last night about possibly doing a short trip to WDW in December. We've been in the spring, summer and fall but never during the Christmas season and we've been wanting to do it. She's looking into it (she actually has all of my Disney connections so it makes more sense for her to look). We try to always do a trip in September and we are this year as well but it is going to be shorter than normal. We believe that as much as DN will enjoy WDW, he will also kill us all down there so we made the trip shorter so we don't overdo it. When we go as a group, we always stay at a monorail hotel because my dad prefers them. CR is our favorite (hence the username). However, if we go in December, it will likely just be me and DM so we'll stay at a value resort. Not sure which one yet. We'll see.

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup

SNACK: 1 creamscicle bar - sherbet and low fat ice cream

About 3:00 yesterday, the skies opened up and it poured rain until about 4:30. I'm beginning to believe this is becoming a ritual........I feel like I'm in Florida. The days are pretty much beautiful and sunny and by later afternoon and evening, the thunderstorms set in. Due to this, I decided to go on my walk immediately after work. I pulled on my walking shoes and headed out to a different trail than I normally walk (the one I normally do requires you to walk across the road to get to the trail and frankly, I didn't want to deal with 5:00 traffic so I took the other route). I walked about .3 miles when it started to thunder and lightening and I decided to go back. It rained the rest of the day. Lovely.

DINNER: 2 servings aloo saag

I don't really think there is actually an Indian/Nepali dish called aloo saag but thats what BIL called it. It was delicous though - potatoes and spinach in spices with rice.

I've realized that I should probably explain my family situation a little more, since I speak of DN often and BIL from time to time but rarely mention DH. As I've said before my DH is from Nepal. I actually have known his brother, my BIL, for much longer than I've know my DH. We were great friends when I initially started college. That is, of course, how I met DH. Ever since we've been married, my DH has traveled and worked in different places. Sometimes he is home, sometimes he is in TN, sometimes MD. Right now, he is in MD. Suprisingly, this actually works for us. I tend to be more of an independent person (now, I didn't used to be) and spend most of my time focusing on DN. Now let me explain that...........A little over 2 years ago, by BIL and DN lived in MD with DN's mother. When he was 18 months old, she left him saying she couldn't handle the responsability. Shortly thereafter, my BIL contacted me in WV and we decided that I would keep DN for the summer that year to help him get back on his feet. Keep in mind that I have NO experience with children and at that time, I was pretty much living alone (DH was in MD as well and DS was staying with me sometimes). My family pulled through tremendously though and immediately fell in love with our little Pooka. After the summer, we were all very upset to see him go back to MD and it wasn't long after before BIL contacted us and said he would like to move back to WV because he needed help raising DN. He ended up moving into the basement apartment in my home. DN, however, pretty much stays with me and my family all the time. While I don't see eye to eye with BIL all the time, we have come to terms with our living in close proximity, lol. Yes, I do believe all of this is a bit strange but my primary focus is DN. My DH and his dad are all the blood relations he has in this country that actually have any contact with him so my family has become his. He even calls by DN "pawpaw" and my DN "mommy." Right now, he isn't old enough to truly question where is mother is but I know that will come in time. Luckily though, he has plenty of love around him. I do hope that explains some things.



Quote of the Day: "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

 

[TPCShauna]

How exciting about a Christmas time trip to WDW! That's when DH and I are going and I am so excited!!! When do you think you might go?

 

[contempgal]

How exciting about a Christmas time trip to WDW! That's when DH and I are going and I am so excited!!! When do you think you might go?

I don't know.........maybe the week of the 5th or the week of the 12th. I have to confer with DM some more.

Maybe if we end up there at the same time, we can meet for lunch or something! That would be fun.

 

[TPCShauna]

Ohhhhhh. It would be fun to meet but I'm not sure if we'll overlap. DH and I arrive around 10:00 am on Saturday, December 17. If you guys go that week, will you be staying that long?

 

[pearlieq]

I don't know.........maybe the week of the 5th or the week of the 12th. I have to confer with DM some more.

Maybe if we end up there at the same time, we can meet for lunch or something! That would be fun.

Hey! If you make it the week of the 5th, DH and I will be there! Either way, I hope the trip works out for you. It sounds like such a nice time to go!

 

[contempgal]

Hi Shauna and Pearlieq!

I would actually prefer to go the week of the 5th but my mother is a bit concerned since that is the week the Pop Warner thing is going on.........since we plan to stay at a Value resort (at least at this time) on that trip, we know it will be bombarded with cheerleaders and she's not too keen on that. I'm not either really but we'll see. She's contacting her travel agent today to look into options. It could be that we'll go the next week or maybe go the week of the 5th and stay elsewhere. Unfortunately, Shauna, I doubt we will be staying past the 16th. We want to try to stay within the "off season" pricing and it changes to holiday on the 17th. We're already spending so much money on Septembers trip that this one needs to be short and cheap, lol. I'll keep you both informed though.

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi and Good MORNING, miss Amanda!!!

Our trip in 06 will be a Christmas one too! I'm so excited for you, Manda! POP Century doesn't allow group bookings, so that might be the best. It'll take the overflow, but less to deal with. Whatever flips your pancakes!

Are you ready to start the day with your gel cuppie, spirit and enthusiasm? I sure hope so because it's a brand new day and it's FRIDAY!

 

[contempgal]

June 10, 2005

HAPPY 1 MONTH WISH ANNIVERSARY TO ME!!!!

So I have to admit that I'm very proud of myself. This is the first time in a very, very long time that I have committed to something and stuck with it this long. Normally, I will start a diet and quit after a few days or a week at the longest. So, this 1 month committment is truly a feat for me.

Yeah!!

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I still haven't gone to the grocery store. I don't know what's wrong with me! LOL Need.To.Go.Soon.

LUNCH: chicken finger salad with honey mustard dressing

Tiger and I must be trading food cravings here............she talked about them so much that I was craving it very bad. It was good and filling. I'll take it.

DINNER: 1.5 servings grilled chicken with cheese and bacon, 2 servings steamed veggies

Outback.......yummy.


Quote of the Day: "Your self-confidence is directly connected to how much you feel you are making a difference in your world." --Brian Tracy

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Amanda!!!! Girl, I am so proud of you!!!!! Keep going because we can't bow out now! We've come too far and I only just started re-looking good!

Keep up the awesome work and get to the grocery store!

 

[TPCShauna]

Congrats on your 1 month anniversary!

I so know what you mean about the not sticking with it thing. This is the longest I've consciously worked on a lifestyle change. Before, the longest I got was 1 week.

The good thing about WDW hotel rates is that if you begin your stay during value season, your cheaper rate extends the length of your trip. For example, Value season ends on December 19 but since we check in on December 17, we pay Value season rates for the entire length of our stay! Let me tell you what a pleasant surprise that was!!

Any time you go will be fun. Have fun planning it!

 

[goldcupmom]

One MONTH!!! AWESOME!

See, you CAN do this! ONE day at a time!

Now, go to the grocery!

(Now I know where TigerCheer got her craving for gel fruit cups )

 

[brandip22]

Way to go on the month Amanda! I know you'll be here many more months to come!