I want to get this down in my journal - I'll try to analyze it later. I just don't want to forget it.
I've been under the gun at work. I've got a major project that I'm working on, a class that I'm teaching in 2 weeks that needs some work and I had my yearly evaluation with my boss this afternoon.
I'm getting a lot of work done but I've been feeling the pressure, the urge to roll up my sleeves and work like crazy until things are done. I have a tight deadline on the next piece of this project.
I've noticed a pattern that I can trace all the way back to college. Big project + me, a master procrastinator = tight deadline. This can really get the creative juices and the adrenaline flowing, and truthfully I've always done my best work under these conditions.
However, I also tend to use junk food to help me stay energized through the work. I've had a Pepsi Edge, a pack of crackers, peanut M&Ms and a Snickers bar this afternoon!

Looking back, though, I've always done this when the deadline is looming and I push caffeine and carbs to get me through.
I truly am a computer nerd at heart.

If you've ever seen the cartoon image of a computer programmer working feverishly and single-mindedly late into the night in a darkened room with soda bottles, food wrappers and empty pizza boxes strewn around, I'm here to tell you it's true! We all seem to be that way. I'm not sure if people with those tendencies are drawn to computer work or if the computers drive us to it, but I'm not the only one like this. Ask any computer programmer you know.
So the caffeine / carb push is a comfortable routine, something that has gotten me through many a tight deadline and helped me do my best work for at least the last 20 years. No wonder it feels like I go on autopilot to the EVM when this happens. It's ingrained and it has worked well in the past.
More analysis later but I just wanted to capture the idea and then get back to work.
