'Morning all...
Hope all are at least well if not reasonably happy.
I would say that you are not reasonably happy.
Finding one's self having to deal with other folks lives is rarely a joyful experience.
You ain't the first person to wish my demise.
Not even close.
Heck, at least two of the voices in my head tell me I'm valueless multiple times daily.
Ehhh... Give it a shot.
If nothing else it'll give you a different perspective.
Actually...
That "Back on your heads" crack is just the punch line from a rather old joke that gets used frequently throughout my family.