Hey, Hi, HELLO!



Okay, so I'm back for a smidgen of an update. I've been stressed out to the max and even DF can see it. It's not even just the wedding anymore. It's the money situation and family and all of that fun stuff. My aunt has been super shady lately and not even like herself.. to the point that I don't even care if she ends up making it to my wedding or not. By the way, she's my godmother. I don't know who she is anymore but she's not herself.
My job hasn't been stable what so ever.. in case you forgot I'm a nanny. I completely understand things happen and vacations come up and such. But when I'm depending on that $350+ paycheck every week and you know I have a car payment and I'm saving for a wedding.. you can keep cancelling on me. Like today, I'm not going in until 2pm and probably will only work for about an hour. Like seriously, what's the point?! It's such a waste of a day. I love the family. I love the kids. But come September I think it's time for us to part ways. The little guy will go into preschool and the older one will be in Kindergarten. It'll break my heart to pieces.. but we can still have playdates! heh. If only the job market up here would pick up!
I also started my own little Mary Kay cosmetics business. So I'm hoping for that to pick up too and that way I can make some extra cash through that.
Okay, so back to the wedding stuff...
I returned my shoes. Decided they weren't for me. And I'm on the hunt for some new ones. But I think I'm going to wait until my dress actually comes in because that way I know how much of a heel I can get away with without having to get a hem! I've also been back to doubting everything again. But we're not going there. And I've officially stopped looking at wedding dresses all together until my dress comes in. I won't look at posts involving dresses, emails involving dresses, NOTHING.

I hate being so indecisive.
I'm debating on adding a 6th member to my bridal party. I have a thing where everything has to be symmetrical and even. And in pictures with everybody 3 couples on one side and 2 on the other? So not going to work. Nope. Not at all. So I have a few contenders in my mind at the moment..
I also finally finished my engagement party invitations! Took us about 2 nights to get them done.. my mom, myself, and DF. He was my crystallizer! It's a bit hard handling those little buggers when you have long nails! ha. So without further ado..
Sorry for the crappy quality pictures. Took them with my cell phone! ha.
I do have 2 things I need your help on though!
First I'm trying to figure out favors to give out at the party? They were originally going to be our Save The Dates, but obviously we didn't take our pictures yet so that's not going to work.
And Second, we're blowing up the picture of Buzz into a poster size to hang at the party and I'm making one up of Jessie.. I'm trying to come up with a clever saying to put on it.. similar to the effects of 'she promises to love him to infinity and beyond'. Anything you girls can come up with would be greatly appreciated!!
Oh and just a little venting to come from me now.. a friend of mine just got engaged last week. She had been dating her bf for about 5 years and has been waiting on the ring forever. I set them up by the way!

Anywho, she was super upset that I had gotten engaged before her and yadda yadda yadda. (She's a bit of a gold digger) So of course naturally, as soon as she gets engaged she's gotta blab to me about the ring and such. Her center stone is 1.2 carats and 2 carats overall for the entire ring. Which fine whatever, I'm not one to be 'mine's bigger than yours'. But what is the necessity for you to f'ing tell me that! Don't get me wrong I absolutely LOVE my ring.. especially with the sentimentality of it being my grandmother's stone now in the center.. but yes originally I wanted a 1 carat center stone. So there's no need for her to be rubbing it in my face! Gar! (DF's mom suggested getting a bigger center stone for one of our anniversaries and turning Gram's stone into a pretty right hang ring.. SMART LADY)
THEN she goes on to say that she has to get married in May or June of next year, yadda yadda yadda. I was like why are you in such a rush? 'Well I already told Shawn that once we're married I'm not working anymore and he has to fully support me. Plus I wanna get married in the Spring/Summer, blah blah blah.' Reality? She wants to beat me to the altar! Plus that girl doesn't even work now! Aoy. So frustrating!
So what do I do? I'm acting as her bestest friend. Girl you can get married first.. than I can definitely be sure you won't copy anything of mine. And what else am I doing? Sending her all of my information about certain places and helping in the planning process.

I'll be sure to know exactly what's going on.
I mean her and I used to be best friends.. I mean inseparable. But we separated for a bit due to a bit of a nasty fight and now it's more so we'll hang out on occasion. She's a sweetheart. But she's got some f'd up motives and is a bit shallow at times.
So that's that for my update for now. More Engagement plans will pop up as they come along.
By the way, the end of the month is David and I's one year!

Anybody have gift suggestions?? ha. I'm at a loss.
