Hi, everyone!
I have been enjoying reading everyone's posts, introductions, etc.
I should probably introduce myself. My name is Cam and I am 48 years old (on the downslide to 50, as my daughter would say). My husband Howard and I will celebrate our 27th anniversary this year. We have a DD23 who just graduated from college and a DS18 who just started college. I have been severely overweight since I was about 10. I remember right around that time I was 155 pounds and short - I looked like an Italian meatball. I was constantly "dieting" and even joined Elaine Powers when I was about 14. I was always the largest person in just about any setting and it severely colored my view of myself. My self-esteem was in the garbage.
When I was a freshman in college a really drunk fraternity guy said I was too fat and ugly to live, that I was polluting the earth. You can imagine how devastating that was. Looking back now, I realize that if I hadn't joined the Catholic youth organization and Christian Fellowship on campus, I would have dropped out or maybe even decided life wasn't worth living. I met Howard in October of my sophomore year and some of the problems I had in our relationship were because I couldn't believe for a second that someone as amazing as him could love someone as ugly as me. If I look back objectively, I am sad that so much of those years of my life were colored by what I thought others thought of me, and none of it was good.
Ugh. Didn't mean to go on so long. Fastforward through many happy years of marriage and having two beautiful children to February 1995 when I was diagnosed with sustained ventricular tacchychardia, which was potentially life-threatening. What was so ironic is that it had nothing to do with my morbid obesity - it was caused by an electrical malfunction in the heart. By 2005 when it became "continuous" and I had been on drugs of "last resort" to attempt to provide "quality of life" for whatever time I had left, I had my fourth heart "surgery" and was cured.
I immediately decided to start living fully, found the WISH boards, and went back to WW (I'd been many times before). I also started training for endurance races, and did the Disneyworld 1/2 marathon a year and a day after my last heart surgery. I went on to complete 7 more 1/2 marathons and 2 full marathons. Over the next couple years I lost and kept off a little over 70 pounds. In July 2009 I hurt my knee badly during a training session on the treadmill and then went on to "total" it doing the Race for the Taste 10k in Disney that October. I had surgery in December 2009 and another much more significant one in June 2010. During my couple years of injury, recovery, rehab, re-injury, etc. I put back on about 20 pounds.
So, I've done a couple of BL challenges and they have kept me from really gaining lots more, but I have not been as committed as I should have been. On September 6, I started using myfitnesspal and am LOVING how it tracks my calories and exercise as well as certain nutritional goals like protein, carb and fat grams. I seem to have found my mojo and have been completely on track for an entire week. It's been reassuring to realize I can do this. (If anyone is on myfitnesspal and wants to "friend" me, I am keenercam there, too).
I truly credit the WISH boards and my WISH teammates for helping me change me and change my life. I am a much better, happier and healthier person than I've been in my entire adult life. I'd really like to lose another 50 pounds and then I'd be relatively "thin". My doctor says that is too much to lose, but I'll worry about that when I get closer.
I am really looking forward to this challenge. I LOVE that we have such a diverse group here and that there are so many posts. I am going to try my best to keep up.