50sjayne
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Got home from a KILLER day (2 hr. delays are AWFUL!) let Beamer out of his daytime area, and noticed he looked---fuzzy. Took him outside, and went back upstairs to check. We had forgotten to put his toys back upstairs, and he had amused himself by shredding his "pee pad" into a bizzilion little fuzzballs!!!![]()
Been introspective this am, thanks to you guys. All that's going on with everyone has made me stop and think what is really important and my thoughts about them.
1. Health - that's why were are here, is for our health. So we need to buckle down, get going, and do what we can. Not for vanity - which I am guilty of - but health. Scale numbers are just numbers, but they can be tied to other numbers (bp, cholesterol, etc) that do mean something. GET HEALTHY!
2. Mental health and attitude - how much of #1. is tied into this one! Lack of sleep, motivation, healthy attitudes about food, diet, OURSELVES. I found that getting my weight down helped my mental health, but I had to get to a mental place to focus on it. TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEART, SOUL, AND BRAIN!
3. Memories - how many things are we sharing that are memories from our past, both positive and negative? They are all connected to who we are, our mental and physical health. Do we have a lot of memories about the financial stuff? I don't. Granted, I was never without a NEED growing up, which can be a HUGE factor, and I remember a few WANTS I had that I never got. Honestly, I can't tell you what I got for Christmas most years growing up. The things I do remember are the memories, and that's all that I am left with in one instance. SO GO MAKE SOME!
DH and I have really been wondering if we should cancel our HHI trip. Yes, it would be the financially responsible thing to do. There is not a lot of cost involved since we are staying on DVC points, basically just gas because we are taking food down. (Cereal, soups, sandwiches, etc). The other expense is the NYE parties for the kids. We decided that his aunt sends us money for Christmas, we'll use his for gas down, mine for gas back, and the girls' to pay for their parties. Part of me feels horrible about going, but we wouldn't take the girls' money to pay for bills, and the memories from our trip will get them through a lot. They've been such troopers, especially AK, with this whole thing. They both talk all the time about stuff we did last year there. I know, I know, I'm rationalizing this. I just felt the need to mention it, since I whine about money all the time, yet talk about this trip!
I hope the scale is good to each of you this am. I am proud to be back at maintenance weight, would love to have a good loss next week to get to the 140s, but since TOM is on his way, probably not!
HAVE A WONDERFUL FRIDAY ALL!
Taryn
I don't think you you should cancel-- you're right-- you don't remember financial difficulties-- memories are important--and Disneyland does wonders for your soul. And LOL fuzzy.
Mini-Challenge: Enjoy your favorite dairy serving and 1 other serving of dairy today.QOTD for Friday, 12/10: What is your favorite dairy product or substitute?
Cheeseespecially flavored cheese like the Hickory Farms stuff.
I think its fine for youlol just a sore spot for me right nowage has never mattered to me one way or the other but it is still such a big deal when it shouldnt be. I like my hair too and dont look forward to having to maintain a color done that before it is tiring! There is always the beauty college though lol. I certainly dont like doing it myselfany more than waxing!Originally Posted by 50sjayne
I don't know what the big deal is about grey hair anyway-- I like it. People go grey really young anyway.
I think the issue for me is that even when I was overweight, my hair was the one part of me that I always liked. So just not ready for it to be grey yet.
I dont know. The only thing that stopped me last time was being back home with my Mom. I was with my Dad in Illinois when I really went off the deep end. Then I gained a lot of weight back really quicklyand I dont want to do that. Like I said thoughId have to lose about 40 more pounds to be where I was then. The more I dont feel in control of a situationthe more I will control the only thing I really caneating and the number on the scale. Maybe I could start writing down what I eat then I can see exactly what is going on. Im really good at denial. I watched a show on anorexia awhile back and a lot came back to methe behavior patterns, perception problems----I still even now think Im too heavy that sort of thing. Ill try documenting I feel bad posting this on a weight loss boardbut Ive been here so long and its really all the same thing isnt it? Struggling with foodOk, I'm worrying about you a little. I have ana thoughts on occasion, though I've never done it full blown. Anyhow, if you are at a good place weight wise, do you need to put a plan in place to make sure you are getting enough calories?



we actually keep track of who changed the last one. And while I still teased her DH when I found out, he knows it's all in good fun.
A couple of months ago she was going on and on about how my son needed to drink more water and how if I start him on water now, he'll be less likely to have a problem drinking it when he gets older. I told her to back off at the time, but now have my son drinking water regularly 
, but the girl really knows what she's talking about
She's advised me several times on muscle aches and pains and it works! I even got her to agree to tape up my foot to help my PF when we go to WDW next month
She drives me nuts, but I love that girl!
What a great achievement! I hope you are proud of yourself, you deserve a pat on the back 
I showed up at the gym ready to work out, no need for my normal mental pep talk to quit whining and just do it, I was ready. I got about 10 minutes into the run and my side started to hurt, I continued to push, got up to 20 minutes and started feeling sick. I still didn't give up, I just slowed down, but it was a real mood crusher. I continued to push again through to 30 minutes and I started to feel sick again. So I just went into a cool down from there. Oh well. I was sweating more than I even do when I run 35 min, so I was doing something.


That's part of the reason I went to maintain. Too many scary thoughts. Please don't feel bad about sharing. We are all in the same boat.
but of course gained it back when he was better and I was eating to celebrate! But I'm still low enough to keep me happy. Guess I am kind of considering myeslf into maintenance now, although I haven't yet seen that 128 on the scale. But I'm starting to realize that maybe I will NEVER see that number. Perhaps it is just not in the cards for me. I need to be happy with the low 130's and for now, I am.
Tonight I made michael come christmas shopping with me, mostly gift cards for the older cousins, and disney gift cards and small toys for the younger kids. 4 of my niece/nephews have trips coming up, so I thought they get so much on christmas, they can have a little money to spend on a souvenir. Michael was exhausted after shopping, so I treated him to a coolata and I had a pumpkin coffee at dunkins.



I can't imagine what that poor child is going through, and my heart goes out to your friend and their family. I hope things get easier for you soon too, and your memories can bring more comfort than tears. I'm sure seeing your coworker and her family going through all this brings up the sadness of the loss of your daddy too. It is still so hard some days, and I don't know why I'm feeling so much better this year, except for that old adage that time does heal, and I do think regular exercise is making a big difference in the frame of mind too. Hang in there, girlfriend. Thanks for the support, and I am going to see onederland again in 2011, and i will appreciate any knocks offside the head when I slack.
For those that celebrate Christmas, if you want to share, please do. Kinda mine own supplemental QOTD: DO NOT READ WITH YOUNG ONES LOOKING OVER YOUR SHOULDER!!!!! As usual, have something on my mind. I was talking to a friend yesterday who has older girls, and she said she couldn't care less about it this year, the kids picked out what they want and know what they are getting, and it just seemed like she was spending money, not really into it. They still celebrate the Christian meaning of the season, which we do also, but her comments made me think about how much of my enjoyment of the holiday is wrapped around the magic of it all.
) Here's today's QOTD:
. We've done all sorts of things in my house. My parents did give us gifts from them, although often we opened them on Christmas Eve. This split up Santa and gifts from our parents nicely. My sister and I liked this a lot. Also, my parents tried to keep as many presents as possible a surprise. Some things are predictable, like our stocking usually has knee highs in it, but what's under the tree is at least 50% a surprise-STILL. Last year, we had Christmas morning on Christmas Eve morning so our parents wouldn't have to bring all of our gifts to our grandparents' house. We do open something on Christmas morning too (our grandparents get a kick out of this-again, STILL) and those gifts are a surprise to everyone except my mom, of course. I think the key is to have something that is a surprise. Actually, I'd say that Christmas has been more fun now that we know. I feel like when my parents were playing 
Add me to the list of folks who would never make it without this group for support!
Thanks for all the support that you have given me.