Beth's WW Journey. (Comments Welcome)

[kimwim8]

50 pounds!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! What an awesome accomplishment!! You should be so proud of yourself. That's certainly not an easy thing to do! You're such a positive role model for your daughter, and for a lot of us around here. You're a busy woman, and have things going on personally - but you still remain focused on living a healthy lifestyle. I give you SO much credit for that!

Have a good week, my friend.

 

[Goofydiane]

Beth -

I'm new to your journal, but need to say Congratulations on the 50 lbs! and you are an inspiration to all of us.

 

[postesf]

Hi Beth!!! Hope you had a good weekend. How did your weigh-in go?? Did you get that 50lbs at WW??? That is AWESOME!!! Congrats on that! What a great accomplishment.

Great job on sticking w/ your exercising!!! I give Amy props too! Pilates is not as nearly as easy as it looks! I wish there were more classes around here for me to take. I have the DVD, but find it hard to find time to do it.

Keep up the good work girl!!!
Stacie

 

[larry's girl]

Hi, Beth. Congratulations on the 50 pound loss - that is AWESOME! I continue to be impressed and SO PROUD OF YOU for keeping up your exercise and healthy lifestyle habits under such extreme duress! You are an inspiration to us all. Keep going - you're doing great!

Hope you have a good day!

Susan

 

[Caitsmama]

Beth -- HI GIRL!!!! Congrats on an awesome weight loss!! You go girl!!!!!!!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for coming by. I did indeed hit my 50 pound goal. I am over 1/2 to my final goal. Of course the piece of bday cake I ate today will not help me get there.

Work was crazy busy, but that was ok. I was rather hyper, so keeping busy is preferable. After work, I headed over to Sec. of State to renew my license. I was amazed. I was out of there in less than 5 minutes. I took Kate to dance, we went out to dinner, and after putting the kid to bed, I worked on some cover letters. There are a few jobs I want to apply for, but they are out of my specialty. We'll see. I am in no rush to get a new job. I did absolutely no exercise.

Jon's family gave me a couple of gift cards, so I get to go shopping! Jon didn't even bother with a card. I am not sure why I still care, but it hurt. Kate made me a very sweet card.

Tomorrow is an average day. I have an appointment with my trainer. I plan on doing 60 minutes of cardio prior to that. I need to fax a couple of these resumes. What is with faxing them, not email. I need to put away the 10 loads of laundry I did over the weekend. I would also like to clean a couple of rooms and make dinner before taking Kate to dance. I also hope to hit journals. What I really need is for the dance studio to get WiFi. I could get so much done then.

Ok, I need to get some sleep. Thanks again for the congrats. I couldn't do it without you guys. You are the best.

Take care,
Beth

 

[AmyBeth68]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETH!!!!!

Just thinking about you and wanted to wish you the best. I know things have been tough, but I really wish you the very best year ahead.

 

[postesf]

Yippeee!!! Congrats on the loss!!! That is fantastic!!

Cake...yum! Sounds so good right now. Probably not a great breakfast choice though! Hope you have fun shopping with you gift cards!!! What a great way to celebrate you 50lbs loss!!!

Keep pushing Beth! You are doing great! I'm so impressed with your drive right now! Hope you have a great workout and meeting w/ your trainer!

Stacie

 

[larry's girl]

Hi, Beth. Congrats again on your loss - half way to goal is so exciting! Great job in keeping up with your exercise. Stay strong - you're doing terrific!

Hope you have a good day!

Susan

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi there Beth, Happy Birthday!!! That is very nice Jon's family gave you some gift cards, have fun shopping!

It sounds like you are keeping busy and thats a good thing. Don't worry about that piece of cake, hey you deserved it! I hope you get some time today to get caught up. I know there is a great job out there for you, it will happen!

Just keep hanging in there, you are doing great with your food and exercise and surviving this tough time for you and Kate. The amazing example you are setting for your daughter is something to really be proud of. Think of the woman she is going to become thanks to your example!

Have a great day!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Happy Birthday, Beth! Sorry I haven't been around....I have a nasty flu bug that just won't go away.

I'm glad that you got some gift cards for your birthday. I bet you'll have a lot of fun shopping!

Keep on keeping on, Beth!

 

[momof2minnies]

Happy Bday Beth.

50 lbs. Way to go, that is just awesome!!!!

Hey who hasn't had cake for breakfast at some point?

Have a great one,
Linda

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Beth, hope this week shaped up nicely and that you can have some fun this weekend. Just thinking about you and sending out a hug your way!

Still just impressed with that 50 pounds, you are amazing!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Guys,

I am still alive. My cold ended up being pnuemonia. I am feeling MUCH better. I've been sleeping tons and not exercising. Today was the first day I took a walk. I am meeting my trainer tomorrow, but I will be up front that I am at about only 75%. No surprise that I am up .8 pounds.

I had a job offer. It would have been perfect, if Jon and I were still together. They can't give me set hours. I need to be home for Katie. I can't work until 8pm randomly. It is too bad, because I would have enjoyed the challenge. It just wasn't meant to be.

Kate and I went to dinner with friends last night. Jon went to Columbus this weekend to "hang-out with his girlfriend". I am not sure why I am not more upset about it, but I am not. Tonight, I am taking Kate to the Hannah Montana movie. It will be a LATE night, but we took a nap this afternoon. I hadn't realized it was out only for the week.

Next week is looking really busy. I have a review course for ACLS on Monday. I'll work out after. I work Tues, Wed, Thurs. I am taking a fitness yoga class on Thursday, and Fitness Pilates on Wed and Fri. I do the ACLS testing on Firday. YAY! 8 hours of testing. Woohoo! Sometime in there, I need to do my usual chores and study.

Ok, Must go listen to some cheesy music in 3d.

Take care, I'll make the rounds tomorrow.
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Beth,

I am so sorry you have been so sick, when it rains it pours. Take care of you, the exercising will come back as you get better. And .8, ain't nothin!

I avoided the Hannah Montanna thing today with dd by taking her to a more than likely inappropriate PG-13 movie instead! I cannot handle death and a annoying 3D movie in the same three week period . I hope you and Katie have fun, a girls night out is just what you both need.

Your attitude about the job is the best kind to have. There is something out there that will fit your life and challenge you, I just know it. Just hang in there, it will work out.

As for Jon hanging out with the girlfriend, you may not be bothered because maybe you are better off and know that in your heart! I have to say, women who get involved with married men just amaze me with thier combo of optimism and lack of good judgement. Oh well, you are a winner and you are surviving. I am there for you sweetie, we all are.

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Beth. Hope you're having a good weekend (Jon-free ). I hope you're feeling better after your bout with pnemonia. Definitley get lots of rest and don't worry about exercise until you feel better.

Take care, girl. I'm always here for ya!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Amy and Kim, thanks for dropping by.

Today has been frustrating. I didn't sleep well last night. Jon came home last night, and he is in love. Good for him, but I don't want the details. I confirmed that he would watch Kate today, so I could work out and study.

I went to the gym, and it felt really good to be active again. I didn't overdo it, but I burned some calories. I spent 4.5 hours studying, and called home to say I would either pick up dinner, or he could make dinner. He said he would take care of dinner. Ok, no problem. I get home, and he is all grumpy and crabby. So sorry, but I wasn't out partying. We had dinner, and I put Kate to bed. I called him up to give Kate a goodnight kiss. Oops, sorry, I didn't know he was on the phone with his girlfriend. I asked him to pack up the stuff in the china cabinet sometime this week. He gives me a song and dance about how he needs to find a job, and doesn't have time to do that crap. So much for him helping me in any way he can. I don't know why I am surprised and dissappointed. I'll just add it to the list of things I have to do.

I am feeling completely overwhelmed right now. He isn't contributing a damn thing around here. I am realizing that EVERYTHING is on me. I need to find a fulltime job, work full time, raise my daughter, maintain the house in a manner that it can be shown to prospective buyers, paint 5 rooms, reorganize it once all his crap is out of here, and maintain my health and sanity. He, on the other hand, walks away. I want to throw up. It doesn't help that he is on the phone with her right now.

I am sorry to be such a downer right now. Things just really hit me hard today. I thought doing journals would help my mood, and it did, until I chose to do my own.

Ugh, I have class at 6AM tomorrow. I need to get some rest. I'll be in a better mood tomorrow.

Take care,
Beth

 

[larry's girl]

Hi, Beth. First, I am glad you are feeling better. Pneumonia is nothing to fool around with, as I'm sure you know being in the medical profession.

Secondly, I think you have every to be frustrated and down about what's going on in your life right now. And this is a safe, convenient place to vent about it, so please feel free to do that whenever you need to - we will be here for you!

It sounds to me as if Jon has already checked out in his head. He wants to be with his girlfriend, so he is no longer concerned and has no real motivation (in his mind) to help with what is going on in real life. I am sure it is overwhelming, but all you can do is the best you can do. Remember that what goes around comes around. One day he will come to realize what a wonderful life he gave up and that he will never get back to that place again. It may take a while, but it will happen. It reminds me of one of my favorite country songs called Then What by Clay Walker. (If you're not a country fan, allow me to elucidate.) It concerns the consequences that come when someone selfishly follows a path that takes them away from their family to someone else.

Sung to a reggae beat:

Then what? What you gonna do
When the new wears off and the old shines through
And it ain't really love and it ain't really lust.
You ain't anybody anybody's gonna trust.
Then what?
Where you gonna turn when you can't turn back for the bridges you've burned
And fate cain't wait to kick you in the butt.
Then what? Whoa, whoa, then what?

So try to look at the big picture when you feel the anger and resentment looming - it will come back to him one day. As for now, take things one day at a time. Accomplish one task at a time and try to get help where you can. Do you have close friends or family that might help with the house issues? That would help to take some of the burden from you. Maybe have your daughter take part in helping to keep the house clean, with rewards earned for keeping it in tip-top shape for a certain period of time? I'm not sure what the best answer is, but I bet you can come up with something once you have time and space to think about it.

Keep your chin up, girl. You are doing great with your exercise and weight loss. Anybody who can do that while going through what you are going through has an iron will - you can do ANYTHING you need to do. I am SUPER proud of you for not losing focus and continuing to live your healthy lifestyle. Hugs to you!

Susan

 

[kimwim8]

Keep your chin up, girl. You are doing great with your exercise and weight loss. Anybody who can do that while going through what you are going through has an iron will - you can do ANYTHING you need to do. I am SUPER proud of you for not losing focus and continuing to live your healthy lifestyle. Hugs to you!

I completely agree with Susan, Beth. You are one amazing woman.

I'd have to look back, but why is Jon living with you still? (if this is too personal, feel free to not answer). He really is bringing you down, and I'm sure Kate can sense that. Ultimately, I'm sure she wants her mommy to be happy. We all do. I wish I lived closer so I could come over and help you out, girl. You have a lot on your shoulders right now, but please lean on us whenever you need to vent. Again, I wish I could do more.

While he IS around, do not feel guilty about getting out and having your time to yourself.

 

[toystoryduo]

, , and more Beth,

We are here for you, sweetie. I'm so sorry for what you are going through with Jon. I think you are an amazing woman, Beth. You are strong and you will get through this day by day.

Is there anything that we can do for you? Please let us know.

Take good care of you!