Angelrose's Journey

[BeenHereB4]

I'm so sorry AngelRose.

It takes a strong person to follow through on those wishes and I'm sure your DH appreciates it. You are blessed to have had such a wonderful man in your life as he was, and is, to have you.

 

[CookieDiva]

I am so very, very sorry to read about this.

 

[K and K's Mommy]

I am so very sorry AngelRose. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Angelrose]

He looked so peaceful today. He had had a frown on his face for so long and now it is gone. He is just sleeping. Every once in a while he will cough and his eyes will open, but I don't think he sees anything. But I talk to him and tell him how much I love him and he can rest now. Then he goes back to sleep. We had Fathers Day today. I brought my cards and Chuck brought his card. It was a Garfield card. Ron loved Garfield. It's says, "Dad, its Fathers day! And thanks to your advice, I never count my chickens until I've walked a mile in their shoes, I know the squeaky wheel gets the worm, I remember that actions speak louder than a bird in the bush, I never throw good money before my own two feet, and I always count to ten before I measure twice. And YOU thought I wasn't listening."

If you knew my Ron, you would know that was the perfect card. He would have laughed so hard at it.

I miss his laugh and his beautiful smile. I get crying jags where I scream that I want him back and it's not fair. Stupid. He's never coming back and of course it's not fair. Life is never fair. But I can't seem to stop saying it over and over again. He promised me 20 more years. But he won't be able to keep that promise. The only one he's broken in almost 44 years of marriage. That's a pretty good record, but it's the one promise I really needed him to keep.

Sorry, I'm whining again. I'll try and do better tomorrow.

 

[chell]

You aren't whining.



If he could he wouldn't break his promise.

 

[wdwiala]

Feel free to go on whining. It's ok. I know that sometimes you don't want to do it in front of others because you are trying to be "strong". Well, just let it out. It's been a sudden shock and it just isn't fair. In fact, it down right stinks. I don't think that you can get to the peace part without going through the frustration and yes, whining.

My opinion...

 

[minnie56]

God love you both. It sounds like you have enjoyed a wonderful love story and have been blessed with a dear husband and your son an icredible father. I wish and pray there could be a happy ending for you all....if there cannot be, I just pray that God holds you close and guides you through these days. When I am feeling afraid ir downtrodden I ask God to hold my hand, I wish that for you he does that and holds you tightly.

 

[terri01p]

I have not posted here but I have kept up with this thread and thought of you thoughout this day and even yesterday. I have prayed for you and your family and I don't just write that to jump on a bandwagon, I have truly gotten down and prayed for your dh and your family, what you are going though I wouldn't wish on anyone.
God is there even when you don't feel like HE is. Your thread has moved me to hug my dh closer and my children, life is so short. Hang in there as best you can...Godspeed to you all !

 

[TheBigBadWolf]

My heart just breaks for you, Angelrose. I've been crying since I read your bad news. I've been praying for you and Ron every day since the first day you posted, and I never dreamed this would happen. I'm so very sorry for Ron and your family. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless you and comfort you.

 

[Aimeedyan]

I'm so sorry

 

[DMRick]

I'm so very sorry. I have been with my husband for almost as long and I just can't imagine how you feel. Prayers for all of you as you go through this sad time.
Doris

 

[tiffsix]

AngelRose-

our family has you in our parayers. We can't tell you how awful we feel for you. May God bless you.

Tiff & John

 

[scrump]

I'm so sorry.

 

[robinb]

Angelrose, I just found your thread about your dear husband. {{hugs}} and good thoughts to you and your family. We old timers need to stick together .

 

[Mrs.Toad]

I'm so sorry. Continuing to send up prayers for you and your husband.

And go ahead and cry if you need to. You're not whining, you need to let it out. Sometimes I still cry and want my mom back, and it's been 21 years, so certainly you can do the same for your dear husband now.

 

[reelmom]

Angelrose,
I'm praying for God's love and comfort for your family through this very difficult time. Please don't ever feel like you are whining to us. We are here for you now and in the future. It helps to talk out your feelings.

 

[Shadow Dancer]

Many, many, many prayers are being said for all of you.

 

[december]

He looked so peaceful today. He had had a frown on his face for so long and now it is gone. He is just sleeping. Every once in a while he will cough and his eyes will open, but I don't think he sees anything. But I talk to him and tell him how much I love him and he can rest now. Then he goes back to sleep. We had Fathers Day today. I brought my cards and Chuck brought his card. It was a Garfield card. Ron loved Garfield. It's says, "Dad, its Fathers day! And thanks to your advice, I never count my chickens until I've walked a mile in their shoes, I know the squeaky wheel gets the worm, I remember that actions speak louder than a bird in the bush, I never throw good money before my own two feet, and I always count to ten before I measure twice. And YOU thought I wasn't listening."

If you knew my Ron, you would know that was the perfect card. He would have laughed so hard at it.

I miss his laugh and his beautiful smile. I get crying jags where I scream that I want him back and it's not fair. Stupid. He's never coming back and of course it's not fair. Life is never fair. But I can't seem to stop saying it over and over again. He promised me 20 more years. But he won't be able to keep that promise. The only one he's broken in almost 44 years of marriage. That's a pretty good record, but it's the one promise I really needed him to keep.

Sorry, I'm whining again. I'll try and do better tomorrow.

This just breaks my heart. You aren't whining-I'm so sorry for your pain. I've been with dh since I was 15. Now at 36, I can't even remember what life was like before him. Prayers for you and your family.

 

[4nana]

He looked so peaceful today. He had had a frown on his face for so long and now it is gone. He is just sleeping. Every once in a while he will cough and his eyes will open, but I don't think he sees anything. But I talk to him and tell him how much I love him and he can rest now. Then he goes back to sleep. We had Fathers Day today. I brought my cards and Chuck brought his card. It was a Garfield card. Ron loved Garfield. It's says, "Dad, its Fathers day! And thanks to your advice, I never count my chickens until I've walked a mile in their shoes, I know the squeaky wheel gets the worm, I remember that actions speak louder than a bird in the bush, I never throw good money before my own two feet, and I always count to ten before I measure twice. And YOU thought I wasn't listening."

If you knew my Ron, you would know that was the perfect card. He would have laughed so hard at it.

I miss his laugh and his beautiful smile. I get crying jags where I scream that I want him back and it's not fair. Stupid. He's never coming back and of course it's not fair. Life is never fair. But I can't seem to stop saying it over and over again. He promised me 20 more years. But he won't be able to keep that promise. The only one he's broken in almost 44 years of marriage. That's a pretty good record, but it's the one promise I really needed him to keep.

Sorry, I'm whining again. I'll try and do better tomorrow.

My heart just breaks for you sweetie . I wish I could be right there by your side holding your hand, giving you a big hug, and telling you it will be ok...but we both know it's not ok and this is the greatest test of faith ever.

I, along with so many other prayer warriors, held out for such high hopes for a medical miracle for your dear Ron. I put myself in your place and the tears start flowing....I can't imagine your heartbreak and pain...you're right... life is not always fair and we don't always know God's plan. It's ok to cry, be angry, hurt, loss and ask 'why'.....they are all natural emotions you need to express.

It was so thoughful to celebrate Father's Day early. I'm sure Ron was chuckling to himself when your DS read the card. He sounds like such a wonderful loving husband and father and I know he will be missed beyond words . You are so very blessed to have your wonderful DS, DIL and little grandchild to lean on.

Please know all your Dis friends hold you in their hearts and prayers. You are certainly welcomed to come here any time you want to vent and share your feelings and deep heartache. We all are here for you.

May God grant you and yours extra faith and strength through these difficult days.

Godspeed your dear Ron ^i^

 

[Big V]

I'm so sorry for you and your family. My prayers are with you.