My dear friends, I have some sad news tonight. The doctors told us that even if he wakes up, he will only have 40% back. Ron has made it very clear that if he cannot be 100% he does not want to go on. It is stated very clearly in his living will.
Last night Chuck, Karen and I talked about it. It was such a shock to me. I really hoped he would come back to me. But he will not. So we had to make the horribly painful decision to stop the feeding tube and remove the trach and all antibiotics. He is on a morphine drip so that he feels no pain. Now it will just be a matter of time before he passes. The doctors said he could be anytime between two days and two weeks. We all said our goodbys and told him it was OK to go and rest now. We will be together in heaven and then we will never be parted again. I told him how much I loved him and how he was the best husband, friend, and lover in the whole world. I heard Chuck and Karen crying behind me. I had to leave the room when CHuck said his goodby. I hid in the bathroom because I didn't want anyone to hear me sobbing. Chuck was crying so hard. He loved his dad so much. And so did our Karen. She quietly said her goodby to him. Then we left. We will be back tomorrow and every day until he passes. The hospital has her cell phone number so that when the time comes we can rush right over and be with him at the end. In a few days he will be in a nursing home near us which will be easier to visit for us all.
I asked the doctor if I had found him sooner would it have made any difference. He said no, that the damage was done when he fell. There was nothing more I could have done.
I want to thank you all for your support and prayers. I ask you now to just pray that his passing comes sooner rather than later. He is such a good man and I'm sure that he will be in heaven watching over us.
