He has a fever now. The nurse cleaned him up and put ice bags under each arm and a cool washcloth on his forehead. The are upping his morphine drip and giving him an anti anxiety drug. The kids won't let me stay more than an hour each morning with him. They want me to remember him they way he was. Always smiling, strong and full of fun. I agree with them. I want to remember him that way. My sweet Karen told me today that each day will be worse seeing him. I knew that, but it's still so hard.
Our life together has been so wonderful and like a fairy tale. I have to keep repeating to myself that he isn't coming home and he won't sit in his chair and we can't argue about the prices on the Price is Right. I won that one most of the time. We won't argue over who gets to do the dishes. Sometimes I would beat him and do them and other times he would beat me out. We always wanted to help each other. Every morning before he would start to do his chores, he would ask me if there was anything he could do for me. I would always say that I had a huggie deficit. He would remedy that. I just want all of you to know how wonderful Ron was.
Our son is just as wonderful. Today he took his leaf blower and blew off the whole back and front yard to get rid of all the twigs and debrie from a storm we had a few weeks ago. I helped a bit by picking up some of the larger branches and he took them in the back pile. He worked for two hours and now the place looks like it did before Ron got hurt. He is coming over again tomorrow to get the one huge branch and a smaller one to take in the back and to help me clean off the winter pool cover. He called me tonight to say that he and Karen were out doing some things and picked up a small clock radio/cd player for Ron's room. I had told him I was going out tomorrow morning to do that. They are always thinking how to make my life easier through this.
I know I am truly blessed to have had so many wonderful years with my Ron. It's just hard not to be greedy and want more.
I have also been blessed with so many people praying for us and supporting us through this. I know I say this all the time, but I truly mean it. THANK YOU!
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