Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[Amy&Dan]

Oh, I forgot to add: Its supposed to snow tonight and I won't be here!

 

[Amy&Dan]

got a 30 minute walk in today, thats all I had time for.

 

[lovinaz]

Great job getting that walk in! I agree with you, that is more important than weighing in. You also did great recognizing that you were on the road to emotional eating and you stopped it! YOU ARE REALLY MAKING PROGRESS!!!!


Have a WONDERFUL trip, can't wait to hear all about it! I'm sure the guilt of taking the kids out of school will wear off as soon as you get to the parks.

 

[pearlieq]

Goodbye snow, hello sun!

I'm thinking of you as you're winging your way to WDW today! I hope you have a ball!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hope you are having a great time in WDW, Amy!!!! Did you have the Orange Slush yet? I could use one today!

 

[traceycooper]

giving you a little bump so we dont lose you Amy
hope your having a ball

 

[pearlieq]

So it's 83 and sunny in Orlando right now.

I'm just going to sit here and be jealous, OK?

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

I hope you are having a wonderful time in WDW! Please be sure and have an extra Orange Slush for me....I could really use one today!

 

[postesf]

Amy...Hope you are having and wonderful vacation!!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well we are back home. Actually its sort of nice to be home now that we are back. We left yesterday on an 8:25 flight, omg that was not fun. We had to leave All Star Music at 5:20 only to show up at the ME stop and find out the driver had come 15 minutes early and left without us. I was furious. Naturally we got the "well ME is really not Disney, its Mears" so we had to get a cab. The ME guy there at Music said this happens all the time, so lesson learned. Get there more like 20 minutes early in case they do. I have no doubt the people at Sports and Coronado Springs got screwed up too since he was also early for those resorts. Other than that we had a picture perfect trip. Perfect weather, sort of heavy on the crowds but we had a really nice time.

Foodwise, I didn't do well at all after the first two days. Day one I started out strong. I had sugar free, ff yogurt at the food court while Dan and the kids ate like pigs, then we had Crystal Palace for dinner, I concentrated on eating chicken with the skin peeled off and lots of veggies (they had steamed broccolli and I ate a bunch of that). I just let myself sample a few desserts, taking a bite or two and then letting dh and the kids finish off the rest. So I felt pretty proud. Shared food the next day with dd primarly and again, sort of ate what I wanted and stopped when I was full. The next day however I fell apart at the Hoop Dee Doo Review and it just sort of went from there. I had way too much fried food, corn bread slathered with butter and of course washed it down with the free beer. What the heck, I had thought all along I would just live free and happy at that meal. But in true form to me, I never got back on the wagon. I started off the next morning by going for breakfast at the food court and finding out we had missed it so I was miffed and solved that problem by having chilie cheese fries. Need I say more? The worst day of all was the last day when we ate our way around Epcot with our friends. I literally felt ill. And it was hot and muggy, I was having a bad hair day and I spent the day eating too much and feeling so fat and unattractive. I hate those kinds of days. I just kept looking at all the various body shapes and thinking about how I should look like this woman, or that woman.

I had the beer at the Hoop Dee Doo and then two beers at Fantasmic, but other than that just stuck to ice tea and water. Got my water in all days and I did walk quite a bit around the resort and the parks. I gave myself 60 minutes a day for activity which I think was fair and probably even pretty light compared to what I actually did. I have no idea if I gained, I don't plan to step on the scale for a few days. My feet and fingers are swollen so that tells me I am holding some water.

We had a great time. But I realized again, that my weight really clouds my life. There we were having a wonderful, beautiful day at Epcot with friends and the feelings of being fat (caused primarily becuase I was feeling enormous guilt and anger with myself due to the way I had been eating the past three days). I thought about it on the plane ride home and realized that I need to work on the whole concept of eating freely for a day or a meal but getting back on the wagon. I tend to fall off and stay off for days, weeks, months. I had taco bell for dinner last night and again, the guilt was so not worth the taste. Today I feel on track, we'll see. Dd is home sick, woke up and barfed early this morning so I won't make the gym. My feet are so sore, I may just take this day off from exercising, get unpacked, organized and I plan to grocery shop. We are out of basically everthing so that needs to be addressed. I can't eat well if I have not healthy food to eat!

We leave again in a month. I would love to just concentrate on eating healthy and maybe lose a few pounds by then. I also think it will help we are NOT staying at a resort that has a food court. I did well the first two days but then I just lost control. Its very hard for me to make good choices when there are so many bad ones readily available. Also, they didn't have the nice healthy sandwiches in their grab and go section that the Pop Century food court did. I was counting on those so that was a bummer. They did have fruit but would frequently run out. They never seemed to run out of chocolate cake in the grab and go (had a couple of pieces of course) and the chilie cheese fries also seemed to be right there when I didn't need them! I can handle haivng had three very bad days of eating. But for a 16 day vacation, if I only do well the first two or three days and then fall off the wagon the rest, I will be in serious trouble. So I need to keep working on the emotional eating and working on my ability to portion control and think how I will feel AFTER I eat the piece of cake or the order of fries. I need to do what my daughter does! She ate about two bites of the chocolate cake they had at the food court and then said "if I eat all this I will be miserable". Yeah, honey you sure will. I ought to know.

I guess I"ll just be happy with my two good days, the fact I did walk, drank my water and only filled my mug with ice tea. Didn't have one regular soda or even a diet one the whole time.

I will get caught up with all of you guys throughout the day. Thanks for reading and keeping me on page one!

 

[Goofydiane]

Amy - Glad you are back and you had a great time! I agree, wait a few days to get on the scale and really work on flushing the water out of your system. The foods at the park are loaded with sodium which helps with that water retention. Eat a lot of fresh fruits and vege's as well to help cleanse out the system. With the heat you encountered and the amount of walking you did, you are probably low on the exercise time.

You aren't alone with how you were feeling after the food choices made, my journal has some similar comments.

 

[toystoryduo]

Welcome Home, Amy!!! We missed you around here!

I'm glad to hear that you had a great time! No worries about the food choices. You were on vacation! You're supposed to relax and enjoy. Today is a new day....Drink lots of water to flush the sodium, add some fruits and veggies to your day, and get a quick walk around the block in if you can. You'll be back on track in no time! I know you CAN do it, Amy!

I noticed that you mentioned beer in your post....Did you have an orange slush in Epcot? I can't remember if you said you'd have one before or not. I watched the Samantha Brown show again last night and saw how yummy it looks! can't wait for September!!! (Although I could definitely use one or two or three right now! )

Have a great evening WISH sis! I'm glad you're back!

 

[lovinaz]

Welcome back!

Hey, don't beat yourself up, you had 2 good days! So you know it's possible. And you know how miserable you felt after the 3 "bad" days, so try to think of that when you go next time. I bet you'll do fine.

You are right to take a day off and get the homefront settled. You can get back on track, I know you don't want to ruin all the hard work you've put in this year, so don't play those mental games. The past is done, it can't be changed, but what you do in the future is all up to you.

 

[pearlieq]

Welcome Home! You were missed!

I'm glad to hear that, for the most part, it was a nice trip. Managing two "good" days while on a vacation in Foodland is still quite a feat!

I hear you about the pitfalls of the food court. It just makes it so easy. On our last trip we stayed at POFQ and I started eating Rice Krispies and cream every day.

I'm sorry you felt so bad that day at EPCOT. It really can take the shine off the apple. I'm all for self-improvement, but you should look just like you--the you that your family loves and that your friends value. Comparing yourself to other women is just an express ticket down the rabbit hole, KWIM?

I think taking the day to relax and regroup is a great idea. The WDW bloat will pass and things will be back to normal in a couple of days. Glad to have you back!

I hope your DD feels better soon!

 

[Caitsmama]

Amy, glad to have you back!! Please don't beat yourself up about what you ate on your trip -- the trip is over, you are home, and life goes on.. come on,i know all too well how much *great* food is at WDW, it is very very very easy to fall off track a bit!! But, that's sort of what vacation is for. And you did lots of walking, so give yourself prop's for that!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks everybody! I decided to stop beating myself up (per your expert advice) about what I ate on vacation. I got back on track today (also did pretty well yesterday, but today was picture perfect on the food front). I didn't walk. To explain that, I spent ALL day yesterday getting dd caught up on her homework. I was amazed at how much she had. She was home sick yesterday and the teacher really gave her a bunch to do and it was all due the day she got back. I had decided there was no way to do that but since she was home all day we got it done. But it took all day. I was amazed at how much she had to do and that it was due the day she got back. I have to say, I am ready to be done with that school. I cannot help but think that the teacher was peeved we took dd out. She is best buddies with ds' old femal dog teacher. Who probably told her to lay it on thick. Whatever, I almost felt like we were set up for failure but we got it done. Poor kid, she was not feeling well and worked all day long. I am not taking my kids out anymore. Its just not worth it. Too bad, for some dumb reason I thought they were my kids and therefore I could do what I thought was right. Wrongo!

So yesterday doing all that work with dd meant I didn't get to laundry, unpacking or the store. So I did all of that today and never did work out. And I am okay with that. I will be able to make the challenge pretty easily and I was more intent on getting back on track with food. Got all my fruits and veggies in and realy stocked up on the healthy stuff. I got my workout clothes washed and ready to go for tomorrow.


Tracy: I did have the orange slush. At least a few sips of dh's. It tasted pretty strong and since I had a beer in Mexico earlier knew that mixing my alcohol's would be a mistake. It was tasty, I intend to skip the beer and have one of those instead next month. Spaceship Earth was good the first half, didn't like the second half. They have this sort of dumb interactive screen in the car now. My kids thouhght it was cool, I thought it was dumb. But I still love that ride!

Stacy: Thanks so much, it is so hard to do well in WDW. Food is part of the experience. And I experienced it very well this trip!

Pearlieq: Rice Crispies and Cream. Yummo! Food courts are evil but they are so tasty. I think that is what heaven will be, one giant food court!

Amy: You are right, the future is up to me. I know I can do this, I am just determined to make it happen this time!

Diane: I read your journal, we do think and act alike don't we?!!

 

[traceycooper]

Welcome home Amy
i think if you look at the positives of your trip you havnt done that bad!
lots of water & exercise & a few days on track sound pretty good to me!
Hope DD is on the mend now!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I'm sorry to hear that your DD is not feeling well and that she had so much homework to make up. I hope she is feeling much better today.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

 

[Goofydiane]

Amy - Great job getting right back into the program with the water and fruits/vege's! Laundry, grocery shopping, getting caught up is still some exercise. Not much to get the heart rate up, but you were still moving and doing something all day long. I can't remember the phrase, but doesn't some health company have a saying about go and do. Well, you went and did and that keeps your heart moving and you burned more calories doing those normal activities than you would have if you didn't do them.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks Diane, Tracy and Tracey.

I ended up sick today which blew my plan to walk right out of the water. I should have gone yesterday. Oh well, hopefully tomorrow I can be away from my bathroom for longer than 20 minutes and go to the rec center.

Today was sort of blue day. When stepdad was in Texas, he visited with my mom's best friend and her husband. She had saved about 25 years worth of cards and letters from my mom. There must have been over a hundred. She sent them home for me and I read through them today. It was fun at first (started in 1982), she also had saved some cards I had sent, including a thank you note for my high school graduation gift (1983). But then it began to make me sad. It's hard to remember my mom sometimes as she once was, these helped but then in the last few years she wrote less and finally was just signing her name. The last card was in 2005, after that with the Alzheimers she just didn't correspond much. I loved having them to read but it really, really depressed me. I think having it be a Friday, our usual day to get together just made that worse. I couldn't help but think, if not for this or that, she would still be here and we would have seen each other today. No more. Most days I feel foggy and just try to not think about it. Some days, like today it hits me and I just feel overwhelmed.

But I survived the day, didn't overeat thanks to my stomach woes and maybe tomorrow I will feel better all around. I hope so.