Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks Amy. Unfortunately, right after I updated my journal Friday night things fell apart with my food big time. First of all dd decided she didn't want to go to the movie after all, she wanted to go play laser tag with ds and his friends. I was bummed, I really wanted to have that time with her. But I told her no problem. So instead of getting a veggie wrap from the deli near the theater to take to the movie, I ended up going to Taco Bell with ds, dh, dd and ds' friends. By the time all the boys got here and we got going, it was 7:00 and I hadn't eaten since my late breakfast with my mom. Since I had walked an hour too, I was starved. Walked into Taco Bell and ordered big nachos and a taco. Great. Then came home by myself (did not want to go the fun center with hundreds of screaming kids inlcuding my own, left dh to his own devices, poor him) and had a donut and some Pringles. Why do I do that? I was sort of just bored and depressed and just fed my face. Great day gone bad in one fell swoop. Very disappointed in myself and angry at my choices. Oh well. That was Friday. Now onto Saturday:
Had a donut for breakfast after getting hardly any sleep then had some snacks for lunch. Here we go again. Managed to start slamming the water and then put the brakes on the eats. Also had two Coors Lights. Did have a very healthy, large salad for dinner. So another not so great day. Didn't work out, I was exhausted and had a food hangover. Now onto today:
Sunday:
Atkins shake for breakfast and several glasses of water. Today we are heading down to my sister's and taking her to lunch for her birthday to her favorite (and mine) Mexican restaurant. Good choices are not in abundance at this place. Its regular greasy or extra greasy. I'll do my best.

I am really mad at myself for getting so off track on Friday night and again yesterday during the day. NOthing to do but just get back on track right? And thank goodness the stupid donuts are gone! Glad I bought those for the kids. Bottom line, the kids should be able to have donuts around for a slumber party and I should be able to keep my paws out of them!

Thanks for reading.

 

[lovinaz]

Wow, we both didn't fare well with our "aloneness" this weekend. Maybe Amy's aren't meant to be unsupervised around food? I think that's it. Don't worry about it, just get back into the swing of things tomorrow. Remember, this is for LIFE and there will be good days and bad. You are getting your weight down and working out a heck of a lot more than you used to, that right there is making you so much healthier!

One trick I have learned with the kids and treats is to get them stuff that I am not thrilled with. For donuts, I don't care for the plain glazed type or jelly filled, but can't pass up the cake kind. So if the kids want donuts, they'd get glazed or jelly, NOT cake! Maybe you can find a similar compromise.

TOmorrow starts a new week. Tonight, take some time and plan out your week (dinners, lunches, breakfast) and stick to it. That helps immensely! And if you know you will be going out, make a plan and stick with it. You are slowly erasing bad habits and with some extra discipline, you can do it!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

Please don't be mad at yourself about the weekend.... We have all been there and done that! Just be sure and focus on today and do the best that you can. Each day presents a new opportunity for us to make it even better than the day before. You CAN do this WISH sis!

Please be sure and take some time for you this evening before heading into the week ahead. You're in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie. I'm here if you need me!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Amy,

I agree with what everyone is saying...don't be too hard on yourself for the weekend. I told the other Amy this must have been the weekend, I messed up all weekend long. I didn't even post what I ate in my jounal...too much. Today is a new day and a new week, you can get back on track! It's okay!

Keep up the good work!!! You are doing great

Have a wonderful day

 

[CACruisin']

First off, your friends are in my thoughts. What an awful thing to go through with a child. Here's that his surgery goes well.

Second, how come your Alz support group gets to decide what YOU are bringing for snack? Shouldn't the provider (you) get to decide?

Don't beat yourself up about your weekend. You recognized that you were falling off track and got things under contol on Sunday.

Here's to a new week!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks so much everyone. You are much nicer to me than I am!

Amy: I actually bought the kind of donuts I don't typically like. These stupid donuts were actually bought for the Alz. support meeting which nobody showed up for giving me tons of leftovers. So I thought fine, the kids can eat them for ds' birthday party. Apparently not. I had bought so many because we were expecting close to 20 ppl for the meeting and only three of us showed. I think I was just wanting to pig out and would have eaten anything, even a substandard donut I don't even like that much. Thank God they weren't Krispy Kremes or I would have eaten all of them alone. They are gone thank God. Next time I am throwing them out.

Anna: The woman who asisgned me the dumd donuts didn't show for the meeting. I seriously should have left them on her porch and let her worry with them! In November I am taking something healthy even though its not my night. I know we're all going through a lot but why pig out and be depressed too?

Tracy: Thanks for your encouragement. I did take some time to myself this weekend and scrapbooked. Its better than eating! You're in my thoughts too!

Jamie: Glad I am not the only one who had a bad weekend. Don't know if its the weather or what but I just had to struggle all weekend to keep from just losing it. Its a new week thank goodness!

So Sunday we did the Mexican food thing. Naturally I ate too much. Mostly chips and salsa wise. But I skipped the margaritas and got shrimp tacos I hardly ate any of. Not because I am dedicated mind you, but because I spilled a glass of water in my food and it was soggy! I got two shrimp tacos that I picked at. Drank plenty of water. Had one small piece of cake (scraped off most of the icing) and a small scoop of lowfat ice cream. Left the leftovers with my sis, she can eat them or throw them out! Skipped dinner due to late lunch.

The kids are out of school this week. In fact, dd is out for the next three weeks (year round schooling). I didn't walk today. I am going to have to figure this out. I am really loving my hour walks but the kids are just having fun today playing here with friends. Tomorrow I need to go somehow. My son is 12 now, I think he can stay here alone with dd. I was babysitting at 12. Later today after I finish cleaning and WISH my goal is to do Walk Away the Pounds. I am not worried about making the challenge but don't want to slack off too much. Although I have to say working out so much makes me hungrier and also seems to make me feel I have a license to eat more. Which is one reason I haven't been working out as much this go around with weight loss. For years I worked out one to two hours every day and never lost a pound but rather gained. Because I ate all the time. Food is the bigger part of my problem but I want to be active too! I need to get over my issues!

Thanks for reading. Its a new week!

 

[CACruisin']

You did a good job at the Mexican place and with leaving the leftovers with DSis! . My DD11 is out of school for the next two weeks, but DD12 is not. Makes the whole getting a walk in tough, but I need to figure it out. For me, exercise really does make a difference. No exercise = no weight loss. You'll get the food thing figured out. I know you can!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

I wanted to stop by with a gentle for you today.... I hope that you have a great week ahead. I know that you'll figure out the exercise thing... Walking has helped me so much and I know that it has helped you too. It's a great way to exercise and to help clear the mind. It's also a great time to pray!

Have a great week, WISH-sis!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you Anna and Tracy your good thoughts mean so much!

So yesterday food was a bit of a struggle due to the fact that my inlaws sent us our annual Halloween tower of treats from Harry and David. It is so sweet and naturally the kids were thrilled but it made for some tough hours for me! I stayed out of the MOose Munch until dh got home and let him eat most of it. But I did eat some yogurt dipped pretzels and some little milk chocolate halloween eggs. I honestly cannot even remember what else I ate during the day. I was constantly wanting that darn candy! I did okay and solved my dilemma by letting my kids eat that stuff all day! Seriously that was all they ate per my instructions. They were amazed and clearly thought I was nuts but enjoyed themselves! Dh came home and mowed through it too and today I am happy to report that nothing but gummy bats and jelly beans are left, the chocolate is gone, aboslutely no temptation there for me! Dinner last night (MOnday) was small helping of lasagne and some salad and one Coors Light. No exercise, water was good.

Today, Tuesday. I had an appointment with my parent's lawyer that was midday and lasted two hours. My sister called and was in the area on a call and wanted to have lunch, great since the kids and I were starved. So the kids and I met her after we were through, sis wanted pizza. Great, I cannot win lately! She also wanted to order mozzerella cheese sticks and chips and salsa. I cannot help but wonder if I was being sabotaged a bit. Who knows? I ate two of the mozzerella sticks, 10 chips with salsa and two and half slices of pepperoni sausage pizza. Got a diet coke. Came home, got on the treadmill, slammed the water and did not eat dinner. I may have some cereal before bed or maybe a ff/sf pudding. I am happy I managed to get the 30 minutes of walking in.

Tomorrow I am going to the zoo and should have no trouble getting my last 50 minutes in to make the challenge.

This has just been a tough few days with the kids home, too many meals out, two birthday cakes, lots of time with junk food loving family members and 5 pounds of Harry and David delivered to my door step. In some ways I feel like I have held my own but I know I could have done better. I am not going to WW tomorrow since the kids are home but am planning on going next week and just taking dd with me. I have no idea what the scale says, I haven't weighed in over a week and don't intend to. I really hope I can get back on track, this time of year is so tough for me and I sitll want to try to lose at least 5 pounds by my birthday to put me over 30. So much to get through between now and the end of the year but I am not giving up or giving in!

 

[toystoryduo]

So much to get through between now and the end of the year but I am not giving up or giving in!

I know that this journey we are on is hard sometimes, but it helps to keep movin' on by putting one foot in front of the other. You are choosing to do that..... Good for you Amy! This is a VICTORY my friend. Let's celebrate!

I have a question for you... What is this Moose Munch of which you speak? Is it chocolate? I've read about it in a couple of journals, but have never quite figured out what it is exactly.

Have a great day!

 

[lovinaz]

You did great considering all the temptations! That is hilarious that you had the kids eat all the goodies. They burn about 5000 calories a day, so it doesn't matter for them! You did really good by exercising and eating very little for dinner after the pizza lunch. And you portioned out the chips, which is always hard to do.

You are doing great, just look at the big picture and how many positive changes you have made!

I will have to send you a picture of Buckley with his pirate costume my stepmom sent (if I can get him to stop trying to eat the hat long enough to take a photo!).

 

[Amy&Dan]

Okay, I posted this very detailed account of my food, etc and lost the whole thing when my computer mysteriously shut off! . So now I am recapping briefly: Food was better yesterday than today. I had a salad at the zoo with dressing on the side but ate a pancake and four cookies for dinner (lowfat cookies at least and they were small). Have been doing oatmeal for breakfast. Made fried chicken today as I was stuck inside during our blizzard (at least six inches at my house, my sis got 18). It was skinless at least. Walked at the zoo yesterday but no exercise today. I miss my walks. The weather and the kids being home (dh was home too working today which drove me nuts) is just wreaking havoc with my scheudle. This weekend is supposed to be nice so I need to walk both days. DD still has two full weeks off from school but she is happy to bike while I walk providing we don't get any more major snowstorms! Really hoping to make my ww meeting next Wednesday and see what I weigh, no idea basically. Thanks for reading, my other post was better, sorry!

Tracy: Moose Munch is kind of a carmel corn with dark chocolate peanuts as well as glazed almonds and cashews. Its evil and hard to resist and I hope I don't get anymore delivered to me for quite some time!

Amy: I have to see Buckley in his costume!

Thanks for reading!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

I was thinking about you yesterday while watching the news... I can't believe that there was a blizzard in October already. I hope everyone is doing well out your way.

This Moose Munch stuff sounds really good! I can understand why you don't want to keep it around your house. Sounds like it could be a real diet buster.

I hope you have better weather this weekend so you can get out and walk. It's supposed to rain here most of the weekend so I don't think I'll be able to get my walks in.

Have a great weekend, WISH sis!

 

[lovinaz]

I know what you mean about getting your schedule all out of whack. We really are creatures of habit! But I guess that is something we all need to deal with, and learn to not let it mess us up too much!

I will try to get those Buckley pix uploaded this weekend.

Great job getting that walk in, I hope the weather cooperates and you can walk as planned this weekend!

 

[SunFloridaDisney]

Hi Amy!

You said it - don't give up! You can do it, and hope the exercise works out. Hard when you have to deal with snowstorms!!! I HATE winter!!

Have a good weekend.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks so much everyone. Kate, winter is hard! It was 60 degrees yesterday but the sidewalks are still icy in spots so I didn't do my walk as planned. Why the city can't get out and shovel the common walks on the greenbelt I walk is beyond me. And most of my neighbors didn't bother to shovel either. There are tree limbs all over to boot. I hate these fall storms! 60 degrees should be prime walking weather. Today I go on the treadmill come what may. I hate the treadmill and for some reason it kills my knees and hips (walking outside does not, no idea why) but its better than nothing. I can only handle 30 minutes but again, 30 minutes is better than nothing.

Food the last few days has been okay. I bought my Halloween candy last night and ate 4 pieces of chocolate. I had pizza and salad for lunch and drank my water. Friday was so so. Dh and I had a date night but decided to skip a big, expensive dinner out and had some chips and queso at home by the fire. It was a nice evening and even with eating a bit of junk and having two Coors Light's it was less calorie wise than if we had gone out. And it saved me some money in the process!

I need to adjust my attitude about this whole thing. The walking outside was really helping me. Its disappointing to still not be losing any weight (I still havent' weighed in at least three weeks). I need to weigh this week. Wednesday, the day after Halloween is my usual day to go to WW. It will either keep me legal on Halloween or be a disaster post candy craze, who knows! I just can't afford to gain my usual 10 pounds over the next two months. I was hoping to lose 17 pounds now I'll be happy to maintain or lose maybe 5! In some ways, I am actually looking forward to January.

I am trying to focus on the good. I weigh 30 pounds less than I did one year ago. I have lost over 25 on WW and about 5 on my own before that. I never count that initial five I did on my own, maybe I should! 30 sounds better than 25 right? I am exercsing with some regularity. I have this WISH board which keeps me accountable. I have only two pairs of jeans that fit becasue the other five pairs are in my garage waiting for ARC to pick them up. I no longer binge for the first time in over 20 years. The McDonald's drive through guy thinks I am dead because I haven't been to see him in so long.

I think knowing that I can't make my 42 by 42 goal has made me discouraged and ready to give up. In some ways I am evaluating the value of setting these goals for myself. Do they help or hinder? Is it enough to just keep doing my best, go to WW and see what happens? I must say the vast majority of regulars at my WW meeting are right where I am at. Down some, not enough but not ready to throw in the towel. There is one gal that started when I did that has lost 45 pounds God Bless her. I wish it was me along with her but I can't undo what I have already done or not done.

Surviving the holidays is my new motto! Thanks for reading my random thoughts, I really need to get disciplined and start counting the points and posting my daily food totals on here. Always something new to aspire to!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Okay, I went on my walk late this afternoon. When I went out this morning early many of the sidewalks were still icy (I hate ice) but since it got near 70 they melted! I really didn't feel like going, was way more in the mood to watch HGTV all by myself with a big bowl of Halloween Candy but I went and actually felt great and enjoyed it. Its been over a week since I walked outside.

Food today (Sunday):
Breakfast: Atkins Shake
Lunch: Quiznos, small Italian, bag of chips, diet Pepsi.
Snack: Four snack size Halloween candies. I am telling you, the last kid at my house Tuesday night is getting whatever is left in that bowl in his/her bag!
Dinner: Not hungry, may just skip or have cereal.

 

[CJK]

I SOOO understand how the cold weather can put a real damper on your walks outside. CONGRATS on walking today!! I didn't do that today and used the excuse that it was too cold and that I was too tired. I should follow your lead!

You know - you've been faced with unbelievable temptation and remember that you're doing better than you were a year ago. DEFINITELY think about the 30lbs and not just the 25. That's a tremendous accomplishment.

I like your plan for Halloween. That chocolate can be deadly. Dh just happens to LOVE Halloween candy so he bought a disgusting amount of it this year. I hope we get 500 kids!

I like your motto! We'll survive the holidays together! Have a fantastic week!

 

[lovinaz]

Yay for getting that walk in!!!!! It is so tough when the weather doesn't cooperate. At least you have the treadmill as a backup. Try doing some different settings (hill, no hill, etc) to see if that helps you not be so sore.

Remember, your goal is a goal, that's it. If you don't make it, WHO CARES! It's something to strive for, but the world will not end if you don't make it. You are doing really good (put that Halloween candy out of sight!) and you need to give yourself credit for that. Heck yes, count that other 5lbs! You lost it, even if it wasn't on WW. It's still gone!

We'll get through the holidays together, don't worry about it! Just keep your portions under control and you'll do fine.

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

Do I see a move to Florida in your future? Falls and winters make it hard to get our walks in don't they? Brrrrr!

I know you're frustrated with the scale right now... Just remember how much you have accomplished..... You've lost 30 pounds, you are exercising, and eating healthier. That is wonderful, Amy! This journey can be hard sometimes and yes, we will slip up, but you know what Amy? We are all in this together! We are here cheering you on to VICTORY because we know that you CAN do this! We will get through the holidays together and who knows..... maybe we'll lose some weight to boot!

Hey WISH sis.... when are you and your family arriving at WDW? I was wondering if we would have a chance to schedule a quick WISH meet since we'll be in the world around the same time. That would be cool to meet y'all in person!

I hope you have a great week!