I keep typing this message over because I do not know how to share this.  I am, for the most part, a private person. My birthday present to myself was a mamogram.  I wish I could return it because I do not like the results.  I am sharing this because I do not know what my future holds or if my plans will change.  I realize it may have an effect on others traveling with the group.  I can barely type this without crying, 

 which I have done a lot of these past couple of days.  I have another diagnostic test on 10/16. 

  If I will not be joining you, I will do my best to let you know ASAP.  
I really need to finish my trip report, but I have not had the desire since I cam back.  I will try to force my self to post it (thank goodnes I wrote it everyday onboard) and add the pixs.
Please bare with me and forgive my future abscence.