When Did I Get Voted Off of Skinny Island & Why is This Fat Shadow Stalking Me?

[CrabbyYetLovable]

Reset Day 4:

Hmm... going ok I guess. Today and yesterday were really rough at work. I totally wanted to just come home and gorge myself. I'm definitely an emotional eater! However, I stayed strong and refused to let them have control over me. Also, since its the end of the semester, we had a potluck today for the interns who are leaving the place where I work. I COMPLETELY avoided the room where the food was. Sooooo difficult. They had all the good stuff, pizza, tacos, brownies, everything! Ugh. Didn't really have a plan for the afternoon, so I wanted to munch most of the afternoon. Oh well, I did my best.

So day 4 of this reset, I'm still doing the three shakes a day, and one serving each of fruits and veggies. I really dislike the bars I'm supposed to be eating, so I'm substituting an additional serving of fruits or veggies if I get hungry. Oh, and drinking about 80oz of water. Its supposed to be a high-fiber reset, so hanging out in the bathroom a lot!

I did have a massive craving for cheese tonight, of all things. I actually gave in and allowed myself to have one small slice. Ohh man, it was worth it!

Dawn - I was thinking about tracking my food as well, I could try to do it on an online forum. This week I began a handwritten journal just to keep track of things, maybe putting it online for others to see will help with accountability??

One more day left! Will I make it?? I'll go to my friend's house to weigh myself on Saturday. I'm afraid to buy a scale because I think I'll be on it everyday! On the plus side, I took some measurements on Sunday, and then just for kicks checked again today, and there is a difference!!! Will let everyone know the official results either Saturday or Monday!

 

[CrabbyYetLovable]

The power is out in the area. I called my dad and asked if he could bring over the generator. It is kind of loud outside for the neighbors but inside we have lights, TV, Satellite, Internet and refrigerator. (I just found some EXCELLENT sugar free, fat free, 16 calorie popsicles at Sam’s Club, and I was worried they would melt.)

I do have the bored munchies. I feel like a bottomless pit. I think I will just go to bed so tomorrow can be a better day!

I have those bored munchies waaay to often! Looks like I need a hobby! What kind of popsicles did you find? Sam's brand?

 

[njcarita]

well I really tried to concentrate on non eating activities with friends and family this week....

I usually go out to eat once or twice a week with the girlfriends ... decided this week to meet at the our local coffee shop after my morning walk instead....
instead of my usual sugar and cream laden decaf coffee.... ordered decaf tea black no sugar... tried a lovely mango tea... had a really lovely time chit chatting instead of shoving food in my face.....

and my husband and I have been going out once a week.... decided no more dinner dates... last night we walked over to the local ball field and watched the end of a ball game and than walked thru town.... relaxing and free....

this saturday I have 2 parties to go to.... a cinco de mayo and a family pot luck..... trying to figure out what my stradegy will be....

 

[GaRain]

Not a good week for me here. Mom was back in the hospital after having some bad reactions to the meds after her surgery. And of course all this happened when my dad ran to the office - she 911 was called....ugh!
I hate it that I work so far from home...
So, my schedule has been all messed up - no gym time and too many "on the run meals".
I did have a chance to get on the Wii the other night and the good thing was that I have not gained anything - no loss, but no gain is good.

Mom is home from the hospital and doing ok now. I hope I have some time to go to my classes at the gym this weekend - hate being a weekend warrior!
Must concentrate on that fluid intake!!!

Hope you all have a wonderful mother's day weekend!

 

[Dizneydawn]

I might see how it goes and if we have tons left, do another in a while. That was me as well.

Are there alternatives for things like ketchup? Some organic ones do not have it - you really need to just plan on a few hours at the grocery store. Once you know what you can buy - it gets quicker later. It is in everything. Spaghetti sauce, pasta...everything. Sometimes it is hidden 20 items down but read all the way through the labels.

If you ever listen to FM 107.1 on Sat. Mornings - they have people from Nutritional weight and wellness on for an hour - they preach if you do nothing else - get that cr@p out of your shopping inventory.

well since I just joined... heres my info

First Name and Screen name: Cary njcarita
Food that you Find Hardest to Eat in Moderation: cheese Me too!!!!

What Your Goal is For Yourself when you get to Skinny Island: I want to enjoy looking at my next disney vacation pictures of myselfYou could write my biography!!!
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I'll be (one of) your huckleberry(s)!
Alright!!!!
I'm tracking daily and with my bugg it is more important than ever to track what goes in my mouth. No point knowing what's going out if you don't know what's coming in.
Great insight!!!!

Hi Dawn, I sent you an email. let me know what you think.
I will!
Went to dinner last night for Cinco De Maio, had myself chicken fajita and 3 glases of ice water with lemon in it. Did not touch the chip or have dessert. Then went home and walked for 20 minutes. I felt so good!

Great job!!! You should be proud of yourself!!!

I haven't posted in a while and I am sorry for that.
I am so glad to see you here!!!
I found that I was slipping back into my "old ways." I need to get refocused on what I want out of this weight loss journey and realize that that bag of chips or box of crackers will only leave me full for a short time. A healthy body and lifestyle will keep me full.
As of Monday, I am only allowing myself 1 Diet Coke a day(I was back up to atleast 3). I have increased my water and am hoping to see results on Saturday when I weigh myself.

Sounds like you and me and a ton of us are in the same boat. Once you slip so easy until you really are in the groove to slip up and then hide away from the damage.

This is my biggest problem. I had my best weight loss when I had a diet buddy/co-worker. We would compare notes each day and spill the beans on how good/bad we did. I'm IN! I'm tracking on SparkPeople right now, but would be willing to switch to something else if its easier.
I do it there as well - I just need to post it here each night, and re-cap my day. If I post it here at night, maybe it will help me know that I am done eating, or plan out my food for the rest of the evening that I still have room for.
Did she get a short or long dress? Hopefully she can at least hide the bandages. It will make for interesting stories later in her life.
Short dress.

My thought was that it would keep my hands busy... from filling my mouth!

Actually, several years ago I made a Christmas tree skirt as a gift. I worked on it every night. I didn't snack for weeks while I worked on that. I lost weight even though at the time I didn't need to.

I need to make new Christmas stockings...I do not sew much but I can sequin the heck out of anything!!!

yes, I'd like to track. need ACCOUNTABILITY!!
Alright!!!!


(I have determined that when people say things like that it's code for "OMG you're fat and I can't help myself from commenting on how you look so I'll go with something nice about the color you're wearing")
You are a riot! I totally wonder what the innuendo is always even if there is none!!!

I do have the bored munchies. I feel like a bottomless pit. I think I will just go to bed so tomorrow can be a better day!

I am so tired at night - 9 p.m. bedtime lately!!! It does prevent the 11 p.m. munchies!!! You are spot on!

Oh well, I did my best.
Good for you!!!
Dawn - I was thinking about tracking my food as well, I could try to do it on an online forum. This week I began a handwritten journal just to keep track of things, maybe putting it online for others to see will help with accountability??
I hope you will join in that!!

well I really tried to concentrate on non eating activities with friends and family this week....

and my husband and I have been going out once a week.... decided no more dinner dates... last night we walked over to the local ball field and watched the end of a ball game and than walked thru town.... relaxing and free....
Awesome!!!!!!

So, my schedule has been all messed up - no gym time and too many "on the run meals".
Do the best you can with what you are handed! I hope your Mom gets better.

Hope you all have a wonderful mother's day weekend!

You too.



I will post my ideas in a bit and the weight loss tally from Monday.

MADE IT TO THE Y AGAIN!!!! 5 days in a row for me!!!

I am going to start walking on weekends with Dan - take a chlorine break for my hair and get ready for this lazy man's triathlon!!

 

[adsrtw]

Hi everybody!

I subbed to the thread a while ago since I had joined Dawn's previous thread. I can't sit back without commenting any longer. This is not a personal attack at all. I just can't stand to sit back and without speaking any longer.

Dawn, many of us on the Goddess thread have given you tons of helpful hints in the past, but it seems like you don't want to accept that weight loss requires a sincere change. I read a few pages back that you looked like you had to parts of female anatomy. Instead of posting about wanting to change - do something about it. You have been talking about it for as long as I have been on the Goddess thread (about 1 1/2 years). How long are you going to continue to talk about your weight and not take steps to change? It saddens me that you are still struggling, but it is in your hands.

A healthy pace for losing weight for me has been 1 - 2 lbs per week (Yes, I do admit that some people naturally lose weight faster). What helped me the most was following a diet with quality protein and whole grains, along with lots of veggies. I did watch my calories and fat grams. Yes, water intake is important, but it isn't the end all be all. Movement and dietary changes. I'm not talking about signing up for the next half marathon in your area. That requires training, but 30 minutes of movement here and 20 minutes of movement there adds up.

I hope all of you find a plan that works for you and gets you to your goals.

 

[officereg]

Hi everybody!

I subbed to the thread a while ago since I had joined Dawn's previous thread. I can't sit back without commenting any longer. This is not a personal attack at all. I just can't stand to sit back and without speaking any longer.

Dawn, many of us on the Goddess thread have given you tons of helpful hints in the past, but it seems like you don't want to accept that weight loss requires a sincere change. I read a few pages back that you looked like you had to parts of female anatomy. Instead of posting about wanting to change - do something about it. You have been talking about it for as long as I have been on the Goddess thread (about 1 1/2 years). How long are you going to continue to talk about your weight and not take steps to change? It saddens me that you are still struggling, but it is in your hands.

A healthy pace for losing weight for me has been 1 - 2 lbs per week (Yes, I do admit that some people naturally lose weight faster). What helped me the most was following a diet with quality protein and whole grains, along with lots of veggies. I did watch my calories and fat grams. Yes, water intake is important, but it isn't the end all be all. Movement and dietary changes. I'm not talking about signing up for the next half marathon in your area. That requires training, but 30 minutes of movement here and 20 minutes of movement there adds up.

I hope all of you find a plan that works for you and gets you to your goals.

Wow...

 

[MulanUSAF]

I haven't checked in since Monday because I've been feeling like crud. My brother came home with some virus that's been going around his school and thoughtfully shared it with me as well. So we've been a pretty miserable pair this week, he has AP exams and I have finals. Bad timing, but not much we can do about it except suck it up and take those exams.

I haven't been to the gym either and my blood glucose readings have been higher than normal since I've gotten sick. I'm feeling better today, either from the relief that exams are over for me or the virus has run its course. But either way, I will be hitting up the ellipticals tonight. I find that if I do them when "Jeopardy" and "Wheel of Fortune" is on, the 60 minutes fly by a lot quicker! Thank goodness this gym have little TV screens on every machine.

Gellybean, I read your post about pregnancy and diabetes. It's a tough pill to swallow isn't it? I have the same concerns even though I'm not married or intending to have kids anytime soon. But I do feel that's just an extra motivation to keep my body as healthy as possible so I have the option of having babies one day. I tell myself that I would be kicking myself so hard if I want to have kids, but couldn't because I didn't have the willpower to exercise or stay away from bad eating habits. I also have an appointment coming up in June to check my A1C and other stuff. I'll share my results when it comes out, hopefully it'll be a significant drop from my numbers in February when I was diagnosed.

Everyone else, I hope y'all are doing well and have a great weekend! But don't fall off the wagon or you will be doing the walk of shame to the scale on Monday!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Dis Name Name Total Loss
Dizneydawn Dawn -0.2
Grumpyyoungguy Dan -1
Stitchfan23 Heather -15.3
Stacybaeasm Stacy -12
MulanUSAF Leen -12.9
gellybean Aimee -4.6
Leash Alicia ?
MNdisneygirl Sheree -5.5
luvsJack Sharon -11
PixiePlanner Jessica ?
Shellabell Michelle -5
ski_mom Becky -7.5
eliz 991 Elizabeth ?
ancestry Allison -20
Hanutedmansionmommna Michele -4
Duchie Barb -18.3
Anna114 Anna ?
adnilele Danielle -1.5
Mom2Faith Amy -2
tlenzendorf Tricia -1.6
CrabbyyetLovable Amy ?
albertamommyof4 Tammy -5
peacemickeylovers Lisa -5
njtinkmom Gina ?
GoofyWife Sue ?
LittlePeppers Jennifer Gone 3 weeks
officereg -4
zoegirl Bree -0
njcarita Cary starting

Total loss 136.4


Congrats to ancestry for being the first 20 pound loser!!!!

 

[ohMom]

hey i didn't realize this was such a great big group of "Losers"

this is a PA to remind everyone that WISH is a place for support, encouragment and inspiration. I take the integrity of the WISH board seriously, in knowing that these positive actions can and do make positive impacts of the lives of fellow disboard'ers. please respect the spirit that is intended....

 

[njcarita]

Dis Name Name Total Loss
Dizneydawn Dawn -0.2
Grumpyyoungguy Dan -1
Stitchfan23 Heather -15.3
Stacybaeasm Stacy -12
MulanUSAF Leen -12.9
gellybean Aimee -4.6
Leash Alicia ?
MNdisneygirl Sheree -5.5
luvsJack Sharon -11
PixiePlanner Jessica ?
Shellabell Michelle -5
ski_mom Becky -7.5
eliz 991 Elizabeth ?
ancestry Allison -20
Hanutedmansionmommna Michele -4
Duchie Barb -18.3
Anna114 Anna ?
adnilele Danielle -1.5
Mom2Faith Amy -2
tlenzendorf Tricia -1.6
CrabbyyetLovable Amy ?
albertamommyof4 Tammy -5
peacemickeylovers Lisa -5
njtinkmom Gina ?
GoofyWife Sue ?
LittlePeppers Jennifer Gone 3 weeks
officereg -4
zoegirl 0

Total loss 136.4


Congrats to ancestry for being the first 20 pound loser!!!!

wow congrats to all the losers...
do we email u or pm u weights???
I emailed u this morning my last Monday starting weight... since i just joined the thread

 

[Dizneydawn]

wow congrats to all the losers...
do we email u or pm u weights???
I emailed u this morning my last Monday starting weight... since i just joined the thread

I found it! Added you to the list!!!

PM me on Mondays please...we found it was easier!!! So glad you are here!!!!

 

[Stacybaeasm]

Hi everybody!

I subbed to the thread a while ago since I had joined Dawn's previous thread. I can't sit back without commenting any longer. This is not a personal attack at all. I just can't stand to sit back and without speaking any longer.

Dawn, many of us on the Goddess thread have given you tons of helpful hints in the past, but it seems like you don't want to accept that weight loss requires a sincere change. I read a few pages back that you looked like you had to parts of female anatomy. Instead of posting about wanting to change - do something about it. You have been talking about it for as long as I have been on the Goddess thread (about 1 1/2 years). How long are you going to continue to talk about your weight and not take steps to change? It saddens me that you are still struggling, but it is in your hands.

A healthy pace for losing weight for me has been 1 - 2 lbs per week (Yes, I do admit that some people naturally lose weight faster). What helped me the most was following a diet with quality protein and whole grains, along with lots of veggies. I did watch my calories and fat grams. Yes, water intake is important, but it isn't the end all be all. Movement and dietary changes. I'm not talking about signing up for the next half marathon in your area. That requires training, but 30 minutes of movement here and 20 minutes of movement there adds up.

I hope all of you find a plan that works for you and gets you to your goals.

Wow. This is NOT ok. First, it IS a personal attack. The second you call someone out by name and ONLY talk to that person, it IS personal. You can try to cover it up however you want, but what you have done is attack Dawn. And that is NOT ok with me.

Second, this post is the exact opposit of what this thread is about. We don't cast blame, point fingers, or compete with each other. This thread is about SUPPORT. We struggle - sometimes we succeed, sometimes we fail. Regardless, this is a SAFE PLACE for people to talk about all of it. Do we all want to be thinner and healthier? Sure but we won't always succeed at everything. Life can and does get in the way and we need a place to talk about it and get support. I'm glad that you have been so successful at losing weight but if you try to tell me that you never hit a plateau in your weightloss, never got derailed a little bit, never struggled for a single second with it, I will call you a bold-faced liar. I have no problem saying that I have been on every diet on the planet. I have "started over" at least once a year to make the journey. I am more committed now than ever before and it's because I have this thread to come to - a place to share, laugh, celebrate victories, comiserate set backs, and talk about life. And if you, by posting your attack, have ruined that, my life will be much sadder for it.

There are people on this thread who are shy, who are struggling, who have a tough time talking about the fact that they are overweight. There are people on this thread who are going through some very serious things in their lives and need a safe place to talk about it and get support of people who, even though they haven't met face to face, are friends. To all of those people, I say - DON'T LET THIS POST SCARE YOU AWAY. This is one person, from another thread, who has come on here and is judging people. That's not the way we work. I don't judge anyone here. I celebrate the fact that Ancestry has lost 20 pounds. I comisserate with all of you who posted about the bored munchies the other day. And I'm making a firm stand right now that the above post does not belong on this thread.

ADSRTW - whoever you may be in real life - go back to your mean girl life. Unless you can be supportive and non-judgmental, you do not belong on this thread. I wish you and the rest of the goddess thread continued success in being healthy and thin but I don't want any part of the harsh judgement I feel coming from you. And Dawn - you just keep on with what you are doing. I love you and I support you - just as I support everyone on this thread. Together, we are strong and can accomplish anything.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Wow. This is NOT ok. First, it IS a personal attack. The second you call someone out by name and ONLY talk to that person, it IS personal. You can try to cover it up however you want, but what you have done is attack Dawn. And that is NOT ok with me.

Second, this post is the exact opposit of what this thread is about. We don't cast blame, point fingers, or compete with each other. This thread is about SUPPORT. We struggle - sometimes we succeed, sometimes we fail. Regardless, this is a SAFE PLACE for people to talk about all of it. Do we all want to be thinner and healthier? Sure but we won't always succeed at everything. Life can and does get in the way and we need a place to talk about it and get support. I'm glad that you have been so successful at losing weight but if you try to tell me that you never hit a plateau in your weightloss, never got derailed a little bit, never struggled for a single second with it, I will call you a bold-faced liar. I have no problem saying that I have been on every diet on the planet. I have "started over" at least once a year to make the journey. I am more committed now than ever before and it's because I have this thread to come to - a place to share, laugh, celebrate victories, comiserate set backs, and talk about life. And if you, by posting your attack, have ruined that, my life will be much sadder for it.

There are people on this thread who are shy, who are struggling, who have a tough time talking about the fact that they are overweight. There are people on this thread who are going through some very serious things in their lives and need a safe place to talk about it and get support of people who, even though they haven't met face to face, are friends. To all of those people, I say - DON'T LET THIS POST SCARE YOU AWAY. This is one person, from another thread, who has come on here and is judging people. That's not the way we work. I don't judge anyone here. I celebrate the fact that Ancestry has lost 20 pounds. I comisserate with all of you who posted about the bored munchies the other day. And I'm making a firm stand right now that the above post does not belong on this thread.

ADSRTW - whoever you may be in real life - go back to your mean girl life. Unless you can be supportive and non-judgmental, you do not belong on this thread. I wish you and the rest of the goddess thread continued success in being healthy and thin but I don't want any part of the harsh judgement I feel coming from you. And Dawn - you just keep on with what you are doing. I love you and I support you - just as I support everyone on this thread. Together, we are strong and can accomplish anything.

Hi Stacey--

I totally get why you interpreted this post as attacking. But honestly, it wasn't meant that way. I know adstrw (as in, we have met and hung out in person). She is my friend and my teammate and I know she isn't a mean-spirited person.

Here's the thing. Dawn started our thread, too. It is a hugely successful thread. 2.5 years and counting. And almost all of us have had HUGE success. Without question, Dawn knows how to start a successful thread. From her trip report threads, to our thread, to your thread, they are all a hit. No question there at all. And because we have been together for so long, I understand the spirit of adstrw's post. Team Goddess--which was started by Dawn, worked SO SO SO hard with her. For years. And it is hard for us to see her still struggling. We recognize the pattern as we have seen it repeat time and time again. It is not that we blame her at all. Or find fault. We have ALL had setbacks and have had to start over (as you mentioned). Not one of us is perfect, even though we have all reached amazing heights.

The thing is, we all reached our goals and the person who started our thread did not. If anything, we feel like we have somehow failed Dawn. And I swear, I personally tried everything I know. I was supportive. And provided an ear for listening. I was informative and provided information. I was hard core and provided tough love. Anything that I thought might help. And I think that is what my teammate was doing here. It is SO hard to sit back and watch someone make the same mistakes and/or excuses over and over again--and as adstrw said, she just didn't feel comfortable sitting on the sidelines anymore. She felt she had to say something...maybe something would get through.

In fact, on our first night at Disney, when Team Goddess ran the Princess Half together and we were at our first dinner all together at Kona, we all raised our glasses to Dawn in a toast. Because had she not started our thread, we would not have gotten to know one another online, we would not have succeeded together, and we would not have been where we were--ready to run a Half Marathon.

Our WISH is for everyone one on WISH to achieve their dreams and reach goal and be happy and comfortable with who they are. We have been at rock bottom. We know how it feels. And more importantly, we know how it feels to overcome and succeed. And once you have that amazing feeling, you want to share it with everyone!

If it sounds like I am defending my teammate....I'm not. She is more than strong enough to defend herself. But I am also not leaving her alone here. Because she is my teammate. It's like that old cliche...imagine that you find yourself at the bottom of a deep hole. A good friend will stand at the top of the hole and help you find a way out. But your best friends will jump down into the hole with you so at least you aren't alone. So I am jumping down into the hole with adstrw. Because that is what it means to be a Goddess.

 

[grumpyyoungguy]

To All--

As a person who once was at 586 pounds, I can tell you I yo yo'd many times. I now weigh around 336 pounds. That is not my goal weight and I struggle with my mental and physical position in life. I have been overweight for 30 plus years and never mastered the goal weight for myself.

If that some how concerns the folks reading this, then I say thank you for your concern. Some comments are and can be considered hostile. I for one do not appreciate the "tough love." Quite the contrary. I am a person who will rebound and fight. I will do exactly the opposite to what you say to prove that you will not control me.

Nobody understands my whole life and I do not undertand anyone elses.

Therefore since none of us understand everything about everyone's life I suggest we simply offer positive reinforcement and go no further. If that is too much for someone to handle (being positive) then I suggest you say nothing at all.

Thank you.

 

[Stacybaeasm]

Dan, I just saw your signature and the October dates but it says "couples only". Good grief! Does this mean, in addition to doing the STAGES season, losing weight, and trying not to lose my mind, I have to somehow find a significant other before I can meet up with you guys in Disney???? Oh gracious - I don't know if I can handle the pressure. I mean, I haven't found prince charming in the last 39 years. Do you really think he is going to show up in the next 5 months????

 

[Dizneydawn]

I am going to respond to a few things and then, will simply ask for this to be dropped. I did not ask for my life, my weight loss journey success and failure to be the topic of debate and or pointed testimony.

In response to the original post today that was directed towards my lack of success in my weight loss journey I will say this.

I am well aware I have not lost the weight I have wanted to lose for not only the past few years but since 1998.

I do not need anyone to point out I have not been successful, whether it be friends, acquaintances, enemies or strangers.

I put my size 20 jeans on everyday and look at the size 16 ones hanging in the closet that are a short tem goal; I know I can't fit in. I stare at the pictures of me at 120 pounds holding my now 19 year old son and knowing the majority of his life, I have been overweight. That he has to look back at pictures of him in elementary school to see a slimmer version of his mother.

I know my youngest son does not even have that. He only knows a mother who is fat.

I have a daughter who is struggling with weight and I know I need to be a positive influence in her life by showing what we can do, not preaching about it.

So I am sorry if your intention was thought to be positive, but I do not need anyone to point out I have not lost weight since the original thread was started. I beat myself up daily, I hate myself every time I look in the mirror and I struggle to find one thing positive before I turn away. Anyone who is heavy knows that life.

If you attend any WW meetings, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem etc...or go to any gym, you will find people who have come many times. Re joined many times.

Failed, many times.

People who struggle to figure out why they can not get the piece to click inside that they need in order to make the change from overeating, to eating just enough.

If weight loss was as easy as educating yourself and making a decision, the show Biggest Loser would not be in business.

Richard Simons would have quit after his 1st "Sweating to the Oldies."

I do know what I need to do. Knowing and doing are 2 different things.

I am going to keep heading down the road I have started for myself with exercise, determination and dedication.

Is it the same road I have been on before?

Darn right it is.

My hope is that I get farther on the road than the last time. And if it is not to the end, then I keep starting back at the beginning until I get it.

I do not owe that to anyone on this thread or any other.

I owe it to myself and to my family.

Mostly, myself.

And if I never succeed, than may I never regret trying.

 

[grumpyyoungguy]

Dan, I just saw your signature and the October dates but it says "couples only". Good grief! Does this mean, in addition to doing the STAGES season, losing weight, and trying not to lose my mind, I have to somehow find a significant other before I can meet up with you guys in Disney???? Oh gracious - I don't know if I can handle the pressure. I mean, I haven't found prince charming in the last 39 years. Do you really think he is going to show up in the next 5 months????

Hmmm...I believe Jiminy Cricket said it best...

' When your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. '

Knock em dead girl!!!

 

[tiggerplus5]

I will TRY to stay in line with the positive vibe of this thread. I am a super lurker! I do not write much but I am here every single day. I just cannot keep quiet right now.

I just wanted everyone reading to know that I joined this thread for an outlet to vent and mainly for place to share and not be judged. I hope others still feel the same way.

I do not pretend to know what is going on in anyone else's life. I promise not to judge anyone or pretend to have all the answers if/when I lose more weight than others.

I'm going to exercise tomorrow because I want to, not because someone else thinks they know me and they know what I need. I'm a grown up and can make my own decisions, good or bad.

 

[shellabell]

I am going to respond to a few things and then, will simply ask for this to be dropped. I did not ask for my life, my weight loss journey success and failure to be the topic of debate and or pointed testimony.

In response to the original post today that was directed towards my lack of success in my weight loss journey I will say this.

I am well aware I have not lost the weight I have wanted to lose for not only the past few years but since 1998.

I do not need anyone to point out I have not been successful, whether it be friends, acquaintances or strangers.

I put my size 20 jeans on everyday and look at the size 16 ones hanging in the closet that are a short tem goal; I know I can't fit in. I stare at the pictures of me at 120 pounds holding my now 19 year old son and knowing the majority of his life, I have been overweight. That he has to look back at pictures of him in elementary school to see a slimmer version of his mother.

I know my youngest son does not even have that. He only knows a mother who is fat.

I have a daughter who is struggling with weight and I know I need to be a positive influence in her life by showing what we can do, not preaching about it.

So I am sorry if your intention was thought to be positive, but I do not need anyone to point out I have not lost weight since the original thread was started. I beat myself up daily, I hate myself every time I look in the mirror and I struggle to find one thing positive before I turn away. Anyone who is heavy knows that life.

If you attend any WW meetings, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem etc...or go to any gym, you will find people who have come many times. Re joined many times.

Failed, many times.

People who struggle to figure out why they can not get the piece to click inside that they need in order to make the change from overeating, to eating just enough.

If weight loss was as easy as educating yourself and making a decision, the show Biggest Loser would not be in business.

Richard Simons would have quit after his 1st "Sweating to the Oldies."

I do know what I need to do. Knowing and doing are 2 different things.

I am going to keep heading down the road I have started for myself with exercise, determination and dedication.

Is it the same road I have been on before?

Darn right it is.

My hope is that I get farther on the road than the last time. And if it is not to the end, then I keep starting back at the beginning until I get it.

I do not owe that to anyone on this thread or any other.

I owe it to myself and to my family.

Mostly, myself.

And if I never succeed, than may I never regret trying.

It's great that others have had such wonderful success, but I am one that struggles with losing weight. A lot of us fall over and over again, but it's the getting back up that counts.