Oh Deb first

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Next as a read your post I thought I had read it before, and then I realized you were quoting and I started to feel hopeful for you then dashed
I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a friend at such a young age who is "healthy" just makes NO SENSE. Death is part of life and when it comes for those as our elders I think if we are graceful in handling it that is fair, but when it comes to the young there is nothing graceful about it.
Cry as you need and talk to us and share. That is what seems to get us through our grief sometimes.
I'm a big believer in those that we know in life know all of those the rest of us know in heaven. So while Brian is dancing and eating up a storm my dad and Michelle's dad are standing off to the side chuckling (as they have found each other there, as Chel & I have here) It will all become clear for us when we reach heaven, until then have faith and trust in God.