There are workout videos available on youtube! I did a couple of 10 min pilates sessions last night (HOLY COW I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE ). So if you're in a workout rut, check on youtube -- you may find something you'll like!
Glad to hear you are using all the resources you can.
I love Pilates and yes, it is not easy at first, but the good thing is that there are variations you can use to get through and the results are worth the effort!