Tammy, if I could, I would hug you for the next few months. I lost my brother to suicide and I am aching for you. Please, Please, know that you don't have to do this alone. Get help. talk talk talk and talk. Cry all you want. Go ahead and be angry. It took me about 3 months of sreaming and crying, before I was able to sit down and think about what to do next. Don't go through his things until you are ready. There is a great book by Kay Jamison calld Night Falls Fast. After you have dealt with the multitude of emotions you will be facing, read it. It really helped me forgive my brother, at least on the intellectual level. I will be thinking of you and your Family. May God Bless you and Keep you through your time of grief.
My Deepest Sympathy,
Tracy