Update on original post Page 1 ... I have officially hit "rock bottom"...

[Blondie]

Sounds to me like you are completely overwhelmed right now! I know the feeling, trust me. I had two babies 11 months apart all while living far away from any family that could help me out. During those years, I never felt so sleep deprived and worn out in my life! There was only so much help my DH gave me. He worked 8, sometimes 12 hours a day. I remember feeding the youngest in my lap holding a bottle with my left hand, while holding a bottle or sippy cup to my oldest sitting next to me in the wind-up swing with my right hand! At 10PM at night watching Arsenio Hall!

It does and will get better but you need to come to terms with why you are feeling the way you are. While I never contemplated suicide, I did say many times in jest to my DH that I just wanted to go to sleep for about a month just to get away from it all hoping that maybe he would offer to do some of the late night feedings (which he never did.) But it was a temporary emotion. It passed.

And hopefully yours will too. Stay strong, hang in there and get help.

 

[Lorix2]

Karen - PLEASE seek some professional guidance and confide in a friend, family member, neighbor, your husband - someone, so they may help you in your needs with the kids if they can.

I'm sure you a very wonderful mother and person. You are asking for help so I know you care about your precious children. You deserve happiness, love and every wonderful thing being a parent will bring. You just need to get back on track.

Please call your doctor or someone right now. There IS help available to you!!

((((HUGS))) You can do it, hang on and tell yourself you'll get thru it. Please stay with us!! Think of your children and how happy you'll be once you've received the help you need.

I wish you strength!

 

[SuiteDisney]

Karen, this is too important to keep waiting. Take your children with you... I did.

 

[wdw4us]

I understand how you feel. I had these same feelings as you but did not recognize it as depression. I was not able to take medication because my “problem” was not serious enough and I had to be depressed for 3 months before they would medicate me. Never mind that I had these feelings for weeks before I knew what was happening.

OK, now for my home remedy. Until you can get to a Dr and get some meds (if needed) I want you to start taking vitamins – just a multi vitamin if your not on one already. Also, start exercising, go for a walk. YES I know that you have some small children, enlist the aid of either your husband, friend or realative to help you out. I was able to go walking with my husband every night to talk to him and get out some of my problems. He was a great source of help to me. Each night for 45 minutes, I had his undivided attention to spew what I wanted and the added benefit of exercise made me feel so much better and helped me lose some weight.

Your family needs you more than anything and you need some help. If you had a cold or the flu, someone would help, depression is no different, you need some help. If you can’t get out for a walk, buy an exercise video or just tape one from ESPN so you can work out. It is a must for your well being and weight control.

Take care and keep us posted.

denise

 

[catsrule]

Thanks for the update! I'm not sick, but of course after riding R&R at MGM that could change. I hope everything works out for you, wishing you all the best.

 

[Mskanga]

Karen you made me laugh with your "countdown to Kindergarten" for your youngest one, that was ME!!
I'm sorry that you feel so down but I think it's very important that you are reaching out seeking help. Best of luck to you. {{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

 

[WilmaBud]

I just wanted to say, please don't feel embarrassed. Do you know how many people have struggled with anxiety and/or depression? You are most definitely not alone. With all the stress you're under, no wonder you're felling overwhelmed!

I also want to put a good word in for Wellbutrin. My best friend takes it, on and off. She struggles with her weight anyway, and she always loses weight while on Wellbutrin. I do, however, think it's much more important that you get emotionally healthy than it is that you stay thin.

Take care, and please see a doctor. Keep us updated!

 

[goofygirl]

Some questions to ask yourself:


What's your DH doing while all this drama is going on?

and

What is more important- looking thin, or feeling happy?

I'd rather be fat and happy than thinner and depressed anyday.

Get on anti-depressants NOW!

They really work. I have had depression, I have no kids, but I know if I DID have them, it would push me into the suicidal zone.


Get the medicine, and get your DH more involved with the child rearing.

 

[BethR]

zakatak,

I am sorry that you have had another rough day of being a Mom.
I just wanted to tell you that you don't need to see a Pyschiatrist to get help. You can also see a Family Practice Dr. They can help you too. They are not "counselors" per se, but they can prescribe something to help you get through the days.
Ask someone for a recommendation for a Family Practice group. You probably would be able to get in there within a day or two.
Then if you need to continue to have counseling, you CAN go to a pyschologist. They can help too.
I don't recall, by any chance does your DH's work have a counseling program? Where my DH works there is an Employee (and Family) Assistance Program. They are there 24 hours a day. To talk, or make references. Perhaps there is something like this available to you?

Good Luck! We are here for you. But you need flesh and bones help...

 

[Maray]

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.
I hope you are doing better and that you are geting some help and support.
Hugs, Marilyn

 

[snoopy]

Sounds to me like you are just terribly overwhelmed along with being depressed. I've been there, but luckily I've always had a very supportive DH and family to help me out when things got too crazy and chaotic.

Can you look into maybe finding a teenaged girl who is trained in babysitting? That way you could get out of the house at times, or at least long enough to go see a doctor. You should be able to find a girl/boy who has been through a babysitting course through your local YMCA or church. Or maybe even through your local middle or high school.

Good luck, and keep us posted.

 

[zakatak]

I am doing ok this weekend. We got out last night to see Harry Potter. It was pretty good, long but good. I don't like spiders (enough said).

My son came home sick on Friday (104.3 fever) so that made all three kids sick on Friday . My youngest, who is in the middle of potty training, has the runs which is ruining her potty training. Oh well...

Tomorrow I will call the doctor. I am really starting to look forward to my sebatical. It is getting close.

For those wondering where my DH is, he travels alot during the week, but he does help out alot during the weekend. He doesn't understand how far gone I am, though, so it is hard to take the time that I need. However, Saturday I stayed in bed until 10:30am reading and snoozing.

Thanks again for thinking about me. I will update later this week about the doctor.

Karen

 

[helenabear]

Karen, I am so glad to hear that you are hanging in there. I think seeing a doctor and going on your trip will do you a world of good! Oh and thanks for the warning about HP, I hate spiders so I'll cross that one off of my list. Take care of yourself and keep us updated on how you are doing. I hope to see you in two weeks

Elaine

 

[Lucky4me]

If you want to drive as far as Greece, I'd be glad to watch your kids if you drop them off. My sister Polly has three little ones, and likes a few hours to herself once in awhile. She gets overwhelmed too. (shes POLLYANN here on the DIS) You two should get together and I'll watch all the kids. We could have a little play group! I love watching them because they all go home after awhile.

I'm serious karen. PM Polly or me any time and let us know if we can help.

 

[newmousecateer]

Hi Karen.

I sent you a PM

Marilyn

 

[TigrLvsPooh]

Hi Karen!

Let me just tell you that I could have written your post! Being a Mom is so dang hard, especially when you have a husband who is away a lot. I have a 1 year old, a 3 year old, and I also take care of my handicapped sister 5 days a week. Things are crazy around here. My husband is away a lot too, so it makes it even harder. Sometimes I feel like getting on a bus and never looking back.

Last year I did about 6 months of therapy. It really helped me. I know lots of people who are on antidepressants who haven't gained any weight. Actually, about half the moms I know are on something. My closest friend is on Prozac and she is thin. Also another friend of mine is on Paxil and is thin. I think you should give it a try. Also therapy! It helps so much to just unload all the stress. It's not like we can sit down and talk to our toddlers about our problems!!! LOL


Hang in there! Remember, you are NOT alone. All us moms have to stick together and support each other. You can PM me anytime. The DIS is my escape from reality. LOL