TTC thread take 2

[jenm2878]

I'm so sorry Cher.

 

[Kennywife]

I can't stand hearing about things like that.

God creates life...I believe in God. I believe that he is the creator. So why does he create life in a 16 year old who cannot capably or financially raise a child, instead of a married couple who yearns so badly to have a family, has the finances to do so, has a wonderful relationship, have jobs, a stable home....why??????????

That's how I feel. I get so furious when I see some little you know what pregnant. It infuriates me. Espiecially cause I know that women who have no trouble conceiving whatsoever will never appreciate what they have.

Here I am, having to have surgery and my insurance (don't make me laugh) won't cover jack squat. Honestly, it is times like these when I think maybe God doesn't even care.

Gabbie

 

[ckret01]

Cherbear - I am so truly sorry. This whole thing just sucks! I am sending you a giant hug from NY.

 

[cherbear]

I'm so sorry Cher.

Cherbear - I am so truly sorry. This whole thing just sucks! I am sending you a giant hug from NY.

thanks a ton

 

[joanne312]

Cheri,
I am so sorry. I'm thinking about you and the pain you must be feeling. One day, one way or another, you will be a success story.

~We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated.~

 

[Kennywife]

What Joanne said.

I know I go off the deep end and get upset from time to time...but then....I realize in the end, it will all be worth it. Watching my child see Mickey for the first time...priceless.

 

[ead79]

Well, guess who is going to need surgery?

Me.

My left fallopian tube is swelled up and the only way to unswell (is that even a word?! lol) it is to slice it or remove it.

They will do a laparscopy/hysteroscopy to fix it and reshape my uterus. (It's septid. Dent in it.)

They will also shave my fibroids.

The good thing: my ibs willl be gone!!!!! The tube is pressing on my colon. Plus, fertility should be restored and af will be normal....for the first time ever. lol.

If I don't get it done...I run the risk of an ectopic pregnancy/mc.

I tell you, I neeeeeddddd a Disney vacay after all this!!!!

Gabbie

I'm sorry to hear you will need surgery, but it sounds like it will be a very positive step in the direction of fertility, so that's good news!

Hi Ladies…..I haven’t been posting on here for a while…guess I just needed a mental break from my failed IVF cycle. But I have been reading everyone’s posts After my failed cycle it was determined that I needed a Myomectomy to remove a fibroid that I had that had gotten very large (8cm) and two other small ones. I had the surgery last Wed and am home recovering now. The surgery went well although I got very sick from the anesthesia . Once I heal in 3-4 months I will go ahead with a FET cycle. I just hope that the few frozen embryos I have make it. My age (37 going on 38 in two months) does not help matters

Also, Last year I had a laparoscopy to cut one of my tubes that was bad from my ectopic pregnancy I had two years ago and remove scar tissue from my other tube which at the time I knew wasn’t in the best shape but at least it was functional…or so I thought. While I was in the hospital last week my Dr called me to see how I was doing from the surgery and he had said to me on the phone that it appeared that the tube I thought was somewhat okay was practically gone. He said he could barely even find it while he was doing the surgery. I went to see him yesterday for a post-op apt and he mentioned it again that I should do IVF again in 3-4 months because both my tubes are pretty much gone. To be honest I am devastated. I really thought I still had at least one tube that I knew wasn’t in the greatest of shape but was at least I had it and thought it was functional but know I know that is not the case. I am really having a hard time with all of this.

The worst of it all is my family and friends don’t really understand. Everyone keeps telling me now that I had this myomectomy to remove my fibroids I should be okay to have a child naturally. And I keep repeating myself to them that no, I cant have a child naturally because of my tube situation and IVF is the only way and that is even if that works. It gets so exhausting telling people this over and over it’s like I wish I never told anyone anything.

I hope I don’t sound mean when I write this cuz I don’t mean to be it’s just that I know you ladies GET IT! And I just need to talk all this emotion out with people that understand what I am going through. If you made it through this very long post, THANK YOU! I really appreciate it.

Welcome back--we are here for you. This is so rough!

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

Cher, I am so, so sorry.

This is my second trip to the TTC thread. The first was August of 09 when it looked like I had PCOS and something was going on with my thyroid. When the thyroid issue turned out to be cancer, it was just too hard to be here since I couldn't even TTC yet.

I still can't but we are hopeful that towards the end of the year we will be able to. I started metformin for the PCOS and just wondered if anyone had been successful losing weight on it? I have about 20 pounds to lose, and the scale just won't budge.

I have PCOS as well, but for now my doctor chose to do Clomid alone instead of with Metformin. But we'll see if that winds up changing as we go along.

Hi ladies. I've lurked here for a bit but this is my first time posting. Been TTC for about 2 years. Found out early on that friboids were causing the problem. Had a few removed in January. Then found out one side is open while the other is blocked. Started clomid last week. Went to doctor on Tuesday and was told "there are 3 great eggs on the good side." Was told I should get a positive LH surge on Thursday Or Friday. So far nothing. My cycles are normal so I have no idea why I didnt get a smile in the window. I'm planning to test for the next 3 days.

Welcome to the group!

While I was getting my haircut yesterday, my stylist confided in me that her 16 yr old daughter is pregnant. She's so upset because she thought the lines of communication were open, that she was doing the right things for her and never thought in a million years that this would happen to her daughter.
The news hit me like a ton of bricks. Dont' know why it should. She's not the only teen girl I have heard of that got pregnant. Just made me so mad and sad at the same time. There's no way this girl can take care of a baby and didn't want one in the first place, while we're all here dying for a child. Just sooo isn't right. Makes no sense.

On a happier note, we've decided to pursue another adoption. Called to set up an appt. to get information (ironically yesterday). Hoping that God has another plan for us. Will keep you posted.

Yes, teen pregnancy is a mystery to me as well when those of us who have stable lives have so much trouble. Congratulations on the adoption process beginning again! Very, very exciting!!!

That's how I feel. I get so furious when I see some little you know what pregnant. It infuriates me. Espiecially cause I know that women who have no trouble conceiving whatsoever will never appreciate what they have.

Here I am, having to have surgery and my insurance (don't make me laugh) won't cover jack squat. Honestly, it is times like these when I think maybe God doesn't even care.

Gabbie

Without violating the rules of this board when it comes to discussing religion, let me just say that it's my belief that God does very much care when one of his children is suffering and struggling. It's so hard to have to try so hard for something other people seem to do at the drop of a hat.

 

[ead79]

Hello Ladies!

We just got back last night from a trip to the World for Destination D, and we leave on Thursday to head back down for Star Wars Weekends. DH is beyond excited to get his geek on, LOL.

I'm nearing the end of my 2WW. My bloodwork showed that I did ovulate, and my progesterone was 15.4 (higher than last month's 13.4). So that's a plus for sure!

While they said that I could test starting on CD28, my cycles have been 31 days recently, so I just don't have the heart to test until at least then. I just hate seeing a negative, so I guess I want to put it off a bit, not that it changes the end result of course.

If this cycle didn't work, then we have 3 months left of Clomid. So if it's negative I'm going to ask if we should do another Clomid only cycle, or if it's time to go ahead and get the referral process started and skip this month of Clomid so as not to "waste" it.

 

[Minnesota!]

I'd like to thank all of you for your condolences and comfort.

Minnesota, I'm extremely touched that you would post here, I can't tell you how much it means to have you say that. Your statements are so true. People that don't go through this just have no idea.

I am hoping to get back into shape. After I pick up the pieces of my heart, I'm going to get back into the gym, and do P90x, and eat right. I mean, I don't even fit into half my clothes anymore. I have 2 pairs of jeans that fit. And another that is pretty tight, but on a good day I can squeeze myself into them.

Since last night I've had pizza, coke, alcoholic beverages, and this morning a huge venti white mocha from starbucks. All the evils that I couldn't have for the past month. I'll get out of the funk soon, and then I won't be able to have any of that, except on a rare occasion. I want to be healthier, so that when we are ready to try again (with donor) we will have the best chance of getting pregnant.

I remember pigging out on taco dip after one particulary heartbreaking cycle. Calories don't count when you are sad Glad I could offer you some comfort, too. Take care...

On a happier note, we've decided to pursue another adoption. Called to set up an appt. to get information (ironically yesterday). Hoping that God has another plan for us. Will keep you posted.

You can PM me if you want, but we are starting to persue adoption, as well. Since you are relatively close (MN/WI)....can you provide me with any info as far as agency? Currently we are checking out Lutheran Social Services and uhhhh...goodness the name of the other agency escaped me. It's in Stillwater, MN. I know LSS has a great program, but I am very open to any information you can provide me...we are so new to the process. Hoping to attend an info meeting in the fall.. Thanks!

 

[Kennywife]

Just got off the phone with the center. They don't take payment plans usually for surgery. I can't afford 2,500 right up front.

They said they may be able to do some financing. I'll know more tomorrow when the woman I talk to is back in the office.

Is it 2012 yet?

Gabbie

 

[tink_n_pooh]

Anyone have any input on a short luteal phase? We have our first appointment with an RE the end of next week but I'm just figuring out that it seems I have a short-ish luteal phase if I'm ovulating at all (still not sure about that, temp says probably O'd on CD 18 but no + OPK). According to FF I have a luteal phase of 9-10 days

 

[skuttle]

Cheri, I'm so sorry! You take all the time that you need and do whatever you need to do. I always enjoyed eating and shopping. And don't feel guilty about it! Infertility is HARD. An emotional roller coaster that no one can really understand unless they've been through it. There is no right or wrong way to deal with it...we all just do the best that we can.

D&D, I STILL get that feeling even though our little miracle was born in January! My cousin just announced her pregnancy after trying for maybe one month. My initial reaction was just like it was a year ago when we were still struggling. Crazy, but I guess dealing with IF is something that changes you forever.

Thinking of all of you always.

 

[Kennywife]

Well, bad news. The insurance won't cover it and the RE won't set up payment plan cause it's elective. So now, I don't know what to do.

Gabbie

 

[ckret01]

Well, bad news. The insurance won't cover it and the RE won't set up payment plan cause it's elective. So now, I don't know what to do.

Gabbie

Oh no, that stinks! I'm really surprised your Dr won't set up a payment plan for you since your ins doesn't cover it. Was this for the laparoscopy for your tube if you don't mind me asking?

 

[ckret01]

Anyone have any input on a short luteal phase? We have our first appointment with an RE the end of next week but I'm just figuring out that it seems I have a short-ish luteal phase if I'm ovulating at all (still not sure about that, temp says probably O'd on CD 18 but no + OPK). According to FF I have a luteal phase of 9-10 days

Unfortunately I don't have any advice but I would like to know myself. When I was doing acupuncture, I was keeping track of my BBT and was bringing my charts to him. He said that I might have a short luteal phase and I was shocked cuz I thought my temps were normal but I guess I was always reading my charts wrong. He didn't say how to fix it or if there was a fix but that acupuncture could help. Unfortunately I had stopped doing acupuncture b/c it was out of pocket for me.

 

[D&DDisney]

You can PM me if you want, but we are starting to persue adoption, as well. Since you are relatively close (MN/WI)....can you provide me with any info as far as agency? Currently we are checking out Lutheran Social Services and uhhhh...goodness the name of the other agency escaped me. It's in Stillwater, MN. I know LSS has a great program, but I am very open to any information you can provide me...we are so new to the process. Hoping to attend an info meeting in the fall.. Thanks!

I will PM you. We're not using the same agency we did with DS13. That agency was horrible. We have contacted 1 private agency and our state's foster to adopt program. Might be PMing Tinytreasures to get some info on this. So its kinda like we are starting out new.

Just got off the phone with the center. They don't take payment plans usually for surgery. I can't afford 2,500 right up front.

They said they may be able to do some financing. I'll know more tomorrow when the woman I talk to is back in the office.

Gabbie

So sorry Gabbie. That just stinks!!!!!!

D&D, I STILL get that feeling even though our little miracle was born in January! My cousin just announced her pregnancy after trying for maybe one month. My initial reaction was just like it was a year ago when we were still struggling. Crazy, but I guess dealing with IF is something that changes you forever.

Don't think that feeling EVER goes away once you have the scars of infertility.
Your picture of your boys is adorable. So happy for you.

 

[Kennywife]

Oh no, that stinks! I'm really surprised your Dr won't set up a payment plan for you since your ins doesn't cover it. Was this for the laparoscopy for your tube if you don't mind me asking?

Yup. For my tube and also a hysteroscopy for my uterus. I'm looking around to find a dx that will help.

Gabbie

 

[cherbear]

Yup. For my tube and also a hysteroscopy for my uterus. I'm looking around to find a dx that will help.

Gabbie

I know the feeling Gabbie....my insurance doesn't cover squat! And now they are hassling me about my FSA money. Just give me my flippin money already, I spent it!

 

[Kennywife]

 

[cherbear]

got rear ended tonight. 5 days past the IVF failing. what awful timing this is I cried....I'm sure the guy who hit me didn't know what to think. It's just such an emotional time, and the accident shocked me. I drive a mazda 3 and he was in a huge truck.