So I think I told you all about the night I walked into the brewpub to meet my college friend whom I reconnected with on FB, found out she was having fertility issues, was looking forward to commiserating, and I was blind sighted when she walks in 4 months pregnant with twins right? (Conception via IVF success!) OK fine, recovered, all is good. . . until last night. I also hooked up with my room mate from highschool, (yep I went to boarding school, long story

) We started talking in May and we have been communicating on and off. . . she sent me a book on keeping centerd, I sent her a package as well. We were going to do the whole "egg donor" process together. I've been emailing her stuff that I found out ect. I get an email with the title "News" last night. She's pregnant. . . and has been for the last 15 weeks. . . She is cautious so not telling anyone but family and close friends. . . I called her and left her a message that I was so happy for them and I replied back to her email and said the same thing. . . I read her email after Mike and I were done looking through the donor database and picked up my BB. Again I'm so happy for her but I feel like I've been blind sighted AGAIN!

I know that she has suffered and I know it has not been easy and the drs said this is a one in a million chance, I was just so unprepared for this that it kinda hurt. It's not like here ya know? I mean I'm ok with the pregnant people I see on the streets and I smile (unless they arrive in packs and that scares me

) But poohballs. . . Really. . . Again. . .
That being said! When ANY of you get that BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL BFP I can't wait to hear the news! You see I
know it's going to happen for all of us at some time and I'm expecting the wonderful news from all of us at some time and I sit on pins and needles waiting for it

and do the happy dance

when we do! So bring on those BFP's ladies I think we are due
Now my psycho mind is going to drink my coffee and relax. . . I
think I will take myself to the SSR pool and sit in the sun, read my kindle and have a beer. That is my happy place. . . Anyone wanna join me?