Morning ladies! Hope everyone is doing well! I have a tour & tasting this eveing with a group of parent's for Meg's school. . .I've mentioned I work at a brewery right?

Should be a fun night

We are taking Meg off to the bus tomorrow to go to sleep away camp. Going to miss her goofy face next week, but not the attitude. Since my cousin is staying with us for a few weeks she is very territorial over all of us and doesn't like that the 4 year old is getting so much attention. Cute in a 4 year old, not so much a 13 year old.

Uggg this to shall pass. . .
I spoke with my gynie, who is also a midwife, and my RE this week. I asked my RE if I were his wife or daughter what would he council me to do. He told me that his reccomendation would be for me to talk to one of his psychologists so we could make a truely informed emotional decision about our next steps, donor egg or adoption. I asked both of them about going to a homeopathic dr. They both said that it would be a good idea, however, the homeopathic meds would not give me more eggs, which I knew, but weird to hear.

, but would prepare my uterus to be more fertile to accept the donor egg if we chose to do that. I thought I'd be really upset but I'm ok because I have figured out that if we can do this financially we are going to go the way of the donor egg. Now here's the touchy part. My cousin, who is staying with us, offered to donate eggs to me.

What a wonderful gift and truely I am moved beyond words, but. . ., and you knew it was coming right? I don't think I want to share this with her. I'm not sure if she could separate the parent and child thing and there is really only one person I would want to/could share it with and she is too old unfortunately to donate. Besides the fact that my cousin lives in Ireland so it would make this a very difficult process anyway. Mike and I want to use an anomyous donor so that we can completely own this process. I think that if we shared this with someone close to us that it brings someone in to close. . . Does this make any sence? It's totally our issue but part of this whole process is being comfortable with our decisions. I'm so nervous about the financial part. We would have to pay for the "donor egg" but the procedures and meds are covered.
Sorry for the long post. . . It helps to write. As I write I think more and things become more clear.