Hi Everyone
I had my vein closure yesterday. It really hasn't caused much discomfort. I went for a 3 mile walk today without any trouble. I should be able to run again by Thursday.
In the OR I heard someone say "she must be an athlete" and another responded, "she's a runner". Then someone mentioned an athlete who's resting pulse is 29 and I responded in my grogginess, "I didn't think that was humanly possible". Then someone said, "well your's is 38!". Then I went to sleep with a smile on my face

My other NSV (Non Scale Victory) was that the johnny wrapped all the way around me with room to spare!
But the night before my surgery, DD15 was in a car accident. The driver was charged with DUI. She's alright, but she was kept in the hospital over night and they did cat scans and xrays. She continues to make bad choices and I know its not over yet. One of the nurses asked me if I have tried to get her help (knowing that the kids in the car where all intoxicated). I wanted to scream (not at the nurse,she wsa just being kind). I spent all of 2003 and most of 2004 trying to get her help. Taking her to programs and therapy and battling with the insurance company to get services (not to mention gaining 65 lbs from the stress). No one can help her until she wants help, and she doesn't want help yet. So we continue to live in this unrest and the whole family must endure the consequences of her actions. I feel like a prisoner. I have no control. Luckily DS4 doesn't know anything about it. I want so much for him to have a normal childhood and not constantly live through her drama/trauma. I know I'm talking very harsh, but its been really rough. The first few trips to the ER I was a basket case, but I've become numb. The fear, doubt, guilt, worry was destroying me. I refuse to let it continue to destroy me. I think I have finally put to rest the "where did I go wrong" and "what ifs" and just accept "this is how it is".
I've also been so busy, totally overloaded at work and bringing work home. I just can't keep up with journals. I hate not feeling connected. I hope things get back to normal soon
Sunny