Rajah
DIS Veteran
- Joined
- Aug 17, 1999
- Messages
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I will be going to EAP as well as soon as I can talk about it with strangers more than to say that he died and when. I'm a very closed-person when it comes to *talking* out my emotions. I know that. I also know I can open up and get them all out on paper/typed word. That's why I've been doing so much typing. My mom's the opposite, so if I can get her to go in, she'll do better healing. I will to, when I can. And I am keeping them in mind, I promise. I'm just not ready yet. There's no point going to a 3rd party when all I can do is sit there and cry or refuse to talk. :/
As for work, I'm going in on Saturday and/or Sunday for a bit with a couple of friends so I can get used to being back at the office. I'm *not* looking forward to going back there, since my dad was such a close friend and coworker, and some other reasons I won't go into right now.
I know life won't ever be back to the same "normal" it was before Christmas, but getting back into the "normal" routine is going to help me a bit, I think, and that's what I meant. I just wish I could stay home on those days that are bad. But beyond maybe a little time next week, that's unlikely to happen.
As for work, I'm going in on Saturday and/or Sunday for a bit with a couple of friends so I can get used to being back at the office. I'm *not* looking forward to going back there, since my dad was such a close friend and coworker, and some other reasons I won't go into right now.
I know life won't ever be back to the same "normal" it was before Christmas, but getting back into the "normal" routine is going to help me a bit, I think, and that's what I meant. I just wish I could stay home on those days that are bad. But beyond maybe a little time next week, that's unlikely to happen.
