Hi you guys, I waited till I was all settled before I could write to you.
I didn't make it. What's unfair is that all of the people who tried out for Drum Major, made Squad Leader. My best friend made it but I didn't. I felt like part of myself was ripped away, and my dreams for now were crushed. See, I plan like this: set your goals big (go big or don't go at all), few and far ahead. As for Plan B...well, there is no plan B. (I'm gonna start crying again.) One of my "friends" said that it was ridiculous of me to set my goals and expectations too high because I was never gonna reach them. Needless to say, I have cut my associations with her down to few. My best friend (Sav [pronounced like Mav but with an S at the front]) said I looked so bummed and that she was sorry. It wasn't her fault that she was chosen. But all night long, I was guilt tripping and wondering how badly I screwed up not to get it. K did say that on a scale of one to ten (10 being best), nobody got below a 7 and three scored above 9.5. I didn't have the guts to ask him how I could improve. I was afraid I'd start crying.

I felt so disappointed because the only other clare (clarinet) trying out was gonna be a senior. (Next year they're all outta my way!)
My AH (accelerated history) teacher picked up on my mood, as did all else. He asked what he could do. I said "Evict ____ from my position or a million dollars in small bills." My band friends who sit next to me made me smile (AH was talking about the 'old days' when they had to walk to school, in 18 ft deep snow, but he's only 28.

A friend started talking about how her ancestors only had one pair of pants, so one person could go to school a week. AH started talking about underwear everyone shared. I pictured it and started laughing. I can also sing Just Keep Swimming from Nemo in Spanish!(
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WISHsis!!! Hi. Thanks.
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d: ham rollies, cheese and crackers, salad w/ dressing (6)
no fp's used.
b: cereal 2 bowls (4)
l: turkey sandwich w/ lettuce on a bun (4), 18 oz water
s: cheese and crackers (4)
d: ??? going grocery shopping tonight, so hopefully Applebee's
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Exercise: 30 minutes dodgeball.
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How do I feel? Very disappointed because after school, I had to wake up to reality, where everything is wacko. During school, awesome.
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Did an unofficial weigh in after school, because I felt good. 186!!!! Hope my cheerleading uniform still fits because I got fitted when I was 203. Good or bad?