Poppinsme
I LOVE SMILEYS
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I'm pretty stunned over the number of people who are actually advocating that a child rapist be let off the hook because, as far as i can tell, #1, it only happened once so what's the harm and #2, it's an inconvenient expense so lets cut our losses.
I don't think a smiley exists for what's going though my head so let me just say that any kid subjected to violence lives a lifelong sentence. My DH mistakenly woke me up this morning at 5:45 when he was going to work. Unfortunately, my head doesn't live in a Swiss chalet and the moment the world quiets down I'm back as a little kid stuck in whatever horror my mind decides to leave me and it's got quite a number of memories to choose from. This has been my entire life. When I was really young I drank but eventually I realized chemicals just made me more likely to make mistakes so I found other coping mechanisms like TV, books, books on tape anything. Today I tried to sleep but my mind kept bringing me places i didn't want to be tossed and i turned and I cried and then I get up and watched something on Netflix so i can quiet my head. Anytime I'm alone can bring tears because when my head is left to wander it always finds sad places to be, doing laundry or driving for a long road trip can be agonizing. Anyone who thinks that woman has gotten over what she endured at 13 is 100% out of their minds, she's just trying to quiet it down which is the best that can be hoped for. I get why the victim might want it to go away but the idea that anyone else out there isn't enraged is mind numbing to me. YOU are a part of the problem and nothing anyone can say will ever change my mind about that. Angry doesn't even begin to cover how I feel about some of the posts here.
PS- I'm not saying we should go to war over it. I am saying that claiming it's no big deal is really messed up.
To LuvOrlando,
How interesting.
I also hate to be alone as my mind starts to wander back in time.
I have many memories placed behind locked, chained, cemented, welded shut doors. Never to be looked at or relived. I can sadly never, ever relive those horrible things.
When I was younger I went to a therapist who wanted me to "talk" about the past and open up. When I tried what I became was a crying wreck. Its just to damn painful. I don't want to look back at a 35 year old male raping me. And thats OK and healthy for me. My opinion only. Heck I didn't tell my parents until my 30s. I was ashamed.
But not anymore as I did nothing wrong.
Hugs,
Poppinsme


He should stand trial for his crime. Hollywood makes me sick.....give him astanding ovation at the Oscars a few years ago, fall all over themselves to make movies with Woody Allen

