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Well we talked last night and umm... He basically said He thinks we should split up and has been feeling this way for a long time. I knew we were having some problems but I thought things were doing much better so I feel completely blindsighted. He already had mentally worked out custody arrangements. I feel just sick. He kept imploring me to be logical about it and I kept crying because I am head over heels in love with him. He just sat there very cool and collected, like it was no big deal.
Last night he slept at a friend's house. I told Cat he had to go to work early so thats why he wasn't here this morning.I am completely heartsick. I don't know when or if this TR will be finished. I don't know what to do at all. I guess there is nothing I can do, He said he isn't in love with me and hasn't been for a long time.
Well at least I will start losing some weight. When I am this upset I can't keep anything down.
I am off to cuddle my kids and play with them and pretend that my life has completly fallen apart.
-Becca-